My most sincere apology to this country's black communities and people. I may have thought I knew more than most people when it came to black issues, but I am far from correct. Because of this brain link that was illegally planted in my head and used by the PSPD, like it or not, I have learned that slavery is far more complicated than I ever thought. It is far more hurtful and dehumanizing than I could ever believe. It is also, because of this link, that black people that know what I think, know that I do not feel or think prejudice against anyone so this is pure in its derivation. I am not biased and don't think racist thoughts simply because I don't. It's one of the reasons that they know that I don't lie too.
In 2003, I was shot in the streets of San Diego. The world's finest city. It was my dream to live there and be happy. One person decided that I wasn't going to be able to live my dream and took it away with one bullet toward my head. She's proud of that! Then she got away with it because one man told witnesses not to talk to San Diego Police Officers that I know, know both the victim and the perpetrators and they know she uses brain link illegally. Nope, wouldn't want anyone to do that. At the same time, they will contact the same group of people to help with their insurance needs. What the fuck is that about? How can you contact friends of mine for your own needs and not anything else? I am in the fight of my life and everyone else is insured? How?
Would it be better if some rich white female brought you this crime in its totality instead of a gay man that was brutally beaten and ordered dead by a homicidal maniac? Why? I've never seen a police department get a rape case with suspect DNA, interview two gay men about the crime, then say that because the DNA comes from Lori LaFond and her brother, it didn't warrant an investigation, a prosecutor, a victim's advocate, or anything. They just let it slide like my life wasn't worth a damn thing...then two other boys that are minors at the time and aren't even gay were brutalized. There were more since then too. What the fuck is wrong with all of you?
Matthew Sheppard was tied to a fence and beaten nearly to death, then died and everyone was in an uproar. How do you think that I feel knowing that the police in his case found the suspects and put them in jail forever? I am happy that his parents got justice in the end, but the fact that I could be beaten just as badly down the street from the PSPD headquarters and nobody...NOBODY....did a fucking thing about it! Now one single solitary person has seen my smashed skull and said, what did the police do about it? They did nothing! Not one goddamned thing. Then, parents of gay children sat around and watched while Lori fudged a copy of that crime lab report from suspects with lots of info to nothing to report was manufactured in her own sister's home. She then went on to do more damage with a restraining order starring my own best friend and her sister as witnesses. What witnesses? This whole thing is a license to bash gay men and children by the PSPD. It is a license given by the Desert Regional Medical Center. It is a license given by the City of LaQuinta and its attorney. You can see the gaycism in the pleading! You see the further gaycism in the courtroom by a hand-selected Commissioner that broke federal law to, not only, issue the restraining order that got two boys raped, and in the ensuing bench warrant from a civil proceeding that I still have to deal with. It's a broken system with all intentions aimed at the one single person that went to bat for OUR community.
It's a shitty thing to do to anyone, but my three friends have accepted that fate for me without a single conversation about how I would feel about it. So many of those decisions were made by a wealthy man that didn't give one fuck about what I went through since the age of 9 because of the system he used to steal from me.
As to the plight of black people, I am doing my very best to try to understand how the things that this government and our people have done to you. I can't imagine being judged by the color of your skin. Like anyone could choose that. By the exact same standard, love built those beautiful black people....my skin isn't the problem it's who I am made to love. It wasn't a choice. It was a condemnation that I personally love. Same-sex relationships make as much sense to me as different-gendered-sex relationships. There is no difference to me, but there is a huge difference between me and Jeffrey as well as people like Lori and Brian LaFond & Co.
To me, LOVE IS LOVE, SO WHY IS THERE SO MUCH HATE. I have to live by the same laws as everyone else, so why am I not receiving any of the benefits? Because ONE MAN and a homicidal maniac said so, that's why. Because a police department let a criminal into their minds, operations, and cases, my life will always be in danger. A danger that most gay people don't even get. I have a mandated stalker. Mandated by the police and by the justice system in Riverside county. She sees it that way.
I can't understand why any police department would go to such lengths to hurt a victim of a very obvious crime. I think we all know that gaycism is all it is. A gay man does not stand a chance in Hell against a system that allows police to target someone that Lori has violated. If you say something, they arrest you for it. There should be no doubt that if she is a criminal, you will go to jail if you report her. There is no doubt in our community that it is directly the reason why police in Palm Springs, California target Lori's victims. Most of them work for her or pretend that they work with me. None of them do anything either way...except blame the victim for speaking or going to the hospital when she acts out.
