I've made the mistake of trusting people with my safety before and I will probably make that mistake again in the future, but one thing that I won't do any longer is trust the same people again with it. I know that if you are following along with this story that you are aware that I've spent eight and a half years trusting a few people that weren't doing what they should have been doing. It's shocking and it's hurtful but knowing that it was the point of what they were doing now makes me understand that putting any more time into discussing that is a worthless waste of time. Why bother giving people that take from me what they want? They wanted to see me fail or hurt and talking about it only makes them feel better about what they did. It isn't going to continue this way. I've decided that it isn't my desire to work with anyone that thinks that what I've gone through with my family is something that he should exploit for entertainment and financial gain with people that don't care about the victims. First and foremost this is a terrorist criminal investigation, it isn't entertainment for me.
Moving past what is here isn't the easiest thing because of the human shields that are used to protect these people, but I have a job to do for my community. I can't allow people to distract me from helping others that don't have to see these people that I do. I have other families that deserve the same kind of justice that my family deserves and they are also as obstructed as I am by this intrusion. I have to keep the people that don't know me just as informed as those that do and shield these "voyeurs of terror". I won't allow my emotions to take control of the job that I have to do. I am human and I have emotions, but there is a point to this investigation that goes beyond the "personal". It is for the good of the gay community and this country. Some things go beyond "boyfriend", "best friend", "friends" and those that would take from me and put my family in danger for financial gain. It's not the most important thing to be famous or rich. It is the most important thing to find the criminals and jail them. No matter what, I want to expose the truth. The lies will show themselves.
