Despite her best efforts to try to make me feel like I am worthless, lazy and unimportant, I think it is very important that our readers understand that refusing to do what Laurie wants you to do can save your life...but it can also put you in jail.
In some ways it is very important for me to write this blog post to let you know what it is like being re-victimized by Laurie and her brother for the umpteenth time. First of all you have to understand that the criminals behind electronic harassment do absolutely nothing but sit behind a computer, use methamphetamine, steal your thoughts and try to find some way to make you behave the way that they want you to. I've been on both sides of this coin and I can tell you that the safest thing that I've found is to refuse to do anything helpful for them and to talk about it wherever you can have the most people listen.
"Bump on a log" is how Laurie describes me to other people which I think is completely ridiculous when you consider what she tells people her reasoning was behind her stalking of me. One thing that she tells people is that she hates me because "I'm just too nice". If that's a crime, give me the death penalty, because I hurt nobody, take no prisoners, sympathize with even the worst of the offenders and understand that two sides of a story complete the picture. Then Laurie tells people that "He's the meanest person I've ever known"...and in the same breath tells people that she doesn't know me.
I said this in an earlier post but it bears repeating. I wasn't going to find out whom was stalking me by being a choir boy. This is a dirty crime with dirtier criminals...if you want to catch them, you simply have to play their game. I don't recommend this for anyone in a tenuous situation without a strong family foundation and without a strong sense of who you really are. If you have an addiction to substances, steer clear of my approach. The first person you have to protect when you are seeking answers to stalking questions is yourself. I knew what this was about a long time ago...I didn't have the tools necessary to bring this information to you any sooner than I did. I was always certain that I would find out whom was following me, but I needed to know what made them go....sex, drugs, porn, HIV infection and gay men. This seems to trigger my stalkers...so that was the dangerous path I had to take.
If I had come to Palm Springs 11 years ago and joined a church group and became the model citizen, I would still have been stalked, but I would be no further down the road of discovery than I was when I got here. Laurie isn't interested in the "vanilla" except to bad mouth them...she wants the "Rocky Road"...the dirt, the grimy, the seedy and the most secretive. She's one of those tweekers that always thinks that she is missing out...so she makes shit up to fulfill her fantasies.
Engulfed in controversy when I got here that she caused with her brother Brian in San Diego, I can only imagine that my arrival made her squeal with delight. You would think that after all of the years of seeing what I am like would have concerned her, but Laurie's ego is much larger than her intellect.
I was still being followed mercilessly whenever I would go someplace so I knew that the problem still existed. My belief was that my former boss, Sam Hammrick, was still having me followed and was trying to have something happen to me so that my career would end with termination instead of how it did, a resignation.
When the stalking continued...I realized that I had to do more than the average person would do to find the source...I continued to use drugs, met drug dealers, met men online and fed Laurie's appetite for all things gay man...I will note that from the time I got to Palm Springs I was taking HIV meds that pretty much rendered me not a risk for transmission and I was safe. Laurie always described me to people as "vanilla" and that I "only watched people engage in sexual activity" but now that it suits her, she tries to compare me to her...I guess that means she is the person that infects people intentionally...by her own transference.
Once again, this morning, Laurie unleashed her...and these are her words, "sexual fantasy" to get closer to my nieces. She had this plan about living with her aunt and cousin and pretending to be some kind of "nice sweet girl" and showing up at my nieces homes (one of which is mine!) pretending to be friendly with them. I don't know where the "sexual fantasy" comes in, but as usual I know that her sexual fantasies are usually violent, infectious and short lived. She sees them as "virginal" even though both are married and have children. I am writing this here and now as a way to debunk her plans right off the bat. In no way will I allow this woman any kind of access to these girls.
I've already shown you that she threatens to cozy up to my family then proceeds to do just that at class reunions...but this goes far beyond just my family. Her observations include close family friends, co-workers and anyone that I have contact with or that has contact with them. It is a bizarre thing to have her threaten to do these things then find out later that she's actually done them then for her to claim that it isn't her. The woman that I know as Lisa is the same woman that keeps popping up. Wouldn't you think that if you were her you wouldn't want this to be the case? She's a stalker though and she thinks she can fool all of you and my family.
