Every single time Lori goes for the needle and spoon, it's like she turns herself into this chatterbox sadist that has to tell everyone what I am doing and thinking. It's actually impossible for me to have any privacy at all. Lori has done this to Steven Frey, Jonathan Mendenhall, Anthony Dabiere, and so on and so on. It is just like having the exact opposite of what and who you are attracted to, talking to you at the most intimate times. At first it used to rattle me a bit, but then I thought that I just didn't give a fuck any longer.
It's been 11 years without sex and I'm kind of tired of living my life this way because I don't want Lori to get too excited or tattle on me to make Christopher feel bad. It's not fair but at least I can say that I know that I've tried my best to live a clean and sober sex free life. Not that I wanted to.
11 years and I'm in worse shape than ever and can't get her to leave me alone.
It's not frustrating but it is one of the aspects that all victims are tired of. Sexual slavery should include the sadist remote neural operator. Lori has way too much say about things she doesn't know about. Even if I did nothing, she would still lie to Christopher across country...like some kind of Sadistic Ernestine, Lily Tomlin character. So ringy dingy!!!
