"...but why can't I be the one everyone is in love with," Lori exclaims every single time that I do something to help the victims of this crime?
This girl is so confused that she actually tells people that we, the victims of her crime, "owe her something," for all that she's done for us. HUH? What the Hell is she talking about? There isn't one tiny speck of my life that she could or would ever have wanted to live where she was involved. She loves all the fun things that I did through all of the pain and uses them as "parts of her life story" all the time, but the truth is that she couldn't have walked 50 feet in my shoes. All the problems that she has cause me, my friends, my family and so many others over the years and she literally thinks that we owe her something for her "troubles".
This is true sociopathy.
A complete denial of what she is really like, in favor of becoming "more popular". My goal was NOT to become "more popular" with this project, it was originally to stop this crime so that Christopher wouldn't have to go through what I've already been through. I also didn't want another kid to suffer at the hands of this girl who hates kids, hates boys and really hates gay men.
Over and over, I've heard, how Jonathan's family "use to be close to her", but on court documents, she claims not to know a single friend of mine. In the book that we recovered from her former squat house, you can see that she has contacted nearly everyone I've known since my first year of college. It explains a whole lot about why things happened the way they did. To me, it is the most incredible case of psychotic that I've ever heard of and I've done my research.
Nobody in their right mind would be jealous of my life. It's not private. It's been painful since the age of 9. It is fraught with attempts on my life, HIV, horrid rumors and things that only Lori could have made up and spread.
Now that I have a handle on this situation and did it creatively, she wants to be "more like me" and wants to turn me into something like her. That's not going to happen. We are nothing alike. I want to prove that friendships are worth more than money with this project. All she is concerned with is who is she going to steal from now that my finances are being watched by LifeLock. Now I have made lots of really incredible friends and they are organizing to help us...she can't believe that the negativity has finally turned against her. I did it with ingenuity, intelligence and a whole lot of experience. The people that now pay attention to this project are influential and some, yes, are famous. This makes her green with jealousy. What I wanted to do was win over these celebrities and non celebrities, parents and family, with the truth about what this is like. Apparently it works.
What is important to me is making this situation better for all of the victims that were created. I have way too many friends that were hurt. I want people to know the real truth about who I am and what I've done. I want them to know, scars and all, about what this life was like and why. What Lori has told my friends is a fraction of the truth with a shit load of lies.
When people get to know who I am, I want them to know that I've done everything I can to help them stop her...I never want to see the face of a parent, sibling or loved one asking me, "Why didn't you do more?" It's the law that I tell you what I know and it is what will happen.
Jealous of my life, isn't something that anyone should be at this point. Nobody I know would ever want to have to hear her screaming and yelling every day about how much more she can do or how much more I owe her. I've been paying since I was 9.
It's time that Lori learn who I am and what I can do about it. Silence, all those years ago, didn't help take the bully out of the girl, it only made her think she could do more.
No more will I be silent about the girl who has harassed me and my friends since I was in the sixth grade. It is time to stop.