Change doesn't come from the status quo. Change comes from a courtroom but we can never get there unless we are wearing the orange jumpsuit. The only way Lori's victims are allowed to go to court is if the police arrest them illegally. I was arrested six times after reporting my rape as suggested by Bryan Anderson, Capt. of the Crimes Against Person's Unit and Lori's ex-lover (according to court pleadings). How in the fuck is an informant for him less important than a girl he used to fuck?
If the lines of confusion look blurry, they shouldn't. Both Bryan and Lori were implanted by the USMC. Bryan was already harassed by Lori as a minor and an 18-year-old. I know, I remember. I was here while it was happening. So that 18-year-old becomes a cop and Lori becomes a rapist and now we all suffer because of that. You should see how my sister has suffered because of that relationship. It's a travesty beyond words for my family. Jeffrey sees it differently. Why? Who knows he just robs and stays silent. How is that happening? How is it that I can't even get a copy of that crime lab report that I am the victim of? If the police aren't doing anything more then shouldn't that be mine? Shouldn't a district attorney from this county be aware of that report? They aren't and Jeffrey isn't showing them. Why?
Christopher went to jail for stealing a bike that he rented. I did the research. The warrants that put him there were trumped up and Lori-based too. Rather than use that information as fuel for a fire of justice, it just went extinguished. He didn't seem like a quitter, everyone, honest he didn't. I can't understand the reasoning behind the decisions that he made and he won't let me. That's the frustrating part. It's so selfish of him to know who I am and what I think and realize it has no value to him. I think that when a person you love does something like that there is a point at which you say to yourself, how could I possibly understand anything that selfish and still be me? I don't.
Like I've said before, I told his mom the truth and when he asked me to talk to her, I did. I told her the truth because I heard my own mom's voice in hers. Now I can't hear my mom's voice and it hurts even more. My mom, thank God, doesn't know why I am so sad. She deserved more than that from Bryan Anderson and Bessie Smith of all people. So did my sister and brother-in-law. Lori stood on his grave and photographed it. She's so proud of something that has no merit. She killed a husband, father, brother, and a friend...and stood on his grave because Bryan wouldn't let her do that at his burial. Sure she was in the area though. A year and a half later she told her brother to kill me in San Diego... he tried. Nobody cared. Then again a few years later, she tried again citing her brother's failure, because, "That's the way Lori takes care of business." On video, on audio, and forever etched in my mind. Thanks to you Jeffrey! A Hell burned for eternity in my mind because you got involved. Why should I ever be thankful for his existence? I can't.
It's a different scar every single day. A rape victim of any age, gender, sexuality, or human existence should never have to hear from their rapist being so proud of her nasty accomplishments. I have to. I don't just think it, it's real and she is still so proud of getting away with it by using his money, his family's money, his family's name...I think of all the people that Lori hurt. He can be stopped just like she can....for the exact same tech too.
The point at which Jeffrey entered my investigation into my own rape and decided, even though I'm the police informant, that Kevin's family would never be someone that he would help understand this crime. Instead, he wanted the criminals' families to understand what their children were put through. What a fucking joke. Wouldn't it be wonderful if every single criminal in this country was given the gift of freedom to stalk their victims in favor of the law?
The price that Jeffrey and Marilyn will pay for what they've done to my sister and me is small compared to what they've done to the thousands of people affected by his homophobic ignorance. His "Only Help Women" attitude toward a crime committed mainly by women against men, gay men, is sickening. Missy Erickson deserves the death penalty as it is pronounced in the State of Arizona. The others that helped Lori do too, but to think that tits and ass are more important than a person with the ideas that I have makes me think that the problems in Hollywood run straight through his home.
I want the real truth to come to light about favoritism for celebrity kids. I want to show that money is the root of all terrorism. I want to show that in a crime with far more evidence than almost any I've seen, that homophobia was more important than the careers of law officers that assisted Lori in raping the gay men that she did. I'm not the kind of person that wonders any longer about what would have happened if Bryan's kids were the ones that were raped in Arizona....way past the idea that it would be different if I were gay. I am simply wondering where the justice is in a case that was less than a quarter mile from where that homophobic police chief sat for more than a decade. He should have to fear being indicted right along with the woman he feared so much. He should have to face crimes against humanity for such a low opinion of the lives he swore to protect then buried with a lie that nobody could challenge with the help of Jeffrey Katzenberg. Jeffrey didn't just bury the gay community he burned us. He calls it, "Pulling a fast one," I call it something far more than that.
