While many of you already know, this is the kind of thing that Andrew Cunanan would have absolutely loved. Darren Criss, who portrayed Andrew in "The Killing of Gianni Versace" won an award tonight for his role, I want to remind all of you that he didn't just kill Versace, he killed a friend of mine, Jeffrey Trail.
How ironic it is for me to see this play out on an awards show. Nobody, more than Andrew would have loved what has transpired. It is always odd to me to think that someone I truly did not like, became who he became because he murdered people. I find myself in that same deja vu feeling when I think of what I am currently going through with Lori Jean LaFond.
You can't imagine how strange it is for me to know that while the Andrew Show played out in my life, that Lori was watching it all unfold. I had two other friends murdered in San Diego, not related to Andrew. It's a culture of violence and sensationalism that I think is so absurd. While Darren did a pretty good job of becoming Andrew, he wasn't perfect by any stretch. He's way too likable and not nearly as sinister. He lacked the maniacal laugh that always sent shivers down my spine every time I talked to Andrew in person. There was something very wrong with Andrew and I knew it. Oh he had lots of friends, but for those of us that took the time to look at him when he wasn't on...you could see that there was something very sinister behind his facade. He was an angry man. If he didn't get his way, he let you know it too. He thought himself better than others, but mostly I didn't like that he knew so much about me prior to our meeting. I get the same feeling from Lori LaFond.
Oh she claims that she hasn't known anything about me since high school, but the real truth is that she didn't know me there either. She made it very clear that she hated me from the second I stepped on to the high school campus. She screamed her dislike and continued to do that for the next three years trying to find someone, anyone to hurt me. It comes as no surprise that she infected me with the AIDS virus and screamed "faggot" afterwards. She's a living hypocrite. It comes as no surprise that she would set up the killing of my brother in law. It comes as no surprise that she tried to have me shot and killed in San Diego. It comes as no surprise that she would rape and beat me almost to death in Palm Springs the second time either. You see, I know evil. I've seen a lot of it.
I would still rather have a conversation with Andrew than speak to Lori LaFond. She's much more aggressive and far to mentally ill. Andrew was polished. He gave me the creeps but my then boyfriend liked him. Even after he killed my friend Jeff, before Versace, I had to convince my boyfriend that Andrew wasn't a nice guy. That's the kind of charisma he projected. Darren is also way better looking than Andrew Cunanan. I don't know if any of you can understand what it is like having so many serial killers around you. It's terrifying to think that someone would actually help Lori's friends to do this to me. That's the reality.
I had two opportunities to be near Lori LaFond since she returned to where we came from. I had two very close friends that lost a parent. My friends show up to these things as group support. At the first memorial Lori sat somewhere near me and I didn't know she was there. She tried to have someone take pictures of her with my friends in the back ground. She isn't a friend of these people. She isn't close to the person that died or I would have known that. She came because she knew I would be there and she did it again when another friend's father passed. I can't stay in the same room as Lori. I can't be around her knowing what she has done to my friends. I had to leave as soon as possible. To know what she has caused and to see her there gloating like some kind of "friend of the family" makes me sick to my stomach and it is another thing that this local team didn't do anything about. Nothing.
Andrew would never have shown such bad form. He was in Miami before the Versace killing at the same time my boyfriend and I were there. If he would have seen either or both of us, I wouldn't be alive. We knew him far too well for him to have left us as loose ends. When we returned home he killed Gianni...we were just there! I can remember being "on the lookout for Andrew" the whole time. That he was there and I felt it was like Spidey sense kicking in.
What would Andrew think of all this attention, quite frankly he would think he deserved it. He would have reveled in the fame of being the guy that did those horrible things and in that regard Lori and Andrew are the same. She wants infamy and she wants notoriety. What she doesn't deserve is fame. Neither did Andrew.
I watched most of that Cunanan series thinking that it was really good. Living with Lori now that it has been aired, is worse than ever. She craves celebrity. She'll do anything horrible to get it too. I feel like an old man now...I can't believe this is still happening. I can't believe that anyone I love would ever want it to be this way. I've already suffered for my whole life because of her. For anyone to come along and derail my investigation is inhumane. I deserved to stop my stalker who has tried to kill me many times, but one man said no. He deserves to know what it is like for someone like Lori to hunt his son. Since he is such a fan of her girl toy, he should know the repercussions of being enamored with a snake. Here's hoping it bites him in the face. Maybe then he'll understand that you don't play with killers, you shove them into a deep dark cell so nobody has to hear them again.
So you see, I'm not just dealing with the killing of my brother in law, I'm dealing with the Cunanan stress and all the attempts on my life that Lori got away with. How amusing it must be for this man to think he's torturing someone over and over again in his small minded approach to a huge serial killer. He's Sesame Street and I'm Law and Order. A child father that acts like it's funny to torture someone that has already been put through Hell's gates a hundred times before this.
You know what would be funny? We should steal Kevin's bank account and blame it on his disabled mother and sister. What a cute approach you made, sick fuck. You obviously don't know what I've been put through. How sad you are. How terribly sad your friendships with Missy, David and Bessie are. You should really have your head examined and lose your life of privilege like the rest of us did. Maybe then you'll take a serial killer seriously and not at her word. Maybe then you'll understand that attacking the elderly and the uninformed is wrong. It's exploiting me and it is exploiting the victims in a way that Lori glorifies. Look at what she can still do...how horribly impressive is that?
Not at all. Stealing from the families of victims should be denounced and it should be punished by the law.
