Hey Lori, I'm fine with being gay. Just because you hate yourself doesn't mean that I want to change who I am. So if you think that experimenting on me is going to change the way I feel about you, you might want to understand that you are who you are, but I'm not going to change. Especially not for you!!! A penis in your vagina does not make you straight. How you feel about that penis in your vagina does. I neither have a vagina nor do I want my penis in one. Especially not yours. I don't know if I can make that any clearer to you, but no matter what you say or who you piss off, my penis and your vagina will never meet...ever. Does that make sense to you?
Here's the other thing. No matter how difficult you make it for my penis to meet up with another penis, it still will never want you or your brother. I want to be very clear about this. I choose what my body does, not you. Just like you have the choice to do with your body what you want, I choose not to have your body or any other part of you involved with my body. You broke that line when you raped me and put your blood inside of my body. Your bodily fluids were forced inside me without consent, twice now. Both times I didn't consent to even being near you. Both times you knocked me out with a chemical that allowed you to invade my body...that was you forcing yourself upon me. I have never forced myself upon anyone, especially you. I don't even want to be in the same country as you, nor the same room, or anywhere else that you are.
That is the truth.
Where my penis goes and what it does or does not do, is, therefore, none of your stinking business. My bodily fluids are none of your concern. The reason that your bodily fluids are of my concern is that they were found in my body without any consent. Then they were found in the bodies of my friends, without their consent. If I know that those fluids are yours and I don't say anything then I'm as big an asshole as you are. I am not an asshole. You are. My friends and family members are not future experiments for you to try out. You don't know people and you use me to find people for you to hurt. I don't know of a single person that knows you that you haven't hurt. I have an obligation to my friends to tell them your true name and to tell them what I know you've done. I know it because I know you.
Your fantasies about me are not real. I have no fantasies about you whatsoever. You try to make your fantasies about me and my friends and family true have left them all hurt and damaged without an explanation. I have the answer and I have the right to tell them about it because they are my friends and family, not yours. If you will notice, I do not contact your friends or family. You use them in ways to make yourself look like some kind of victim of mine. I don't know that me wanting to be nowhere near you makes you a victim. I have the right to not want to know you. I also have the right to tell my friends that I don't want to know you.
Remember when I told people that I didn't want to know "Jessica"? That was me telling you that I didn't want to know you. I was very clear about that, but you wouldn't stay away from me. That doesn't make you a victim, it makes me your victim.
So, whose victim are you today Lori? What family did you hurt that you now say is hurting you? Who do you want a restraining order against? Who do you want to keep from communicating with your REAL family, now that you know I have no intention to? I have never contacted Lori's family about her and that's why she included her sister in the last one. Lori knew I wouldn't contact her sister from the beginning. I don't know her and including her in the restraining order was no risk. I wouldn't be able to talk to her afterward. No risk, all reward.
Lori's sister Jacquie knows this is true. I attended a memorial service for my friend's father. This was during the restraining order period. The LaFond's sat right behind us. We were there first. Including Jacquie in that restraining order meant nothing to me as I don't even know what she looks like. Lori insisted on attending that memorial but she didn't tell anyone about that restraining order. My family knew all about it. It was an ambush restraining order for my mom, dad, and sister otherwise, so they were told. I don't think Lori's family was told at that time, I would have left if I'd seen them there. I don't like confrontations.
