You know when I went to sleep this morning it was after a long night of understanding just how bad this situation has become again. I spent some time thinking about how I was going to deal with the new situation as it presented itself. I thought about anguishing over it, almost did, then realized that some things are just not going to change the way they should have. So I slept.
When I woke up...I heard all about Lori's big plans to ruin my relationship, my life, my sister's life, and the lives of all the people she hates. Once I got up and made it to my destination...I found out that ALL THE PROBLEMS I WAS GOING TO WORRY ABOUT, had been taken care of and disappeared. The humiliation that Lori reveled in this morning was now hers to wallow in all night tonight. Instant karma is a really interesting thing. For Lori, karma has taken her sweet time...but in her time she will eventually deal with Lori's situation and I don't need to wait for it or give her any advice.
In the meantime, I want people to understand something. When I was 9 years old, Lori began this campaign against me and my family. I'm 53 years old now and one thing I've learned is that I can be one of two people. Up until I was 37 years old, I never said anything about what I knew Lori was doing. I didn't mention her name and I never said a word. It was because I was that way that Lori didn't get what she wanted from me. Oh, I was warned by my brother in law, my friend Kelly, and some others that she was a problem maker, but I had nothing to do with her...then she had someone shoot at me. With a gun. Really...
Since that time it became apparent to me that Lori wanted me to react to her. A bullet through my driver's side window at close range will do that to you. I've run the gamut of feelings from sadness to anger, but in the end, I knew one thing had to change. Either I could accept that Lori LaFond was stalking my friends and making most of them HIV positive or I could be the kind of friend that said something about it and try to stop her. I opted for option two. You see, you can only accept her interference in your life to the point where it affects you. When it starts to affect others that you love and care for, then you have to fight back. So I started saying something...what would you have done?
Oh I realized from the beginning that Lori was going to say that all of these people that I knew got HIV from me or that I didn't tell them that I had this disease. The truth is that the people that needed to know did. The people that weren't at risk didn't. Now we all know that HIV can be traced back to the person that gave it to you, so I'm 100% confident that I didn't infect anyone, but I'm even more convinced that she did. For some reason, I feel like time has been unkind and kind to me the way you would figure it would be. Science has developed into a good thing. Time also took lots of people I love dearly out of my life. HIV, the big destroyer of my gay friends, now has become my partner in informant work. I think my friends would believe that this is the kind of thing that Kevin would be best at. It should be, I'm the person that believes in our system of justice and loves that I live in a country where that system is, above all else, the foundation of our individuality protections.
Am I upset that the system of justice did something horrible to an easy to solve case, of course I am. I don't believe in shoddy police work, cops that lie, people that harass people for no reason, or a female that uses gender like a coin flip to see whether or not it will help her. I just don't think anyone understands that I've been her target since 9 years old. My father has paid the price, my sister has done the same, but for me, it's this constant need to keep Lori a secret that makes me boil. Lori is a mentally ill human being that now uses her mental illness as a reason for her not to stop. She realizes that she a freak, but she wants to appear normal. Normal bothers me. I tend to like the not so normal crown anyway. I have been the normal freak for so long now that I've learned that what appears to the eye doesn't always match what is in the heart.
So now that Lori's instant karma has smashed her in the nose again, I just want to remind all of you that we all share one common problem. It isn't this blog or why I have to talk about this crime or the people involved in it, it's because nobody seems to want to stop this person from hurting other people. If they were all your friends would you ignore it? Don't be my friend then. I don't need people that have a secret to hold over my head. It's really not that hard to say, "Kevin, I know this girl has been stalking you and I want to help stop her." For pretty much everyone, that's been an issue. I don't know why? I've decided that my criteria for friendship is much higher than most, but it seems so simple to get over. You just tell the truth and love me for who I am. I didn't ask for this to happen. I would much rather it didn't. You should be happy that it did because I wouldn't let it hurt you if I could. Other people are different. Someone like Jeffrey doesn't seem to care who this system hurts, I'm not that guy either.
Poor people need people to stand up for them. I will eventually find the right friends for me to be able to relax. I haven't found them yet.
Keep believing in the sunshine and beauty. I hope we all have a day like I just had tonight.
