There are things that I can control, things I can't. I DO know the difference. I want to explain to you all why I get so mad at Jeffrey Katzenberg.
First and foremost I've been a victim of this crime since 1987, but the stalking and torture began much longer before that. I am 49 years old and will be 50 next month. I want to have at least one part of my life that is Lori-Free. There hasn't been one since I was in the sixth grade. I would be lying if I said that this could have been over in 2010 without a doubt. Adding 8 more years to it was not necessary and it wasted 8 more years of my life and they were not good years. I've spent most of the time, without my friends, without sex or my boyfriend and without anyone that I can rely on while the six most notorious operators moved right down the street from my family and did everything they could to take more from me.
Before you say it, yes, I do realize that I am the public face for this crime and I am the informant that discovered the truth. I knew that this would come at a price, but that price could have been paid in 2010. 8 years of additional torture were not necessary and they have taken a huge toll on me, my mom, my dad and family.
So when I get mad at Jeffrey it is simply because this wasn't necessary. It was the perfect plan and it was done with nothing but legal means. "Why" is always the question I have for him and as of yet, still no help from him.
I set up this team with his son, not with him. I have protected his son and believed in hims but there are questions as to why his father sidelined our plan and agreement in favor of doing nothing. That question needs to be answered.
Then there is the question of the sobriety factor. I became sober about 10 or 11 years ago. Reducing my role to that of "Lori's favorite target" was not where we were at. It is very hard to get sober, but I had a goal of being that way for myself and Christopher. The fact that I worked in a place that I absolutely hate for 8 years to pay my dues, was not enough. Then money was stolen and all that work was for nothing.
Lori has a high school fantasy about using this system, where we grew up, to make me look bad to everyone. Isolation and ignorance of this has been something that Jeffrey has ignored completely. I literally have no friends around me because I can't. If I do, Lori attacks. I have lots of friends, trust me, I do. The problem came when I needed them, Jeffrey seemed to keep them away from me. Now what I've heard is that Missy Pissy, told him that this was a good idea. PROBLEM: That is NOT what I agreed to. He made a unilateral decision to do this without consulting the experts.
I got to where I am now with this investigation by doing a lot of work on my own for these friend to be safe. One by one, they were arrested just like always happens. If we had ended this in 2010, not one of them would have spent a minute in jail. You can see that my plan was to protect my friends, but they aren't allowed to protect me. In favor of a plan that I've never heard of, this system was then used against me to steal, rob, lie, email, text and do whatever they could to stop me, like I was the bad guy again. This isn't true. I found all kinds of things for Jeff and his wife but never was that acknowledged. Instead he took that information, saved his own business and said nothing to me about it. There were incentives set by the copyright people about movies that were never addressed. A lot of work went into this and I paid the price for telling him too. Still nothing.
So you can imagine that once I locked up this case that adding 8 more years, watching my boyfriend and friends go to jail unnecessarily and stealing my money have combined to let me feel like this guy isn't nice. He hasn't even said thank you for anything. For some odd reason, he made me the joke and the enemy. When you see how early this could have been taken care of...you can understand that I would have been 42 instead of 49. There is a huge difference.
What most people can't comprehend is that for the last 13 years, I haven't had a single moment of silence without Lori talking or one of her friends talking for her. If she leaves to make a personal appearance, like at a funeral for one of my friends, these people have to pretend to be her and talk like her. Not one minute of one day in 13 years have I not heard negative commentary about every single thing I think about, talk about, see, converse...everything. This goes to Lori's obsession. She simply can't stand it if I think about anything but her, so she forces herself upon me and my thinking. Believe me, if you look at the transcripts before this happened, you never see me think about her even once. She hated that.
Regardless of whether or not Lori is "Lisa", she is the person who is in big trouble for that restraining order. What that did for me and what I did with it was simply brilliant law following. What Jeffrey did to it was make it insignificant. He diminished my hard work by ignoring what I did. After forty years of struggling, I have her. What the FBI will investigate is her computer system and they will find this crime there, but in the mean time, I could have been Lori-free and with Christopher. Before any of you start doubting me, Lori was the person that filled out that restraining order and had it pushed through the court and she didn't even work there. Caught!
There were times when I got myself back into terrific physical condition only to have no money to live on. I saved it alright, but it was taken without a single report to the police. That was bad, but having my family lie to me was too much.
