Contrary to the unpopular opinion of several people that are watching "The Kevin Show", I am not a caterer. I am a police informant and a person. I am not here to cater to the hateful whims of two lesbians that hate men and I am not fodder for the cannons of wealthy millionaires that get off on watching poor people struggle to make themselves feel better. I'm just a person that really bad things happened to that wants to make things better for people. That's who I am. I am not going to be the guy that says the right things to make people feel better that did nothing to help the victims of this crime. It's really that simple. It's not an economic thing. It's an advocacy thing. I'm here to do for people what people did not do for me.
It's very simple. I want to do the things that I wanted people to do for me. I've been willing to put aside what I thought was a better idea for a worse one because there were more people on the "worse side". I was wrong. I had the better idea from the beginning. I learned that the majority, the silent majority, wasn't right. I was. I still did all of the things that a police informant should do. I just didn't go after the problem the way I would normally go after it because my team knew more than I did. I trusted them with something that I shouldn't have...my life. See, I know something that most of you don't know. Once people are offered a chance to save their own lives, your life doesn't mean as much to them as it use to. That's something that happens. It happens to good friends. You should always be careful of that. I know that makes Laurie and Missy very happy, but it's not of any concern to me.
The things that they have to do to make that happen are often illegal. I'm not about doing those kinds of things to anyone. I don't need to be hated forever to be liked for a few days or months. I like to be consistent. I like to be me. I'm famous with my friends for saying that all of my friends come back to me for friendship. I'm friends with all of my ex's. They all love me. They all say nice things about me. Not one has ever said that I did or said anything horrible to them. I'm the quintessential "nice guy". The reason people do the things that they do for Missy and Laurie is because they, like some girls do, lie. They misrepresent the facts and shine themselves up to the point where I look bad and they look okay...some people buy it. Some people don't, but like an investment, over time, those two never pay off. I do. I'm the long term friend. I have long term benefits to my friendships. Look at Missy and Laurie and see how many 10 year friendships they have? 20 year friendships? 30 year friendships? 40 year friendships? My numbers don't change. Theirs drop off dramatically after the 5 year mark. Almost all of theirs lose money, friends, relationships and respect over time...mine gain momentum. Just ask.
I'm simply not willing to cater to the types of "friendships" that Missy and especially Laurie want me to have. I pick my friends. I'm not into that whole, "someone else picks my friends for me" thing. Either I get a good feeling about you and I'm in or I'm not. It can happen while I'm getting a shoe shine, while I'm washing a car, while I'm in a library, watching a television show or whenever...when I see someone that I think exhibits the aura of what I like about a person, I decided that I want to be a friend. When the situation arises, if it does, I try to meet that person without being creepy or weird about it. I introduce myself and 90% of the time or more, I'm usually right.
You see, I get feelings about people that aren't based on what they do or how much money they have, I get it from another place. If I tell you, you will think it's weird, so I'll just say it's a feeling. It doesn't take more than a few minutes to get it...and it can come from a conversation that I observe between that person and someone else. I just notice things and make my decision over time. I'm always looking for friends. I'm not creepy about it though and I'm not "stalky" about it. When the time is right, I introduce myself and see if I was right. It's just that easy. If I am interested I've usually found out something about him or her that is not career related...that is an ice breaker or just a conversation starter, but it isn't formulated, it's natural. Almost never planned, I just do it naturally. If you want to be someone's friend, take a normal interest, not a Laurie interest. Part of the fun of being someone's friend is having them tell you about themselves on their own comfort level. That can't be forced, nor would you want it to be if you really want to be a friend. Good friends like to be around each other...
I don't like being too familiar with people too soon. Good friendship take lots of time which means that you also have to have your boundaries set very clearly. They don't have to be spoken like some people say either. Good friends know their boundaries without having to say all that much. More often than not I say, "We don't have that kind of relationship" to Laurie and she assumes I do. She thinks every relationship I have with men is a sexual one...that is not true at all! I would much rather have a good friendship with a man than a sexual relationship with one for one reason. Sex can destroy a friendship with a good person. It's also not always possible. It's also not always something that is necessary or wanted. It's also not all that important either. In friendships it isn't important at all. What is important is trust, loyalty and sincerity.
Missy, Laurie and Jeffrey struck at the heart of my most important factor in investigation concerning my team and friendship; loyalty. They sought to find my team and my witnesses, that I know are loyal, and make them appear to be not so. I've let that be known from the beginning. Some will say that letting your opponent know your requirements is a mistake, I think it is a distinct advantage with these three. It's very simple. Were you loyal? Can you answer that in the affirmative? If you can without me knowing the truth, be confident. That's fine with me. I'm not above admitting when I was wrong; if you know me, I'm the first to admit when I am. I don't know everything. That's been a problem. I have to go on instinct. That's sharpened my skills though. I go on what I've experienced and that is a stall of justice. So something is jamming up the stream. The evidence is there. The reports were there. The injuries are there. Where is the problem? The witnesses were there. The events occurred. Why isn't there justice seven years later. You see, I am an expert on investigations. I've seen many, much more complicated, with much less sophistication brought to trial and adjudicated in less time. So I know when there is a problem.
Remember, I've sat through a whole lot of criminal trials on the federal bench and lots more dispositions of criminal cases (cases brought to pleas before trial), so I know what is a timely exercise of justice and what is a bullshit investigation. This one is bullshit somewhere along the line. Big bullshit. There is evidence, beyond a reasonable doubt of Laurie's guilt, in that restraining order...I know it because I am a part of it and I know there are lies in it. I've read it, I know what I said and what is quoted by me is a lie. So I know there is reasonable doubt. For this to be ignored for this long, is concerning to me. I know a judge without prejudice will think so too. I know judges. I know lots of them. I know at least fifteen or twenty of them on the federal bench and none of them would think that what has transpired with that whole document was just.
