I think that every rape victim must feel the same way in terms of knowing that they were raped and not knowing how to explain that feeling of knowing. I'm not one of those people.
When I went to bed in September of 2007 at my friend's home, I was sober, I was fully clothed, and I was alone with him in the home. When I awoke I was completely naked, which is an odd feeling for me, I don't ever sleep that way. A gold bracelet that my father and mother gave me for Christmas was missing. My friend was busy taking someone to the Ontario Airport, a favor that was asked of us the night before. The man, I think his name is Edgar, needed a ride and Jackson, another friend told us that he was going to the airport. I initially volunteered to take him thinking it was going to be from Cathedral City to Palm Springs Airport. When I found out it was Ontario, I didn't feel comfortable driving a stranger that far and asked Steven if he would do it. He knew the guy and once lived near him in Cat City Cove. I thought nothing of it and went to bed.
As I said, I woke up the next day around 1pm or so. Unusually long for me to sleep. I went to bed around 10 or 11 o'clock...sleeping until 1pm the next day wasn't usual. I awoke and Steven was gone but so were my clothes that I wore to bed. I felt odd, disconnected, I couldn't hear out of one of my ears, and I was bleeding. I found that out when I pulled on my jeans, commando, no underwear and began bleeding from my rear end. I knew something was horribly wrong. The amount of blood was a lot, but the odd thing was that it looked like old blood. Like when you put a steak out to thaw and the blood drips onto the plate...and sits while the steak thaws...like that. I remember thinking it odd...then it hit me...I wasn't wearing clothes in bed? I'm bleeding? My jewelry is gone...someone just raped me. I was so groggy that I couldn't function. I couldn't wear my jeans so I showered off, and pulled on my underwear and shorts. I bled again but this time the blood was fresh, red and new. There was a difference.
Just about this time Steven got home and I showed him the clothing. He looked genuinely stunned, but like he knew something. The natural thought is that he was involved, but it felt unnatural. Steven isn't a really aggressive person and I've never known him to rape anyone. Still, the timing of the airport trip with Edgar seemed forced for some reason. Like someone wanted one of us out of that home so that there would only be one of us there. Like I said, I had no memory of any of it. I was numb...and went home until my head started to hurt. Whatever was given to me to knock me out was strong...strong enough to let my crushed skull feel okay for about a day, then it was excruciatingly painful.
In the next month, for the first time, I was diagnosed with tb exposure and Hep C exposures. I have tests that show that the time I was exposed was at the time of the rape. I have tests that show I go to the hospital regularly for blood work (at the time every three months) and I'd never had any STDs. I also tested positive for syphilis. I assure you, there wasn't any sex going on between Steven and myself, he was having his own problems with his health too. My belief is that both Steven and I were being raped in his home when we went to bed. Steven may have more to add to this. He and I both know that sex wasn't something that happened with us, but I'd seen something once that makes me wonder if I walked in on his rapist one night. In my diaries, I talk about "Peter" raping Steven all the time...that's what Brian was telling me. So I wrote about it.
In fact, in the days and months leading up to that moment in time, I was being harassed night and day. I wrote about it often in my diaries and kept pretty good notes on what the "conversation of the day" was. There was a lot of sexual stuff. The conversations with Lori and Brian usually were. Mostly stuff about their predilection for young boys and rape. Lori likes to say, "How else would I know if they were into what I am into?" I am thoroughly disgusted by the conversations. Many centered around some cockamamy story about Steven being "protected by the police" and that this friend of mine, Peter DiMartino, was part of that security. It was a weird time but I knew that Peter worked at the Desert AIDS Project, not with the police. I knew that Steven did not know Peter or at least that is what he told me. Same went for Peter; didn't know Steven.
After months of this story, I went to Steven's home one night and literally feel like I witnessed a rape in progress. Steven didn't answer the door which was odd for him. Brian wasn't on the microphone for once in a long time so I got worried. I went to his home and saw through a window what appeared to be Brian LaFond, in panties, in bed with Steven who didn't move. Out cold. I said nothing to Steven about it because whenever I talked to him about something like that it became an issue that Lori would threaten him over. I let it slide...now I wish I would have asked him.
It wasn't long after that I was raped in Steven's home.
I would later find out that my exposure to TB and Hep C were the result of dead virus and dead bacteria entering my system and causing an antibody response from me. There were tests done, highly sensitive tests that showed that I didn't have tuberculosis or Hep C, that my immune response was antibody only. Our theory is that the refrigerated blood killed Lori's Hep C virus and Tuberculosis bacteria, but when I was raped, these dead copies of her viruses caused an immune response and two false positives. One thing that didn't die in the fridge was syphilis. I got that about one month later and had it wiped out immediately. Now I know it may be hard for Chief Reyes to understand, but I know what safe sex is and I have never been as promiscuous as Lori would tell him or anyone. During that period, Steven was very sick, there wasn't any sex going on at all and nothing outside. In most cases of rape, the victim contracting this kind of disease bolsters the case for rape. In my case, the Chief said there was no DNA, how could that be? I couldn't have given these things to myself and I wasn't having sex...you can tell from my labs, I am vigilant about sexual health. So no DNA from suspects is against that first DNA lab report.
