Lori's friend Missy might be the Bi-polar Bear type, but the personality switch I just heard on the microphone was a complete multiple personality switch. Um, I don't know a lot of people with mental illness, but I'm pretty sure the violent anger and tone of what I just heard was the rapist talking on the microphone. Did any of you catch that?
I'm emotionally really mellow right now so I'm sensitive to what Lori is doing on the other end of the microphone. I've told you before that EEG transmission and reception does have a lot to do with understanding the mind of the person harassing you. Physically your brain gets these EEG's. I know she's worn what she calls "her thinking cap" before because Jonathan's seen it. This is something that takes her EEG's and sends them through the wireless and you feel them. I've learned to contain them in the "not from me" part of my brain so that I can process my own thoughts without too much interruption. I think she believes that if she screams it's louder in my head but that's not what my brain hears, it feels her anger not her words. I'm super lucky to have done the research that I've done so that I know where it comes from. In the past, my body felt taxed if I spent time listening to her words.
How a person says something, as you know from normal speech, is sometimes as important as what was said. If a person is angry or hateful, you feel it in their tone, but when you are hearing it through your brain like we do, it's the whole emotion behind it that I feel even if I don't hear the words.
This is like the third time I've heard her do this...lately. There is also a chance that my subconscious remembers her voice in my brain from the physical attack when I got raped. This is a full-service mind fuck. Not only do I have to hear the voice of my rapist, the high school bully, but I also have to feel the anger in her words differently.
If someone says to you jokingly, "Are you stupid?" It makes a difference depending upon the tone. I know we aren't supposed to ask this kind of question people, I'm using it for a reason. It's inflammatory or it's funny. So it all depends on the EEG's of the person saying it. Certainly a boss asking this is inappropriate, but I understand that if it was a joke and we laughed it would be different.
Those EEG's from Lori transfer and we are hoping to show people why these victims get so upset and do crazy things. Someone else is pushing their buttons, physically as well as mentally. The body doesn't have an EEG firewall, it processes them the same. So more EEG's the more work on the brain. This is why many victims and police officers are so tired all the time.
So while Lori sits around thinking that she's going to say that, "Kevin thinks he knows what I'm thinking," think about that restraining order where Lori says she doesn't know what this is? Then ask Bryan Anderson if he knows what it is? Lori had to have parental consent for this system to be used with her...she had that done in the military as did other overseas military families. For Lori to claim that she doesn't know is blatant. I'll bet her real family members know about it too. What it does to a victim of this crime is what I'm telling you about.
Assume I'm telling you the truth...because I am.
This system doesn't control me. I don't have any feelings of hurting anybody. I don't feel the need to confront Lori about this. Nothing. I'm simply telling people what it feels like and that it isn't what she thinks it is. I know where my thoughts come from and I know they are peaceful and non-violent. I've never had any violence in my life for 50 years. It's true. There are police officers that have these devices in their bodies right now, how could any of them allow Lori to say that I'm wrong?
