I've been receiving compliments from people about the way I've been writing lately and I wanted to say 'thank you' for noticing and the praise.
There is something that I think is also very important about this crime that I want to share with all of you. Most people are so frustrated and angry about the intrusion into their lives that they don't understand what this can DO FOR YOU. I don't want to create any kind of misunderstanding here. I would never recommend this way of learning or developing your brain because I think you could probably do the same with some head phones and an iPod, but there is something that goes on with the constant stimulation of my brain that I think shows more often than I let you know.
You all know that my brain is constantly being fed information from Laurie whom is trying her best to either exhaust, distract, anger or destroy me, what I do with that information is two fold. First, I have no choice but to receive the information and make a choice as to what to do with it. As an online true crime novelist, I process the information for psychological reasons, forensic reasons, informant reasons and to gauge where Laurie is with her emotions and stability. When I say I process it, I tend to put things into file folders in my head. Some people call it compartmentalizing and what I do with it is categorize the information, attach as little emotion or thought to it of a personal nature (I don't take it personally is what I mean to say) then I do the second thing with this information.
The second thing that I do, I do subconsciously. I allow that information to be stored in my head in places that my brain could not do with most people. I firmly believe that human beings only use 20% of their brain's capacity. When you are a victim of this crime, your brain is a lot like a high volume engine that either gets use to the speed of the processing or it shuts down. I am a processor. The more information, over a period of 28 years, has allows my brain to develop in a way that the huge amount of data I process now, is more easily handled than what a normal person could handle. It's like those ear plugs that hipster guys and gals get at a Bohemian tattoo parlor. They start out small, then graduate to larger sizes and shapes. If they went to big too fast they would tear the ear lobe. Going gradually has allowed them to gradually grow their ear lobe to a size that fits the plug. My brain has done that.
Now when I process information I can usually do two or three, sometimes four thoughts at a time and make a reasonable call as to whether I want to let Laurie's computer figure out what it meant...which it really can't do, it just writes words and either Christian or Leah interpret what context they are in. Most people can't handle two conversations going on at once, I have that constantly and still have learned how to process both and still can be innovative in my crime fighting and writing. So the second part of becoming smarter is due to using more brain than it would normally take to run my life.
Most of you know this is true because when you have children and you engage them with reading, writing, playing music and talking to them, they develop better skills faster than those children that aren't as engaged. Even things like television and video games engage their brains, but I find that a variety of stimuli forces the brain to use up more space. Those people at Apple were very smart when they made computers. They treated the computer construction like a brain in a human body with lots of memory and functionality. They also realized the human factor of making it easy enough to learn and fun enough to keep you coming back. This develops skills too. The computer designed for ease of use based on the human body's brain and functionality is a good way to understand how your brain works. Education is the program you use to open up those files I told you that I stored and they run on your brain like an app for your phone. Without the program you can't run the file and understand it. Certain programs run certain files. There are programs for your brain for reasoning. There are programs for social skills. There are programs for deciphering. There are programs for true crime writing. There are programs for telling you what this is like on a level that you can understand.
I use both. Education with this technology came from a desire to know what was going on with me. My social skills and teaching came from learning how people learn in college. Electronic harassment understanding came from a need to know how this was done and how it was transferred from myself to someone else. I learned early, because of this gang stalking that the stalkers knew where I was going and would wait for me when only I knew where I was going...if they knew and waited, they knew what I was thinking. Clearly the technology was inside of me, not my apartment. It could read my thoughts. Once you get past that revelation you learn how to manipulate it with split second decision making and long slow piece by piece deliberate planning.
Fighting this crime, for me began about 1998 or so. I had to be smarter. I had to build a case and when you see the photographs of me, driving my car in San Diego with a bumber sticker that said, "Innocent until proven guilty" with my middle finger in the air as they drove by, you will understand that I knew what was going on. To catch whomever was behind this would have been known to the person reading my mind, so I took small but deliberate steps to find out whom that was. Eventually the crime fighter in me realized that working where I did was dangerous for the people I worked with and swore to protect. I had to resign after being shot at.
One thing I want all of you to know is this. There was a point, just before my shooting when I was sitting alone in Judge Nita L. Stomes courtroom and I thought to myself. "I am doing the only job in the world that is perfectly suited for me. It uses all my best skills as a person and a right hand man. If I ever lost this job, I'd have to return to the desert where I grew up. That would be my version of Hell on Earth." Less than two weeks later I would be shot at and a few months after that I was back in the desert, just what my worst fear had been. I had no intention of that happening, somebody made it happen. Somebody wanted me back in the desert. Somebody wanted me dead. Somebody wanted me in the desert to do it. I called this part of an unusual 'wave of negativity' that followed me. The worst case scenarios just kept coming true to the letter. That doesn't happen to a guy that has never applied for a job he didn't get. That doesn't happen to the athlete that practices not so that he gets it right, but to the athlete, like me. that practiced so much I couldn't get it wrong.
Informant work comes second nature to me. I am naturally curious and people like me whenever I meet them. The only people that didn't were the gang stalkers and they were easy to identify. Their scowling faces and need to stare wasn't normal for me, it stood out. It made me aware of whom was whom. I could separate the public from the stalkers and there were so many of both I learned to look quickly without drawing too much attention from the public, which may have been a mistake. The stalkers had me on their radar no matter what I did. I just thought that if I tried pointing them out to friends or coworkers, they would think I was paranoid or on drugs, which wouldn't have done me any good. So I took mental notes. Manipulated the stalkers with my actions like, reading the Bible, reading books, writing messages and leaving them on my bus seat like, 'I know you are following me', and so forth. I even put a sign in my car that told them I knew I was being followed.
My preparation for Palm Spring, California was done years before when I came for Fourth of July weekends with my friend Tom and saw these people everywhere here. I noticed it was somehow worse in Palm Springs than San Diego in the voracity but not the numbers. I prepped for the challenge with my diaries that accounted what it was like and I used them as a way to communicate with the operators of this system. I manipulated them. I told them how I felt. It kept them excited so I could find out whom was behind it.
It worked.
I'll tell you more about how you can make yourself smarter tomorrow. Just know that you can take almost every curse and turn it in to your blessing and gift if you know how to process it properly. You have the choice, do you know how to make it?
Learn.