The DNA report that I saw when the Chief was on my side, should have been able to show if the blood from the rapists has traces of dead tb bacteria, dead Hep C virus, HIV, syphilis and would prove that the positive results came from that rape. I know that there were other sources of DNA on those clothes. I saw the report, but someone else saw it too. Lori, I can remember, freaked out on the microphone when she saw it. She started to scream and yell at her brother. That was in July of 2009 when I had moved to Victorville/Hesperia. Jonathan was shown a copy of the report too. I wasn't given a copy of that report, I was shown a copy. So how did Lori get one and why would she be so inclined to have it in the first place? What is her involvement?
When evidence chains are so important to keep, it would be easiest to assume that my bloody clothing went from me to Officer Kelly Fieux who took custody from me to the PSPD, then to the lab who tests and creates a report then goes back to the police. Where did Lori get her report from? I still say that Lori hacks into the PSPD email system and pretends to be whatever cop she logged in as. A copy of this report showed her that she was involved along with her brother so the next step would be to get rid of the report. I think report number two is a copy and paste job from the same case but not from the lab. This type of break, in report information, is critical...it gives the rapist the opportunity to falsify evidence.
In any case, the rapists' DNA should have automatically been put into the DNA crime database though not necessarily the national database. This is important for the victims in Arizona that were raped shortly after Chief Reyes told me about their inability to "do anything else for me." Less than a week or two later the Palm Springs rapists appear in Sedona, Arizona, where I was on vacation with friends. Perhaps we need to see if that DNA matches the DNA in Arizona's case? How can we make that happen? We know that Lori and Brian were there, both Anthony and Jonathan are on videotape with them. This violated the restraining order that Lori sought and showed the stalking of a police informant whose rape case was just sidelined. It was a scary time for all of us.
Where is the Riverside Crime Lab on all of this? I would assume that they should know that someone is making a fool out of them. A sloppy second report makes all that time that they spent look foolish. There is no way that the PSPD could have cleared Peter and Steven with the text messages I have from Steven's phone unless DNA eliminated them. If it eliminated them then whose DNA are they comparing? Mine is obviously mine...so who did they test DNA from and even better why test for DNA if they didn't have anything to compare it to? The results were in. They tested after the initial report was back. This is crazy.
Maybe Edgar, the person that Steven took to the airport in Ontario could explain where he went and who set that whole thing up. It was once rumored that Edgar and Brian had a love connection up in the Cathedral Canyon? That's how I heard about it. For a few weeks leading up to the rape, I heard about Edgar from my friend Mark Finley. Was this more of Lori focusing on a scam to rape one of us and steal drugs.
I am also told that there is a videotape from the rape called, "The Drug Dealer and His Boyfriend", I sure would like to see that come up somewhere. That would give us a good idea of what Lori knew, since high school.
The DNA report that I saw when the Chief was on my side, should have been able to show if the blood from the rapists has traces of dead tb bacteria, dead Hep C virus, HIV, syphilis and would prove that the positive results came from that rape. I know that there were other sources of DNA on those clothes. I saw the report, but someone else saw it too. Lori, I can remember, freaked out on the microphone when she saw it. She started to scream and yell at her brother. That was in July of 2009 when I had moved to Victorville/Hesperia. Jonathan was shown a copy of the report too. I wasn't given a copy of that report, I was shown a copy. So how did Lori get one and why would she be so inclined to have it in the first place? What is her involvement?
When evidence chains are so important to keep, it would be easiest to assume that my bloody clothing went from me to Officer Kelly Fieux who took custody from me to the PSPD, then to the lab who tests and creates a report then goes back to the police. Where did Lori get her report from? I still say that Lori hacks into the PSPD email system and pretends to be whatever cop she logged in as. A copy of this report showed her that she was involved along with her brother so the next step would be to get rid of the report. I think report number two is a copy and paste job from the same case but not from the lab. This type of break, in report information, is critical...it gives the rapist the opportunity to falsify evidence.
In any case, the rapists' DNA should have automatically been put into the DNA crime database though not necessarily the national database. This is important for the victims in Arizona that were raped shortly after Chief Reyes told me about their inability to "do anything else for me." Less than a week or two later the Palm Springs rapists appear in Sedona, Arizona, where I was on vacation with friends. Perhaps we need to see if that DNA matches the DNA in Arizona's case? How can we make that happen? We know that Lori and Brian were there, both Anthony and Jonathan are on videotape with them. This violated the restraining order that Lori sought and showed the stalking of a police informant whose rape case was just sidelined. It was a scary time for all of us.
Where is the Riverside Crime Lab on all of this? I would assume that they should know that someone is making a fool out of them. A sloppy second report makes all that time that they spent look foolish. There is no way that the PSPD could have cleared Peter and Steven with the text messages I have from Steven's phone unless DNA eliminated them. If it eliminated them then whose DNA are they comparing? Mine is obviously mine...so who did they test DNA from and even better why test for DNA if they didn't have anything to compare it to? The results were in. They tested after the initial report was back. This is crazy.
Maybe Edgar, the person that Steven took to the airport in Ontario could explain where he went and who set that whole thing up. It was once rumored that Edgar and Brian had a love connection up in the Cathedral Canyon? That's how I heard about it. For a few weeks leading up to the rape, I heard about Edgar from my friend Mark Finley. Was this more of Lori focusing on a scam to rape one of us and steal drugs.
I am also told that there is a videotape from the rape called, "The Drug Dealer and His Boyfriend", I sure would like to see that come up somewhere. That would give us a good idea of what Lori knew, since high school.