I wonder what my family must think of me. I shouldn't have to though. I know what Bryan's mother would think. I know more than he's telling you too. His father lives less than fifty feet from Lori's own mother and father who damn well knew that Lori was torturing me...and that never phased him. Instead, I got, "I told you this would happen," after I was raped and beaten by his former lover. There is definitely some serious assuaging of guilt going on between Jeffrey, Marilyn, Benjamin, Christopher, Jonathan, Anthony, the LaFonds, and so many others. Your guilt shouldn't make you feel so powerful, it should worry you. I'm a law and order employee by profession. I don't believe in exceptions because of race or gender or sexual preferences, Jeffrey does. So all of you black people out there that think he is so fair-minded and so supportive, think again. If you were in my position, I would question my friendships with those Katzenberg family members that got a cushy break because their father watched me and misused my connection to this system. He is a lousy man. A lousy father. A lousy grandfather. He has money with no heart.
As for the Erickson family, shame on you. You should have all of your military privileges rescinded because what you are fighting for is the death of innocent civilians by supporting a daughter that kills gay men so she can use crystal meth. She's a cunt! I'm telling you that because she is. You could have been so much better than just spying on me and my sister. Your cunt daughter helped to kill my brother-in-law and caused the second brother-in-law to be divorced. YOUR DAUGHTER DID THIS! Your cunt daughter, sick with tuberculosis and God knows what other biological diseases she plans on spreading, did this. For no other reason than drugs. Shame on you all in that family. You call yourselves military. I don't want any part of the country you created. I hope to God that someday you meet your maker with a better excuse than Jeffrey's. A Godless man that thinks his luck was all hard work.
I couldn't put into words what someone like Bryan Anderson means to the gay community. He's Jeffrey Dahmer with a badge. Eating the gay community to put food on his homophobic table. There is a definite division between Hollywood royalty and Hollywood gays.
Christian would rather have his own sister's face kicked in than stop using crystal meth. His own father even allowed that to be the case just as long as he wasn't near the two of them. That's not parenting, that's ignorance and a crime! He lives with the girl that beat your daughter nearly to death and you think it's okay for you not to do something about it? Joe, I've been patient with you for a long time now. What I want to see is your excuse for not doing anything like a father should. What is it this time Joe? What is it this time Tracy? Who else went on television for your daughter's sorry-assed life? It wasn't Barbara. It wasn't Jonathan. It certainly won't be Jeffrey. So who else gave enough of a fuck about your tired-assed family than I did, even though your son still berates me every single minute of the day since 1987. You can't possibly be a victim Joe. A victim would have spoken up by now, a military vet.
I would like to point out that it's only the female criminals that Jeffrey is interested in as both Barbara and Tracy are rape victims too; with reported cases. You can't even do it for them? You can't seem to get it up for anyone but Missy Erickson. That will NEVER EVER BE ACCEPTABLE TO MY LGBTQ+ COMMUNITY, SHE LET OUT A MONSTER WITH YOUR FUCKING MONEY; THEN STOLE MINE.
Finally, for the rest of us that didn't line our pockets with Katzenberg filth money, I want you to know that someone still cares, even if you don't. I care about children being molested and tortured on film. I care about women being raped. I care about men being raped and diseased. I care about the spread of AIDS from the very source of other infections...Lori Fucking LaFond is that source. How on Earth can you own or operate an AIDS Foundation built on lies??? How in the fuck does that happen? Your own son was infected by Lori Jean Marie LaFond and you still don't care enough...Missy Erickson studied your family. Filmed them. Photographed them. Studied your daughter's mannerisms. You fell for it old man and now you want to cover it all up with your filthy dirty money. I'll remind all of you that he stole my money so I couldn't hire an attorney to defend MYSELF! Who in the fuck does that but a homophobic piece of garbage. I told you he was evil, and he is.
There is no law in this country against men like him. He is an affront to the legal system and so is his attorney. For any attorney of his to support the intentional infliction of emotional distress that he created so that he could escape legal problems is a matter for the California State Bar and every single judge that reads about how this attorney doles out justice without a gavel or a robe. You, sir, couldn't hold the underwear of the attorneys that I know. You couldn't possibly understand what your inexperience and lack of basic legal principles have done. You are a fraud. Nobody should ever consult with you. Your Hilter's lawyer.
I'm finished with teams that pretend to be on my side. Done with the friendships. Done with all the liars and people that used me to get wealthy. Why would I possibly need you any longer? Don't worry, you don't have to answer yet, Jonathan, but I'm going to force you to. Your father and mother as well.
The only house I'm interested in with Jonathan's parents is the fucking courthouse. That's all.
All I can tell you is that I am now going through this all alone without any team or boyfriend or cop that doesn't do what the law requires of him.
I no longer give a fuck about any past "friendships" with that fucking homophobic cop and his ancient girlfriend with AIDS!