I don't have to pretend to know what they would think, I worked for them. I know they don't like things like this when it comes to a person's civil rights and the rights of a police informant. These types of issues aren't ignored in a federal courtroom, they are explored and adjudicated. The actions that I took would satisfy them. The actions untaken by the police and my team won't. You see, I have what is known as a "higher standard" because of my training. I have a "federal judges' standard" that I've prepared for and that is because that is whom I've worked for. You don't hand a federal judge shit work, you hand them professional work for a just decision. That was my job. I did it very well.
This isn't Judge Judy here people, not that Judy isn't wonderful. Judy is terrific, but she's a television judge that has to make a decision in twenty minutes or less. She's awesome, but the kind of judge that I prepare for, looks at everything and then renders a decision, not just at what Laurie had to say. The court has never heard that I am a police informant for the man that she dated for "four years". The court never heard from Jonathan and Anthony that met with Laurie in Sedona, Arizona during the restraining order at Laurie's insistence. The court never saw the videos of Laurie's salacious introductions and the court never gave me the chance to have due process or I would have brought two Laurie's into the courtroom to decide which one I was dealing with. The one that worked there or the one that filed the restraining order. You can't be both.
I don't cater to lying. I don't cater to threats. I don't cater to indecisiveness. I work for the People of the State of California and the County of Riverside. I have a job to do under very difficult circumstances. I do it very well. The standard I have set for myself is federal because that is the highest standard there is. Why set the bar low? Set it as high as you can reach and let's face it, I did pull ups on that bar for many many years. That's the level I am most fit to serve the people.
I don't like being too familiar with people too soon. Good friendship take lots of time which means that you also have to have your boundaries set very clearly. They don't have to be spoken like some people say either. Good friends know their boundaries without having to say all that much. More often than not I say, "We don't have that kind of relationship" to Laurie and she assumes I do. She thinks every relationship I have with men is a sexual one...that is not true at all! I would much rather have a good friendship with a man than a sexual relationship with one for one reason. Sex can destroy a friendship with a good person. It's also not always possible. It's also not always something that is necessary or wanted. It's also not all that important either. In friendships it isn't important at all. What is important is trust, loyalty and sincerity.
Missy, Laurie and Jeffrey struck at the heart of my most important factor in investigation concerning my team and friendship; loyalty. They sought to find my team and my witnesses, that I know are loyal, and make them appear to be not so. I've let that be known from the beginning. Some will say that letting your opponent know your requirements is a mistake, I think it is a distinct advantage with these three. It's very simple. Were you loyal? Can you answer that in the affirmative? If you can without me knowing the truth, be confident. That's fine with me. I'm not above admitting when I was wrong; if you know me, I'm the first to admit when I am. I don't know everything. That's been a problem. I have to go on instinct. That's sharpened my skills though. I go on what I've experienced and that is a stall of justice. So something is jamming up the stream. The evidence is there. The reports were there. The injuries are there. Where is the problem? The witnesses were there. The events occurred. Why isn't there justice seven years later. You see, I am an expert on investigations. I've seen many, much more complicated, with much less sophistication brought to trial and adjudicated in less time. So I know when there is a problem.
Remember, I've sat through a whole lot of criminal trials on the federal bench and lots more dispositions of criminal cases (cases brought to pleas before trial), so I know what is a timely exercise of justice and what is a bullshit investigation. This one is bullshit somewhere along the line. Big bullshit. There is evidence, beyond a reasonable doubt of Laurie's guilt, in that restraining order...I know it because I am a part of it and I know there are lies in it. I've read it, I know what I said and what is quoted by me is a lie. So I know there is reasonable doubt. For this to be ignored for this long, is concerning to me. I know a judge without prejudice will think so too. I know judges. I know lots of them. I know at least fifteen or twenty of them on the federal bench and none of them would think that what has transpired with that whole document was just.
I don't have to pretend to know what they would think, I worked for them. I know they don't like things like this when it comes to a person's civil rights and the rights of a police informant. These types of issues aren't ignored in a federal courtroom, they are explored and adjudicated. The actions that I took would satisfy them. The actions untaken by the police and my team won't. You see, I have what is known as a "higher standard" because of my training. I have a "federal judges' standard" that I've prepared for and that is because that is whom I've worked for. You don't hand a federal judge shit work, you hand them professional work for a just decision. That was my job. I did it very well.
This isn't Judge Judy here people, not that Judy isn't wonderful. Judy is terrific, but she's a television judge that has to make a decision in twenty minutes or less. She's awesome, but the kind of judge that I prepare for, looks at everything and then renders a decision, not just at what Laurie had to say. The court has never heard that I am a police informant for the man that she dated for "four years". The court never heard from Jonathan and Anthony that met with Laurie in Sedona, Arizona during the restraining order at Laurie's insistence. The court never saw the videos of Laurie's salacious introductions and the court never gave me the chance to have due process or I would have brought two Laurie's into the courtroom to decide which one I was dealing with. The one that worked there or the one that filed the restraining order. You can't be both.
I don't cater to lying. I don't cater to threats. I don't cater to indecisiveness. I work for the People of the State of California and the County of Riverside. I have a job to do under very difficult circumstances. I do it very well. The standard I have set for myself is federal because that is the highest standard there is. Why set the bar low? Set it as high as you can reach and let's face it, I did pull ups on that bar for many many years. That's the level I am most fit to serve the people.
