I've learned a whole lot of things when it comes to this "human experiment" from Lori about "techniques" she uses and "therapies" she's developed, but there is one that I think is really interesting...the one where she looks in the mirror and sees me.
We all know how Lori acts like she is everyone's sister. "I'm like a sister to him," she use to say about Steven Frey. Then, on the microphone, she would act like she was his sister "Sheree". If you don't believe me, take a look at the text message I got from "Sheree Frey" one time where she is talking about how "the police know me" and "her brother conveniently just left his clothes, keys, wallet and computer with her, but he was missing..." huh? Steven's sister, Sheree has absolutely nothing to do with this crime...it's his sister, Lori, that is the problem. Lori is NOT HIS SISTER. Just like Lori is NOT MY SISTER or my sister's friend. She never has been. She never will be. She is nothing like she thinks she is.
What Lori sees in the mirror looking back at her is a "gay man". Her definition of one. Not mine. She thinks she sees me, because I'm smarter, handsome and much better at the things she needs to be better at to survive. I'm better at drug dealing and I'm better at investigation. I'm not going to lie, I'm a good informant because of what I know. I certainly do not deal drugs any more and haven't really done that either. What I did was shuttle drugs from a dealer to a buyer, which IS drug dealing, but I haven't been involved in that in over 15 years and wouldn't. I'm as clean and sober as you can get. I don't have the problems that Lori has because I was able to stop doing that and find other things to do. Now, she wants to do to me what she's done to so many others, take away the ability to make money without dealing drugs for her.
Does anyone remember what Steven Frey went through? I do. I know him way better than Lori could ever imagine and in some ways, I know him better than anyone ever has. I am still his friend. He knows it and so do I. We had to separate our friendship to live. She would have killed one or both of us otherwise. This is where she also thinks she is with Christopher and me. I'm not the one keeping the space or distance, this is all Jeffrey. Christopher and I could be millions of miles away from here, but there is an outside influence forcing us to stay apart.
If you didn't know Lori and she was first meeting you, she'd tell you all about how she went to school in Riverside, then moved to San Diego and did all these things like travel to Hawaii or NYC, met people like Charlize Theron or someone famous and the language she uses isn't normal for her. She's using my life as hers. When you read how she had Christopher arrested, you see it. You see her using a story from my past to make her story seem credible. How does she know all of this stuff, it isn't because I told her. It's because she spies on me.
One of the things that I think is so fucked up about Brian and Lori is when they take credit for keeping their victims off of drugs. This is such a drug pusher move. Lori knows addiction better than anyone, because she is addicted. So she does this "jones-ing" thing as a weapon against an addict. This should infuriate people like Jeffrey and Marilyn because they are sober people. What isn't happening are two addicts not helping another addict. Jeffrey is simply adding to the pressure to use drugs. Any addict will tell you that addiction is always present, it is just about how far you are in your sobriety that you either will use that excuse or not. I wouldn't. I don't believe in using drugs any longer. It isn't and hasn't been a viable option ever.
One thing I am certain of is that I will not use drugs again. After this long, I am certain that it isn't my obsession. Smoking and vaping are two things that I've been doing, so Lori has keyed into that. How many times do you think Lori has mentioned vaping to her family? Lots, I'll bet because she sees me doing it. Vaping is how I am trying to stop smoking.
Lori is an addict pusher. She knows the button to push to make someone think about their past and to cause them problems in the future. I'm different. Tonight I pledge never to smoke again. I won't. I hate it anyway.
Lori is obsessed with my last vape battery that isn't broken but I don't use it any longer. She wants it. She must become me somehow...isn't that crazy. That battery and all the stuff is locked away now so she can forget about it. It's not in my car, like she's broken in to a million times before since college. She has my car license plate that has the name "KEV BOND" and the tags from 1987 or 88 when I was in college, if you don't believe me. She has my college diploma. She has my belongings. A bracelet given to me by my mom and dad made out of their high school class rings. She tells people that a boyfriend gave this gold bracelet to her and it is made out of his parent's class rings. If you've never encountered a sociopath stalker before, this is what they are like. They actually want to become you. It's like the "Talented Mr. Ripley" it's getting so weird. Lori and I couldn't be further apart in everything.
