Tonight I realized how alone in this I really am. There has been so much stuff done to hurt me in the last ten years that the first twenty don't even matter to me any longer. It's all about how much more can I take, but I'm not someone that gives up on anything that I want.
Right now I feel like every single friend I have was told not to be friendly with me because of someone I don't know or care about. Isn't it odd that I don't know Jeffrey or Lori but the two seem to keep interrupting my life like I do. I've always known that Lori wanted to physically hurt me. I've never considered that someone else I didn't know would get so involved in maintaining the pain that I go through. To me it seems odd that anyone would want a part of the life I have. I wouldn't.
You know if I could walk away from this right now and never hear about any of these people again, I would. Honestly, I think that my life has been wasted by people that think they are better than everyone else. I don't want any of this. I don't want any of the people that have been involved in this crime near me. There's a dirtiness factor that comes along with knowing that these people know far more about me than they should. It's been a constant negative for so long that all I want to do is pack up and leave for anywhere that they are.
I have no desire to see them again. I have no desire to associate my life with people that ignored the pain that these two factions have caused. It's all this constant bickering with each other and once again, I don't know Jeffrey or Lori. I never wanted to. In fact, now that I've experienced both, I wouldn't ever want to. There really isn't much happening in my life other than what you've read. I don't have friends. I don't have acquaintances. I don't really have anything but me. What four girls can do to a person's life is absolutely astonishing and so small.
I can tell you right now that I would give up everything just to never be associated with any of these people ever again.
If there is a God, and I believe there is, he sure hasn't paid me a visit in a very long time. No God that I know of would ever allow six people to do what they are doing...and they are dying because of it. Some people might think that is what they deserve, I think it's a light sentence.
What six people in one house have focused on for nearly ten years is putting a police informant in jail and trying to kill him. The focus has never been on stopping them from selling drugs. It's never been on stopping electronic harassment. It's been focused on hurting member of my family, one at a time. This breaks the agreement that I had with Jeff's son, it makes me think he has other interests besides stopping this crime. What I don't understand is why these people don't live their own lives?
There hasn't been one stitch of help from the Katzenberg's. Not one single thing. There has been back stabbing and contacting my family behind my back and what I really resent is how much of my life this person took from me and his biggest concern is Missy, his friend til the end.
I want out of this life so badly, but I would never hurt myself. What can you do to stop a man that feels nothing? What can a person do to explain that every single thing that he involved himself in hurt me deeply. He's definitely not the person that people keep saying he is. What he is, is obsessed with a bad idea that he is trying desperately to make look like something else. But my family was shoved on the alter.
I want everyone to know that no matter what happens, I got shit on by Jeffrey Katzenberg...simply because he wouldn't do the right thing.,
