Go fuck yourself Jeffrey. Your kid never graduated from college, he never had to work through all the problems that it took to graduate from a U.C. school without mommy and daddy and a team of security taking him everywhere his heart desired. Your kid isn't anything like the rest of the victims of this crime. He isn't the kind of person that understands normal people and normal people's dreams. He's seen you stomp people's lives into the ground so many times that his response to other people is, "That's my dad for ya." It's sick.
Your kids grew up understanding that you ruin their friends' lives. They grew up knowing that they couldn't introduce their friends to you. They knew that if they met you, you would instantly ruin their friendships because you are such an asshole. You know something Jeff, you aren't a father, you're a jealous kid.
After forty years of disappointments in a life full of a series of really sad events, you would think I would have gotten use to being let down by now, but you would be wrong. I thought that when I finally had what I needed in terms of who was doing this to me and the evidence that was clearly there, it would not be nearly as hard as it became. Instead, it became exponentially harder with the addition of greed and bigotry at the hands of a tyrant that neither wanted to understand the problem nor did he want to help the people that were hurt the most. I've lived a life that nobody should be envious of. If anybody thinks that I'm in any kind of a position that you wish you were in, think again. It's not the kind of life I would want anybody to live. I have the respect of nobody. My family thinks of me as a burden. My peers and friends think that I've become a disappointment in terms of my success. I've lost all confidence in myself. I don't really need to prove anything to anyone any more. All I am waiting for now is death. I want to die. If tomorrow came and it was the last day of my life I would be happier than the last forty years. I'm not kidding.
You don't understand what it is like living with this whole world not knowing what you've been through. You can't imagine how horrible it feels to know that you were someone else in real life and everyone else thinks something completely different because of one lying bitch drug dealer. It's exacerbated by false friends that sat and watched and gambled your life away while they improved their own lives on the work that you did while they threw you under every single bus that came down the street. You begin to wonder about the selfishness of people and the greed of the people you thought you could trust.
A diseased sick social outcast with a loud mouth and sexual sadistic killer instinct that has managed to convince actual parents to act like children playing a game with hundreds of other parents kids, as if they have that kind of right. It's so sad to think that the privileged people of this world can hold so many others hostage while they get rich off of whatever it is they do in the dark when nobody else is watching. Oh they buy off whatever parents they need to, to keep them quiet and befriend a few others here and there, but the truth of the matter is this, they don't give a fuck about the many. All they want to do is maintain their status and fuck the rest of us that actually care about the many.
Christopher came to California to live out his dream and god damn it if he isn't going to get to have it all now. His mom will live here and his family will live here and all he had to do was use my family and throw my life away to do it. Isn't that a fucking bitch? What I want all of you to realize as he lives out his dream is what a fucking piece of shit he is for doing to me what he did. He never lifted a single finger to help anyone but himself. He never told the truth to anyone. He allowed his entire family to come and enjoy the entire fruits of my labor while he helped bury my dreams and read the eulogy while laughing with Jeffrey by his side. This punk assed bitch isn't someone that the gay community should ever accept. He should be thrown out and shunned as one of the worst betrayers of the public trust. He did nothing but turn his back on the people that helped him out of the situation that surely would have landed his sorry ass in prison. Oh he'll tell you he's sorry, but he isn't the least bit sorry. He hasn't worked one day in a decade. He hasn't put in one single hour on this investigation. His mother hasn't said one single word to anyone about the pain that she's caused me for working to keep her son from his torture. All she did was make me promise to keep her informed and for that, I've suffered immeasurably. I've only one letter from her...and it told me to fuck off. Just like the last email from the court.
You see people always want my help until Jeffrey gets involved. Then all of a sudden he does for them what nobody else will. Him or Alice Mendenhall. They bribe them with promises and anything they can think of to keep their two brats out of trouble. This whole lie is one big bullshit storm. Two kids that can't tell the truth. So Christopher has become what I hate the most; a traitor to the AIDS community and a traitor to the LGBT community for money and wealth. He's nothing like a priest. He's a son of a bitch. A liar. He's done nothing for anyone. All he can do is pray that his own father would forgive him for the shit he's done to everyone that knew that when I worked for his love I did it for his family. They in turn also told me to fuck off.
What I want all of you to know is that if you are implanted, give up. Stop dreaming. There is no hope any longer. Jeffrey will find you and crush your dreams. He will steal your money and lie about who you are. His wife will take your love and kill your hope. She's an evil woman with an evil child that hates you more than she looks like in the press. She's nothing like a mother. She's an evil bitch.
