I think that most people don't understand that I'm not trying to win any kind of popularity contest. I've already been popular and I realize what it's like for me. Not much different than my usual life. From the second that Lori stuck an RFID chip inside my body and started using people to stalk me, I became the unwilling pawn in a game of Lori vs. Kevin's popularity. First of all, not a compliment to me. Second of all, who cares? Popularity, as I have said, has not very much to do with the way I live my life. It is all Lori's idea to pit herself against me in some kind of weird game of "Lifetime Homecoming Queen." Bitch, I already won that one too...I'm sorry you never got to feel what that is like, but I can assure you it's not what you think it is.
If you think that Survivor was the first "reality show" think again. I've been living a life of "reality shows" since the very second Lori put me online. A chip in the head and an HIV infection must have made me a very interesting person. Here I was thinking it was the worst thing that could ever happen. The term unwilling reality personality is pretty much what I would use to describe my situation. I've learned that not one single thing was like "The Truman Show", but there were bright pieces that I created for myself in all of it. Fortunately, I'm nice to everyone I meet and I don't allow myself to become embittered by the experience. Lori, on the other hand, didn't get to that point where everyone loved her for the evil that she did. As I have told everyone, I'm forced into the position to fight for our community. It wasn't a choice. It was either tell the truth or die without doing my best; not an option for someone like me.
How could I not try harder to save people from what I know to be something awful for them? This is my high school bully that grew up to be Cruella DeVille, shouldn't I get a bigger say in how she is and what she is truly like? I've been set on the back burner for way too long-simmering for a chance to let you all know what kind of beast it is behind your burden. I'm the person she turned from an All-American guy into something that nobody wanted to know...boy was that fun! Now I've regained my composure and set my sights on something different for the future. You won't see me crying for attention or boohoo hooing this whole situation into something completely about me. I'm not the only person that this has happened to and I want to hear from all of the people that Lori has hurt. This is about all of us. I wanted to make sure that everyone that she ran in to got a fair shake from this situation. I love a comeback story, don't you? There are lots of them out there.
As much exposure as this crime has brought, there is a whole different side of me that is looking forward to the privacy it will bring. I know the pitfalls because I have paid attention to all of the people that I admire. I seek their advice and look forward to their input. There are a ton of people out there that do this kind of work successfully. I happen to think that they have valuable hints and expertise. What I don't need or value comes from the mouth of Lori LaFond who makes more internet mistakes than imaginable.
Lori thinks of herself as some kind of vigilante expert on crime, mostly because she's gotten away with so much of it. Drawing attention to her is not hard. What you get to see isn't pleasant, but it is a real look into the mind of a serial killer, and in terms of a true-crime writer, it is invaluable. Lori tells people that I'm not a true-crime novelist, honey, I've got over a million times more experience with writing than she knows. She craves the spotlight that she wants...I'm all about spotlighting her too, but I'll choose the kind and timing for her, not her.
There are 8400 plus posts on this blog about this crime in Palm Springs. I'd write 8400 more if I thought it would continue to put Lori LaFond in a place where she has to stop hurting children and gay men with her HIV and torture. I wouldn't be the friend that I am without doing more than anyone else to stop her. I am still the friend that does everything I can for my group. She still puts her friends in a position to lie for her. I'm not trying to win some kind of homecoming crown...I've got mine already. I'm looking for our place in history here...and we will take our seats next to the best ever because of our efforts and in spite of her hate.
