Today I got to eat everyone. Yep. Food. Now yesterday I didn't but today I did. It was good too. In preparation for what is to come I allowed myself to have some food. You have to shrink your appetite when you know there isn't going to be much food in the future. Laurie, Jeffrey and Missy have seen fit to ruin things and you've got to tighten your belt so food is a luxury again.
"If I hadn't ruined my life with all those drugs..." boy I'll tell you, what a loser I've been.
I've been such a terrible human being for so long I just can't imagine what my life would have been like if I had just been a better person. I wish I was more like all of you people. If I had just been nicer to people, I could have been more successful like all of you reading this blog. I might have been a movie star or an actor or a singer or a movie producer, instead, I'm just a loser that had some girl that stalked him his whole life. Boy I should have been a better person.
Well, I guess, I'll just have to pray that some day I'll be better so people like you will take pity on a really awful person like me.