We aren't friends and never spoke to one another ever. Not "high school chums", someone that went to the same school that she obsessed over that I never knew. She bullied me. Had others bully me. Now she wants to be me. It isn't the way I am.
She's already stolen everything I owned once. She, I've been told, parades my high school letterman's jacket around like I gave it to her. No. That was in my possession until she stole it. She stole my high school class ring, also not something I gave her. She stole my gold cross my mom gave me in high school, still not hers. All of my T-shirts from the Las Palmas Hotel, a gay man's hotel, were also not given to her and she didn't work there. No women ever worked there.
She wants all the good parts of my life and none of the bad. Nobody in their right mind would want the life I have. It isn't right.
She's told people lots of things about me. I never knew how she could. I didn't know her and I don't know any of her friends. If she says to people, "I have a friend that knows him," she's lying to you. I wouldn't ever have friends that knew Lori on purpose without her intentionally getting involved in their lives. Nobody that I know would like her. She tells people that "if it wasn't for Kevin, Kevin's friends would like me." Why is that so important to her? If it wasn't for Kevin being a good friend to them, she wouldn't know who they were in the first place, so you see it couldn't ever work without me in the equation. This is what it is like when you are being stalked by someone that knows what you are thinking.
NONE of Lori's friends have ever heard me mention her name. NEVER. They have all heard her talk about me until they are nauseas. I don't have to talk about this girl because I don't know or like her. I wouldn't hurt her physically because I am not a violent person and she knows it. Would I defend myself, you bet your ass I would. I am an informant with information that leads me to believe she is a serial rapist and stalker. Almost all of my friends have her HIV virus. I can't stop telling people about this because then I would be a criminal and part of the problem. I refuse to be that person.
Her "closest" friends that I know are mostly people that I am friendly with. It's not like I couldn't talk about her to them. I simply don't care enough about her to do that. I've seen all of them too. None of them have heard a single word out of my mouth ever about her, including her precious friend Julie that is in Sedona, Arizona without knowing what Lori was up to. I was there. That's what she was up to.
People need to understand something here. I am not looking for a violent or criminal solution to this problem with Lori. I don't care about her sexuality, I don't care about her no tax paying lifestyle...what I care about is that I'm not allowed to move on with my life because she thinks she owns mine. She doesn't own me, but people keep handing her gifts...like a stolen bank account. That kind of shit makes me think that there are some pretty rotten people in the world outside of Lori too.
I abhor violence. I abhor violence against women. I abhor violence of any kind. What Lori lives for is violence. She likes chaos. She lives in a soap opera. She lives in a gay porn movie. I'm not that unsophisticated. I live in a world where I am constantly saying, "Why am I still here?" I've put in more hard work than anyone to keep myself going...but when someone comes in and thinks lending my enemy a helping hand is a "good idea", then I'm not happy. I'm not violent about it, I get angry and I get over it. Nobody gets hurt by my anger other than when I tell the truth. If the truth hurts someone, then that isn't my problem.
Nobody is going to do anybody any good by physically harming any of the six people in that house because they have to answer for their crimes against humanity. It would be a tragedy for their home to catch fire with them in it. Too many families need answers to the questions that they deserve. I'm all about making certain that when this household is arrested, that they are treated just like everyone else is. Not worse and not better. They deserve good lawyers that know what they are doing. They deserve to be kept safe. The legal system allows for nothing but equality of treatment. I don't want a hair on her head hurt, but that isn't what she wants for me. So I have to listen to someone prodding, pushing, filing false complaints, using the legal contacts she had and hospital contacts to ruin my life, but I have to be peaceful or Lori will come get me. It's a shame that good people have to suffer because bad people think of only themselves.
So let me ask you this...how would you feel if you knew the people responsible for a drive by shooting that nearly killed you, you resigned a career that paid a LOT more money than I make now because she lied to your boss, you survived a second rape and an attempt to reinfect you with stronger HIV and this person followed you to Arizona...and you have to be peaceful and non-violent. Look at what is being asked of me here people. All day and night Lori continues to tell me stuff about what she's done and what she continues to do...and I'm suppose to be calm, peaceful, relaxed. So for 8 full years I did this...and nothing came of it.
It's cool. I'm okay. I just wanted you to know what I'm going through because of you.
