On a night like tonight where I learn of great happenings for one of my favorite couples in the world, I learn that the man that used my stalkers for information is now in the area working for the courts that we know are corrupt and I find out that Laurie and her friends were lying again, I go through a period of numbness. Is Christopher okay? Are my friends getting the job done? Does this investigation ever have an end to it so that I can restart my life again? There's just one thing that I can take with me and it is my reputation.
When I think back to what it took to take away my career that I loved dearly it was nothing more than a bullet through my car window and stalking that lead to contacting my then boss with private information that I know wasn't true. I was advised to tell the truth to recover from the gun shot and the drugs and that honesty cost me very dearly, but I still made the right decision for my friends at the federal court. It was too dangerous for me to continue there for them, the judiciary and the government, knowing that my boss had my own stalkers watching me...it's a scary place.
It is with the same confidence that I know that Laurie's little world of computers, cell phones and gossip combined with drugs and deception can just as easily pop. Her reputation is nothing like mine is. Her world is a much smaller place because of what she put me through and I want all of you to know that I am still very happy with the work that I do. I just always will wonder what could have happened if I didn't have her around my life.
