If you know me, then you know that I love dragon flys. I think they are lucky. They aren't the prettiest of the insect family, but they are complicated in design. Their wings are a work of art. I don't know...I guess I just think I'm like a dragon fly trying to show everyone how beautiful I can be for people to admire.
Then there is Lori, all night long looking to start a fight again. Tonight she took up the topic of "sobriety" and how all of my friends are the same as she is. Look, everyone that is sober knows it is personal to themselves. They share in meetings so that someone with similar problems and different ones, can inspire the single person to stop drinking or using drugs or both. It's none of Lori's business who is and is not sober, but she sure acts like it is. If I drank a beer, she would tell everyone I'm not sober. I don't but if I did, that's what she would do. On the other side of the fence is Lori who hasn't spent a minute of her life without a drug inside of her making her angry and hateful. She's tried telling people that she doesn't use drugs, but let's face it, her behavior is shit. I know a drug addict when I hear one too.
The point I am trying to make tonight is that Lori thinks that she is "better" than everyone else. Sobriety is the opposite. It's about being no different than anyone else. That's how people get and stay sober that want to. I wasn't unique, even if someone else used more or less than I did. I couldn't stop...that's what we had in common.
I don't really like alcohol the same way. I don't like anything the way I liked meth. My problem was with that drug but doing any of them can be a problem for an addict. It's true. Some people can enjoy things that aren't a problem for them...and stay sober. It's in the books. "If you can do the right about-face and drink like a gentleman...our hats are off to you," Lori doesn't understand that. I certainly could not use meth like a gentleman...it would change. That's never an option. I also don't use anything else, which is my business. Remember, Lori's the person that doesn't want us taking HIV meds, antidepressants, or any medication. That's unwise and also talked about in these places. What in the world am I concerned about her thinking it anyway? In reality, I'm not concerned, but there are victims of this crime out there that do need that kind of advice. I've always said the best thing you can do to keep Lori away from you is to stop using meth. The other one is "don't be a Palm Springs Police Officer." Those two things are cornerstones to her sadistic behavior. Someone to blame and someone to arrest them.
I just want you to know that I still cry for the addict that suffers, but I can't count Lori and her friends in that category. They cause suffering for people they don't know to feel better. I think that is a different kind of addict that I can't be around. They aren't people that I would like sober or fucked up. So Lori can continue to try to tell people things about me that aren't true, but when you meet me in person, you'll know why she is so concerned with you telling me she doesn't want to be revealed. She's a nightmare for sober people and addicts...it's not going to change until someone says, "Enough is enough".
The wisdom to know the difference is so important.
I know the difference between me and Lori too...it's kind of obvious. You never heard me say or do anything about her untile she went after me in Palm Springs...then I could no longer be silent, my friends and family are too important to me.
