There is one thing that I am all too painfully aware of. Lori will play the victim over and over again, even when I'm the person with all the injuries. Part of the decision to become the informant on this case was to be completely honest about my experience, no matter who thinks I'm crazy. There are way too many instances of people keeping quiet out of fear from the police retaliation or violence from Lori. I'm not afraid of either with the mistakes that both the police and Lori have made.
One thing that Lori needs more than anything else are others that will lie for her. Are you going to be that person? Is someone you know going to be that person? I can tell you that this is what she spends most of her time doing when she isn't plotting to kill me or someone in her family that knows the truth about her.
I am telling you about my experience with Lori. It's not a good one. I would like nothing more than to never see or hear from her again. I don't want to confront her. I don't want to talk to her. I don't want to be ambushed again. I want my OWN life and nothing to do with hers. I live a peaceful and non-violent life. I love someone that has committed to God...that's the most peaceful place I could ever find.
On the other hand, Lori's life is endlessly complicated by her own need to be someone important. I think that is fine, but she isn't going to get there by using me, my family or my friends any longer.
I can't protect Lori from herself. Nobody can. The only thing that can protect Lori is someone that cares enough about her to turn her in for the crimes that she is guilty of.
Tonight I heard her say, "Don't I deserve protection or a safety net?" I think that she does, in the form of a mental health facility or rehab or jail or all three. How do you protect someone from their own lies? I'm certainly not an informant to do that. My job is to expose the lies and help as many people that I can. I've tried that for Missy Erickson, David, and Leah Fauntleroy. I've tried with Christian too. These aren't even people that I like, but the job requires that I do my best for all of the people I can. I've tried to help Junior's mother by warning her that Lori is in the area...she knows what dangers are included with that circumstance. I won't go to see her or her sister because I don't think it would help any of us. I write as a non-violent way of communicating this danger. How else?
Lori tries to overcompensate for her mistakes, one minute playing the victim, the next, the aggressor. People know that she's been spreading rumors and lies for decades, I can't help that I figured out how to use that and turn it into the case that we have. I don't have to manufacture evidence, some of it has already been inside a courtroom. Lori has this fantasy world that is constantly changing with one goal that never does: Kill Kevin and make him look bad!
It's been that way for as long as I can remember. I never even gave it a second thought until I was shot. Then again when I was brutally raped. The police said that there was "nothing more they could do for me" when they didn't do anything in the first place. How many people do you know go to bed and wake up with a smashed skull and the police do nothing about it?
This situation isn't without a lot of victims, but Lori LaFond is not one of them. She's the most culpable of all. Her needs are very large right now and she thinks that somehow killing me is going to change that. I'm writing to save my life and my family. How can that be wrong?