While I was playing the "hardest working man in show business role" for Laurie's attention...it was to attract her away from my friends...it worked. She moved to this area thinking, like she always does, that I would be an easy mark. The plan to take her from Palm Springs to an area where I have more control was genius especially when you let her think it was all her idea...good doggy, here's a biscuit. Then I did what I planned to do all along....nothing. I made sure I stayed sober, got a job, kept to myself and became Kevin again...so now she thinks of me as "a bump on a log"...precisely the plan. As was the theme before Christopher's arrest she now says, "he won't do anything for me"...and that was exactly what the trap was for. To do nothing for her while she drained her resources, drugs, money and contacts to the point where she would start to make stuff up. That's where we stand today.
Rest assured, my family is on high alert for their own finances, their safety and their communications with her. They've all been warned as best as I can, but it would be better if Sgt. Anderson told them himself. I am living a nightmare waiting for the other shoe to fall, but when it does, I will be ready. It would also be helpful if her own family would recognize the danger that we are all in from this person and take measures to eliminate her as a problem. I'm not solely responsible for taking care of this problem...and I refuse to be the only option.
What I have been dealing with lately is her blown up plan to tell people that I somehow intentionally infected people with HIV. Nothing could be further from the truth. I am actually aching for the opportunity to get on television and in magazines to tell everyone to get tested and take these meds...that's not what you hear from Laurie. I know that I've never infected anyone, but to hear the person that likely infected me and many many others try to compare me to her, is sickening. It's like Jeffrey Dahmer telling everyone that he's the victim of food poisoning...it's sick. Hearing her tell an attorney that I've somehow become "obsessed with her" is a joke when you read my single diary entry about her after twenty or so years. I clearly want nothing to do with this woman...I don't want to get close to her family and I don't want to know where she is. Remember, her "sexual fantasy" today was to get to know two women 30 years her junior....that's what I'm concerned about. Even after all of this, she still wants to be closer.
Laurie tells people that she was "this close" to being a member of my family...that's ridiculous. No matter whom my sister dated, she would never have been family to me or anyone else I am related to. This reminds me of the Johnson family from Palm Springs that includes a father, sister and brother that are all implanted and infected. Then there is the Velin family...father, daughter and son...maybe even mother....she's done this before, but my family is her "special project" for decades...what a coo it would be for her to pull that off huh?
I became an informant to keep this from happening, but so far police have balked at the thought of protecting my family from their nightmare. What should be a brilliant move is dulled by the insensitive meanderings of a department riddled with incompetence. My team has been left with the task, but they too have failed in the past. So the problem that I have is the same one faced by Steven Frey for years...who do you turn to when nobody that should do something does? I turn to all of you. I am appealing to all of our fans to force something to happen...I am begging you all to stop her from getting near my family again. I don't care what you have to do, you have to do something. Call Sgt. Anderson and make him say something to my family so that they can be safer. Force him to act.
How many of you out there have been threatened with your HIV status? Your connections with people; sexual in nature that Laurie and Brian shove in your face to keep you silent? Nobody knows this better than I do and I still stepped forward. I am on the news telling people that I was infected and raped despite thirty years of Laurie's storytelling and fantasies because I can and so can you. Nothing is worse than what she did to you...it's rape shield lawed and covered. You don't have to fear her coming up with a list of people that you didn't inform of your status or that you've been unsafe with. It's none of her business and it goes to her stalking of you. I don't have this problem because I know I didn't do anything like what she tells her parents or naive friends...but now that HIV is manageable, you don't have to fear Laurie...you have to embrace yourself. Will you continue to let her hold something over your head that she caused, allegedly? Will you always wonder what you should do or will you just do it because it is the right thing to do?
HIV shame and emotional blackmail has no place in our society...it is treatable and it is the right time to speak out. You don't have to be afraid of what she knows if she doesn't know you or even if she does...the fact that she's kept tabs on you is all the law needs to know. Your privacy supersedes her crime. Anything she found out after your infection and implantation is fruit of the most poisoned vine of all...it can't be used.
She has a lot of nerve to call me a "bump on a log"...because of her, I didn't even have a log to be a bump on....now she thinks that I'm going to be "double dog dared" into doing something she can exploit, but she's going to be sorely disappointed. I'm productive, informed and stronger because I planned to do all of this to stop her. Your turn now.
