What I learned about myself is that I'm the only person that cares about others the way God intended me to.
When they all deserted me and condemned my life to Lori's torture, I was confident that there would be one person that would try hard enough to stop her. Afterall, my friends were targeted for death and torture for many years. The kinship we had was only an illusion that I saw as "friendship" but what I saw when my work saved them was selfishness and greed.
Living every day with a killer climbing the tree and coming after me has taught me to rely only on myself and to never trust another human being with anything as precious as my own life or family. They shoved Lori off on to me as fast as they could and then watched while she tried to extinguish my family once again.
Christmas was lousy, thanks for asking. My littlest niece spent five days in the hospital with my sister. Too far away to spend the day with but too sick to be able to come home. Jeffrey must have loved watching that, while his family made him feel better about all the terrible things he's done to them. My mom was at home with my dad, one of the four nephews, and my sick nieces' parents. Don't know where the other niece was or her family. Never saw them at all. This is the first time I've ever seen the destruction that Jeffrey ordered with Missy Erickson manifest itself in our separation. My mom is doing okay with Alzheimer's, my dad looks like he might die any day.
All I can think of is how little all of you tried to stop Lori from doing this again and remember how you all pushed her towards me by telling everyone not to talk about the truth. My memory is long and my list of grievances is long but be sure, if I had to do it again...knowing what I know now, I wouldn't have picked any of you to do this investigation. I would have picked professionals and real friends. I would never have allowed my sister to get away with giving my money to a fool.
I also would never allow myself to trust anyone like Christopher. He's lied. His mom lied. His sister lied. I don't know what kind of people do something like that to a person whose entire life has been nothing but stalking and pain. I guess Jonathan left out all of that stuff too. Convenient that he was the person that kept telling me about how Christopher loved me, then he took him away for good.
I'm looking out for me now. Without my family. Without any friends. Without anyone that ever does anything but complain about how horrible their lives are while they sit at the beach and drink margaritas. I hope you are all satisfied with your overly selfish decisions. I'm pretty sure that they call what you did to me, negligent and intentional. Do me one favor, don't spread more of Lori's lies now that you have what you want.
Unbelievably disappointed in your lives. I believe God put me here to care about others, I wasted my time on you.