Add to this that my skull was crushed and the hospital is responsible for not diagnosing it after two MRI's and the police harassment I suffered...you get the picture of someone who is DONE with this girl. Trying to put me in jail again to shut me up. You see there hasn't been any protection for me. None.
I can't tell you how much time and effort it takes to write 7000 blog posts like this. This doesn't include the seminar, radio shows, television interviews and taping up of thousands of posters in the gay community to warn people. You see the effort was Herculean, the response was Mickey Mouse. Actually Mickey probably would have been nicer.
I'm struggling with two monsters that kill. The help I'm getting is zero. I have a death caused by this system in my family already and I'm HIV positive because of it. The attempts on my life are many and real as rain. There are police reports for two of them and bullets don't disappear. Now the threats are the same as they were right before the last rape and still nothing.
My frustration with Jeffrey comes from taking a perfect plan that I suffered through and trashing it in favor of something that took at least eight years longer. The monsters moved down the street from my family. They've all been robbed. They've all been contacted. They've been facebooked. They've been lied to. What I am experiencing should have been gone eight years ago, but still I can't get my own friends to talk to me. Why Jeff, why?
You see I understand that he's a father, he's wealthy, he's got his own ideas and that he's stubborn. He wasn't indifferent, he was negative acting towards me after all the stuff I did to help him understand this crime.
There is no expectation that this will end without me doing it all by myself. What I wanted to do was exalt the people that did try to help. Jonathan and Barbara with their inside work. Christopher with his information. Anthony with his research and his witnessing of events and child porn. Benjamin and Martin with their fact gathering. They deserved to be put up and admired for their patience if nothing else. None of them have been allowed to do this. Not one of them has been able to sit down with me and talk. I'm the person that put my whole family on the line against a girl that has killed one of us and tried to kill another. I should be the person that does this because I've known her longer and I am entrusted with their families trust.
It's not that he didn't help, it's that he appears to have helped the other side. The appearance of impropriety and silence imposed by him, I believe, is an abuse of his power. Why he poo-pooed the law, I can't tell you. What I do know is that when I have needed him the most he was there the least.
So, you have to understand where I am coming from. It hasn't been "a little help" from Jeffrey, it has been "absolutely no help from Jeffrey or his wife" at all. I made this team. I put them together. I called the shots because I knew what I had. I still do. If I pull the plug on Lori without Jeffrey helping he will likely end up in jail. This isn't fair to my friends that deserve to be honored by the gay community. I waited and waited and waited but nothing for me ever came. Including Christopher. Jeffrey claims this is all Missy's doing, but it's been a year and three months since she moved in with Lori. Where is his excuse now?
It is disappointing to know that what I have to do, I still have to do alone when so many of these people benefited from my torture without doing a single thing to help me out in any real way. What can happen now is my own friends can be put in jail because I have to protect my own family from the two monsters. They flatly refuse to testify to what Lori did in Sedona prior to the restraining order that Lori tried to use to put me in jail. Refusal to do so is illegal and now I have the horrible task of exposing all of these people for negligence while the attempts on my family are many.
When you read how I did what I did to catch Lori you will be amazed. It is the finest thing that I've ever done and I did it for love. I love my community. I love Christopher. I love my family. I love my friends. It was a lot of suffering through. I had to stay alive broke. I had to suffer through my own family's doubts. Nobody has ever acknowledged my brilliance except Bryan Anderson who knows part of what I did.
It's a done deal. Lori, Lisa or not, is caught red handed. If there is anyone out there that thinks Jeffrey won't get pulled into that mess, you are crazy. Lori would do anything to kill the Versace of film. I appealed to Jeff over and over but he would not budge. Only him and only his way. I tried. I tried to appeal to all of you to convince him. He simply will not help me as if I've broken the law. I assure you, I have not.
So you all tell me. What should I do. Protect my family at the risk of jailing my friends or wait until Lori tries to kill one of my family members again. Remember, a year and three months ago she helped to steal $27,000 from me. Less than that, she tried to keep me from finding a job. She contacted the federal court and kept me from having a job that pays three times more than what I make now that I am an expert at. It is actually a job that is many steps lower than where I worked before too. My own friendship with the clerk there is ruined and not fixable.
My plan would have been done in 2010...that job would have been mine with Christopher and we would be happy. I have a right to be upset. There is still not one explanation from Jeffrey or his wife.
What should I do?
