"The Party Pack": The Story of Cialis and Lori's Sexual Perversion

If there was ever a person that didn't need an erectile dysfunction pill, it is me.  Not because of what you think, I'm just not really having sex any longer.  I haven't been interested and there really isn't anyone that I think of sexually right now.  I'm basically a 50 year old celibate freak show of a man.  There is still a good story that comes out of this though.

A while back, I was prescribed anti depressants by my doctor who has always been concerned that I am experiencing a depression that doesn't go away.  How could it? When the police tell you and everyone that you have "mental issues" on a new show, it kind of ruins your name in the gay community.  No longer are you the person that did the right thing by reporting his rape, you become the person that "made something up" and reported it to the police.  Nothing, in this universe, makes me more upset than thinking that this police department ruined my entire 40's by not doing their job.  I wanted an attorney to look into it...that's not happening either.

At any rate, when I was prescribed the anti-depressant, my doctor warned me that the side effects included erectile dysfunction.   At that time, I was kind of thinking that I would see Christopher again and that I would likely need something if the antidepressants took away my erections.  It's a fact, that's what happens.  So he prescribed Cialis for me, just in case.  By the way, no need for them...I never did see Christopher again.  

Regardless, I had three of these pills in my possession.  Lori, went absolutely berserk!  You don't have to be in the position that I am in to understand that Lori thinks of every single thing I own, like a prescription, as hers.  Literally she thinks that with the right combination of lies that she can get what she wants of mine.  Why shouldn't she?  She has been given free license since she's been here, Carte Blanche.  There hasn't been anyone doing what has been necessary.  Right at this very moment I have, at the least, four screaming voices on my microphone.  Every single solitary night it is the exact same thing now for 11 years...and four years before that.

Regardless, I've recently moved into a different place at my parent' s home to live in.  When I moved my stuff, I had all of these prescriptions with me but I ended up not finding the three Cialis pills that I had saved in their bottle.  You know what it is like when you know you've done something but you can't think of what you did?  You know these pills were somewhere in this mess of stuff I moved, but where?  The whole thing about it is when this kind of thing happens, Christian and Lori will harp on it forever.  Cialis pills having to do with sex, big time fuck up on my part!!!

Just so we are all on the same page here, remember, Lori is a meth addict and so are her friends.  3 of the 6 people in that sloth house are males.  Lori has been known to take Viagra, for some unknown reason she thinks it is an aphrodisiac, but as we know, Cialis and the likes only give you the ability to have sex, not a sex drive.    Tweekers, by nature, are hypersexual, and they notoriously can not get erections.  Lori's brother, as she tells people, is unsatisfying sexually partially because of his penis size but also because he's impotent.  Who isn't impotent listening to her nagging and whiny voice all the time.  She's so demanding that nobody would dare have sex anywhere near her.  At any rate when I lost these pills she went ballistic.  When you sell meth and GHB like Lori and Brian, an erectile dysfunction drugs, is what completes, "the party pack".  

Personally, I feel kinda sick to my stomach thinking about this right now.   Mostly because I know what Lori is thinking...it gives me a pit of the stomach ache that nobody understands.

You would have thought I'd lost a set of diamond earrings or something when these three little pills went missing.  Lori was upset that nobody in her camp knew where i put them and she bitched for weeks.  On her list of "things to steal from Kevin", these three pills are near the top.  Can you imagine what it is like for me?  I wanted these just in case Christopher and I ever did see each other again, but at the same time they are a source of Lori's obsession.

Well, as things would happen, I found the pills where I'd hidden them from Lori.  Prescription bottle with my name and everything.  You would have thought Lori's life caved in.  For E.D. pills.  I'm 50 and whether or not I need them I can't tell you.  I haven't had sex since 40 and now I'm 50...who knows?  Locked up safe and sound now, I won't have to worry about having them when I am 90.  They still won't be used, but Lori, can't have them.

Once I did find them, Lori started going into why she was so mad about my pills.  You see her sexual perversion with me has to do with denying me sex.  Not with her, mind you, I would never have sex with Lori LaFond, ewwwww.  She likes thinking that she controls when and where I have sex and most important, with who?  That's a very simple thing to explain, I don't have sex any longer.  I don't have anyone controlling my sex life but me.   What I will not allow anyone to think is that Lori controls my sex life.  She isn't as distracting as she things she is.  I also don't want people to think that I'm even thinking about sex, that part of my life is over.  I think about work, sleep and paying my bills.

I can't believe that Lori has become so focused on absolutely everything that has to do with me again.  Fucking ridiculous!!!