Lord, please help me to understand why this situation is still so impossible to stop. Why is my every day locked into the life of such a negative person that would see me harmed.
I doubt every person has to wonder what their serial killer is going to do today to hurt him, but I have to. I have to wonder what I did wrong to stop the team that once was backing me 100%.
I tried with everything I had, still do. I was honest and expected nothing more than honesty back. Someone isn't being as honest as I am and it bothers me that he can take from me for this long without having to answer or give it back.
I'm done trying to understand Lori. I can't. There is no understanding her. The rest of you, I can't imagine doing to you what you've done to me. I thought I knew you better and that you could be trusted. I didn't and you shouldn't have been.
Now all I am asking for is my own life back. My own choices. I didn't ask for all this controversy. I was once a kid that loved my life, family and future. It's been like ten lifetimes ago that I felt that way.
I'm still not sure why someone decided to put my sister in charge of my finances and doubly not sure why she would agree. My mom and I had long conversations about ONLY she and I having access to this account. If the family needed something they could ask. Then, all of a sudden, it was gone, without a single explanation, to a man I don't know or particularly care for. So who decides that? I guess that's the problem, someone other than me decided it and it isn't going well.
