If you have ever wondered what it is like when you are a victim of this crime, I can tell you. For a long time I felt like a goldfish in a bowl that everyone could see in to and I couldn't get out of. Funny thing about that is that I still managed to keep my small world in check for quite some time.
I think one of the most satisfying feelings that I have is in knowing that when I moved my fishbowl somewhere else, it would have a Pied Piper effect. Wherever I went, Lori would follow. That worked like a charm for the crime statistics in Palm Springs, but it did nothing for the people living where I do. There was something strange that did happen though. What once was my fishbowl now seems to have set me free so that Lori could live in the bowl I use to occupy with five of her most fishy friends.
Now Lori is the person living in the tiny bowl where everyone can watch and observe her behavior. The most idiotic of all things was HER OWN requirement that if you are on this system, you must always pay 100% attention to what she says and does. Why would someone want that? For attention. Unfortunately there wasn't any rule about what people would do with that kind of access. I know what they did to me with it, but with Lori it is still just like watching an idiot in a jar.
The more people that were added to this system, which is really just a matter of a password, username and a website, the less Lori's crazy ranting and raving gets. Nobody is really allowed to watch what I am doing without my permission which comes from Benjamin Katzenberg together with Christopher Monti. If someone is doing that, be careful. I don't want to snag anyone in this trap that doesn't really belong there. I should remind all of you that I am on this phone line, my own phone line, as a police informant. The other end of this wire goes to the other people that work for me. What we hear on the line is being recorded so that we can prosecute the offenders.
I think that the decision to use this line as a police informant wire was a brilliant one. There isn't anyone that I know of that has ever taken what Lori and Brian think is "their invention" and use it against them. It was at that point that I jumped out of my fishbowl and Lori moved in. There isn't any other way to describe how good that makes me feel. Now Lori can live under glass using her own rules to trap herself. She's the person that implanted herself and her brother to make thievery easier. There is nothing more ridiculous than a night of listening to Lori use drugs and chatter endlessly about how wonderful she is. It takes only a few minutes before you hear Lori and her brother, Brian, screaming at each other and fighting. This is what you get when you go too evil.
I just had another day off from work, but Lori and Christian used drugs the whole time and proceeded to act like idiots, banging on the inside of their jar trying to make as much noise as possible. *Noise* makes your EEG's look like you are angry or disturbed. Any kind of microwave speaking is going to make a victims' EEG's look like the screaming has some kind of impact. It's not really an actual picture of what is going on with a victim. Lori swears by it's accuracy, but I'm perfectly calm right now, listening to Lori's brother scream...it hasn't phased me, but I am sure my EEG's look disturbed. I'm as cool as a cucumber.
It is a daily occurrence that I am put through when it comes to this crime. A daily harassment where someone I already do not like is on the other end of a never ending phone call screaming at me to listen to her. Nobody would ever tell you that this is exactly how to make ME listen. I don't listen to people that force me. I would rather listen to a conversation that is entertaining or educational than some tanked up meth dealer hoping for me to change my sexuality and screw her. That's never going to happen. Not in this lifetime and not in the next. There is something about Lori constantly nagging me that forces me to write every single day about her childlike antics.
One thing that I have noticed though was how she tried to force herself upon me and my family by showing up to two memorials for friends' fathers. Now, Lori will tell people that she is in hiding because she is afraid of me. We all know that she's still the person that followed me to Arizona. When I attended these memorials, there she was. Now one thing I will tell you is that Lisa, at least the female voice that cackles at me, knew where I was going as soon as I made up my mind. So that doesn't let Lori out because she was there. My point is that she wasn't too afraid of me to show up where I was...I'm the one that left and told my family that we weren't staying! She sits around and takes pictures. For someone that filed a restraining order she sure didn't mind that...I wouldn't put myself near someone that lied on a restraining order application and I left.
There is a fear that not enough is being done to stop her. I will admit that this has taken far longer than it should have. There are ways to stop this person without any kind of danger. The tuberculosis alone should be one way to get her off the computer and have her quarantined. She wouldn't be allowed to live with her brother for a few months. No internet. No drugs. It's the perfect way to stop her and get this done.
Instead we have to hear her for months at a time saying the same exact things and trying to cause the same exact fights. If you've ever hear of the definition of insanity, this girl is it. She expects that if she nags long enough about the same things, she'll get what she wants. The problem is that what she wants is a world that does everything she says and the results are everything that she expected. There is no pleasing someone that has this much of a complex. She's obviously out of touch with reality. I don't know what planet she is living on, but it isn't Earth. Planet Lori doesn't exist...Earth does.
I guess when you have the ability to knock your victims unconscious and track whether they are awake or have been rendered helpless, it must give rise to some kind of odd feeling of power over them. I'm super careful about what I eat, what I drink and what Lori hears. I'm not going to set someone up to get hurt. I have to have alternate plans for just about everything. When you are dealing with someone that wants to hurt you, they are constantly watching what you are doing. In our case, it is constantly watching my thinking to find a chink in the armor. There isn't any way to describe what having a lifetime violent stalker is like. They don't sit in the shadows, they attack you when you least expect it. I expect an ambush from Lori every single second. Afterall, the last rape and beating came in my sleep and the police green flagged the "don't investigate" angle for her. I sleep with one eye open all the time. There is no feeling of safety thanks to Chief Reyes. He put me in this position because of selfish greed. His snitch won't go away.
