I just want to be free.
I don't need anything else but freedom from Lori.
I desire nothing. I want nothing. I am never going to understand why people did what they did? I don't even want to know any longer. I am through with all the heartless lies my friends have told me. This investigation was worth so much more to so many people but now it's as worthless as those death notices and kiss-off letters. I've seen enough abuse. I want out of all of this for good. No strings. No attachments. Nothing but away from Lori LaFond.
This is as cruel as a man can be, I'm sure of it. The last sixteen years of my life have been the worst. The lack of human decency is apparent. I won't be able to move past what has been done now. This is too far for too long with all the same excuses. There isn't enough humanity in Jeffrey's ruining of my life with my sister. He's inhumane and characterless.
I don't have any idea why Christopher treated me the way that he did. It is an absolute shock to have been treated this way by him and his family. Whatever it is that they believe, it is far different from what I am about. There really isn't any need to proceed with the lies that are being perpetuated. There is absolutely no way that Christopher reported the crime against him; he isn't part of my life any longer.
The relationship didn't work because he didn't want it to. It is that simple. According to Lori LaFond, I was putting him in a bad position. He can fly away as far as he can go, but he knows he lied to me and intentionally targeted my family with his nonsense about not talking to my family. Absolute nonsense! If I had done the same to his mother and sister, he would have been furious with me. Not the same for him though. He can play to his heart's desire, and I get the same shit that I've had for decades. This isn't an investigation it's a Jeffrey Katzenberg homicide. He is going to get us killed.
Right now I'm looking at moving out of state to where people don't really know me. I'm done feeling like what I did was wrong. Nobody ever seeks me out to say thank you or anything. It's a never-ending job of negative reviews and even less law enforcement. Giving Lori an audience to commit her crimes was almost as bad as letting her steal the equipment that she performs it on. This is a group of very ill-advised people. There hasn't been a shred of decent or reasonable behavior the entire time that Jeffrey took over and lied. Now my life resembles exactly what my mom and I tried to avoid like the plague. What a horrible idea it was to include him in any aspect of the investigation. I wish there was someone, anyone, that would be better than him.
I know I am going to die out here...I can't believe Christopher went along with that.
