Same Tape, Over and Over Again: Lori, Don't You Ever Get Tired Of The Same Soundtrack? It's Time To Update Your Story!!!

 

For those of you that have listened in to Lori's "Lather, rinse, repeat" method of never ending looped conversations, I just wanted to share this .gif with all of you.  This is what it feels like when Lori is stuck in an endless groove on one topic for years and years...flip the tape and play it again.  I know that it is a sign of her insanity, but what does this kind of listening cause for the victim?
What we all know about insanity is that it has to do with repetition of the same situation and expecting a different result...so, when Lori starts every single day with her struggle to combine her "story" with the truth, we seem to get right back to the main issue here.   She's crazy!!!
How many times can a person, like me, who couldn't care less about Lori's gender or sexuality, listen to her "on-air" struggle with mental illness and crystal meth before she sees some kind of change?  What if it never changes and she just sits in that house with her trophies that remind her of how much she hates everyone?  Could that really happen?  It's been pretty much the same story since my rape.   She did it and she knows that everyone knows it, so she tries to get away with it...for thirteen years...and counting...
How does this effect the victim of these kinds of attacks?  For me, I know the experience is different because I know Lori...I know who she is and although I can't believe it myself, she hasn't changed one single bit in her entire life.  She even wants to move back into the home where she started all of these problems in my life and contact all her old neighbors...for what?  Apparently Lori seeks to recreate her "sophomore year" of high school, when she feels she was at her most dominant...she's even contacted some of her old druggie friends to see if they are still loyal "to her family".  It's the oddest thing in the world to me.  I never wanted to be here...I was extremely vocal about it.
It's like I've been forced back into a situation that I absolutely hated and couldn't wait to get out of, but now Lori finally has found five friends to help her get to the point she always wanted to be in back then to hurt me and her own mother in a way she couldn't when she was a teenager!!!  It's like some high school slasher movie...where the killer didn't get the satisfaction she wanted so now she's pushed everyone into a corner where that fantasy can be reimagined.
I hated high school...it's true.  I like many people that were bullied and gay couldn't wait to get the hell out of here.  Now, I'm here again, mostly because of situations that Lori caused, trying desperately to handle the situation differently than before where I simply ignored Lori's hate and tried to avoid her.  There are plenty of witnesses to her homophobia from back then...so you can rest assured that people will always support the fact that Lori was violent sounding, homicidal, and obsessed.  I wonder what they will think when they realize she never got better.
One answer I hear most is that nobody is surprised by her behavior.  Military dependent friends of mine all know she's nuts from way back then.  Her elementary school friends know she had issues, I went to a different school.  I wonder if someone like her best friend Julie will realize things like the trip they took to Sedona, Arizona was simply to stalk me and my friends?  This is going to surprise the oblivious classmates, but then they remember stuff...and they kind of have a cathartic experience.