There have been many instances of break in's at our homes. There have been cars opened and the contents stolen. Where we live there isn't any crime like this. To get to my mom and dad's house you have to intend to rob it. That's what this system allows Lori to do. It allows her to know if my family is all around or not, but if I am not around them, then she doesn't. Things like family dinners have been the reason we got robbed...nobody's around. I'm sure Lori's own mother and sister have the same problems. As soon as they leave, here come the two free loaders again.
It's a never ending game of cat and mouse that has been going on for way too long now. I'm over people taking things of ours without explanation or investigation. In Palm Springs, after my rape, Lori stole everything I owned. Reporting that would have probably gotten me killed. These police can't find a rapist that leaves behind her DNA in my ass, they wouldn't even take a report for something that Lori steals. For them, Lori doesn't exist and that made her head swell to the gigantic freak she is today. There couldn't have been a worse case scenario for the gay community than Lori being able to follow gay men and know what they were thinking. It was a total recipe for disaster. She's already too nosy and too violent from high school. To turn her loose on the LGBTQ community in Palm Springs was a hot, wet environment for a virus to grow. It did just that.
"I've been through everyone's families," Lori chortles, all the time. She likes to look at the interpersonal relationships between my friends and their relatives hoping that she will find someone sympathetic to use. At other times she will say, "I'm being too many people's family," which means that she is stalking too many people at once. Lori has her own language of double talk that I refuse to pay attention to. For instance. She calls her brother "Junior or her mother or her father" depending on how he is speaking to her at the time. "Anthony's boyfriend" is always referring to Jonathan Mendenhall. "A sister" is usually someone's mother or one of her lesbian mafia members. There is so much double talk that she tries but it makes no sense for her to harass people this way. If they don't have any need to decipher what she says, then she's wasted her time. You see my friends talk in code all the time, but we know what we are doing. We aren't trying to confuse anyone but Lori and her friends.
I must hear the same phrases and idiotic sayings a million times a day. She's isn't a broken record, she's a broken sound bite of hate. Every single time Lori tries to pit me against someone else, it's the same old one trick pony. She knows one thing...now that I can hear how she does it to people, it's no wonder Palm Springs is in the mess that they are in with this crime. She's a raving lunatic. How did she ever manage to speak to police officers? How did they even want to? It baffles the imagination that law enforcement professionals would hear her and not think that she's on drugs. My grandmother worked as a dispatcher for years, no way would you have talked to her or her officers this way. She wouldn't have allowed it.
Jonathan's family comes from law enforcement too. Big time, Long Beach law enforcement. He sat and watched what Lori did with the police for a very long time. He knows that contacting the PSPD is a bad idea for the victims of this crime. The only reason to do it is to make sure you jump through that hoop, but expect to be harassed by Lori and her friends. Yes, she may have stolen your things, but according to her, you have no right to complain about it. If you do, you will probably end up in jail or worse.
I'm getting to the point where I am ready to end this at all costs. That's a different position for me. I want to do lots of things with my life and I'm not doing any of them right now. I've been stuck in this rut for almost ten years and I don't want the rest of my life depending on when a movie comes out and how much time someone else's father has for me. It's very inconsiderate. I'm ready to cash in that misdemeanor warrant for a warrant for Lori's arrest. She's such a repetitious piece of garbage that I've grown tired of her lousy irritating friends constantly trying to put their hands out for a dime. If they want to be drug addicts, then so be it. I have nothing to do with them anyway.
My private concerns were for my friends. I wanted them all to have a chance to participate in the demise of "Lisa" the urban legend that has harmed most of them. I can't seem to communicate well with any of them and I am unwilling to compromise my situation. It's been almost 81/2 years since Sedona, Arizona and a full 11 years since my rape in September, 2007. I still can't sleep at night and my head will never be the same. I still hear that pompous Police Chief telling me that he "Can't do anything for me..." what an asshole. He should lose his job.
When I watch some of these women come forward with sexual assault allegations all I can think about is "my perpetrator smashed my skull and put her own blood in my ass," and the police wouldn't do anything. That's just fucking brutally bad law enforcement. The whole "make a victim look bad" thing isn't how law enforcement should treat someone and especially someone who has met as many victims of this crime as I have. My own boyfriend was raped and implanted...we know we aren't crazy. The police aren't really helpful. You can't expect them to arrest someone that can spill the beans on all of them now can you? The problem then becomes, what are they going to do when they have a murder to solve? They already do.
The observations that people have been REQUIRED to make of Lori (her own rule) does not match up with some "workplace violence" restraining order bullshit that she filed and got shoved through illegally to a warrant. These people see her in a whole new light than all of you. If you had to hear what they hear, you'd think that I am the most patient person in the world. I'm not happy with the current state of affairs lasting my whole life. I'm better than this and will show it. Nobody is going to throw my life away like Chief Reyes did. I would rather he get fired than live the life I have.
