I Deserve Better Than This

After all of this imposed solitary confinement by Jeffrey Katzenberg and his wife and their advice to my friends to "stop being Kevin's friend", you would think that I would be lonely and want companionship.  You would be wrong.  I am so tired by the people that I trusted that I am now seeking legal action against them and their parents.  Their wealthy decision to let me fight Lori and her five cronies all on my own while they sit around drinking margaritas is over.  What I've seen is a bunch of well to do parents that don't care about anyone else's kids.  Their own kids got as much help as I could possibly provide for them and In return I got stuck with Jeffrey Katzenberg and is sadistic need to help my rapist.

One thing that I want to be very clear about is that I don't need these kinds of friends any longer.  I don't need to be treated like shit under their feet.  I need to do something tremendous for my community and I need to find a man that believes in me not some billionaire's promises and lies.

Christopher and his mother lied to me.  They asked me to help them keep Christopher safe and in return I was handed Lori and her family to hurt me until they chose not to any longer.  That hasn't happened in forty years and it isn't going to stop now.  This case of harassment and stalking has gone on for so long with so many people watching and helping that I've grown tired of waiting for Christopher.  He's lazy.  He's not smart.  He's more concerned with Marilyn Katzenberg than he is with anyone else.  He's literally watched people rob my mother and get away with it.  I'm over this boyfriend and will be looking for someone else in the future.  I need a man not a puppet.

Now I'm at the point where I am on the edge of doing something more important.  I use to think I wanted these so called friends to help so that they could look better.  Eight years and two months later, they've all improved their situations with the help of Barbara who forgot about me completely.  She decided to leave me out here in Hell, alone with the one woman that has tried to kill me for four decades.  This situation didn't need Jeffrey, it needed a father without money.  It needed someone that wasn't willing to steal from me and my mother.  It needed someone that wasn't trying to put me in jail for trying to help my own community.

Now I have the daunting task of putting my former friends in jail.  Sometimes that is the job of the informant too.  You have to look at the situation and see it for what it is.  These group of friends destroyed my life for the 5th or 6th time.  I've lost count it has been so many.

Now I have the information that I need to do them all harm in the court.  It is time for me to find someone that cares about me, not Marilyn Katzenberg.  She doesn't care about anyone but herself.  Christopher has bought into this "poor Marilyn" thing so much that he showed his true colors.  Money, not me.

If there is anyone out there that knows someone that would treat me better than this, I am willing to meet them and explore a future.  I would never associate with someone like Christopher ever again.  I deserve better than this.  Lots better than this.  He's not the person for me.

I've been in enough relationships to know one thing. If I'm not first, then I'm not in that relationship any longer.  I have never met such a selfish person in my life.  His continued loyalty to that family of hate is not something that I will need in my life.

I've told Christopher a thousand times it is either me or Jeffrey and he picked the money not the boyfriend.  That is enough for me.  I'm done trying to convince him that this man is the person that put him in jail, Anthony in jail and continues to try to put me there too.  If he isn't that person then why did he steal money from my mother and me?  He's the person that everyone should hate for this situation lasting this long.  He doesn't care about anything but causing me pain.  For that, he can count on nothing from me ever again.

After ten years of waiting for Christopher to grow up, he's still a child.   He acts like a child and he isn't prepared for an adult relationship with anyone but Jeffrey.  I sent out a cry for help and he sat there sucking Jeffrey's dick some more.  What I am not going to do is continue to put myself through the bullshit of this imaginary relationship simply because it controls who I am, where I go, what I do, who I meet and how I am.  Christopher is the past.  I am moving toward the future.  It doesn't have him in it.

Any boyfriend that would allow Jeffrey to shield himself using him isn't someone that I want to be with.  We all know Jeffrey's tendencies to stick his nose in where it doesn't belong.  He did this with all of his kids and now he thinks of Christopher as one of them.  I've got news for that piece of shit, Jeffrey is using you for one purpose and you continue to let him.  He is a lying piece of garbage.

I'm honest, hard working, seeking justice for hundreds of gay men and women and Christopher is doing nothing like that.  He is selfish, self centered, full of shit and doing nothing more than making my life miserable.  He's done this before too.  When I took him to The Ranch for his recovery he slammed me to the people there.  I also got sober there and he ruined my relationship with the people that work there.  He has constantly sought to hit me and hurt me and I'm done.  This isn't going to continue.  My life needs to take a different path than the one he and his mother engaged in.

As of now, I have nothing more to do with Christopher and his family.  They are not the people that I thought that they were.  Putting me and my mother through this is the stuff that torture is made of.  I will have one and only one conversation with the Monti's and that will be the end.