It's true, the last ten years of my life, I lived for a dream or for someone else. There isn't any real dream...it's all just make believe. I know that Lori is going to make another attempt on my life and that Jeffrey will let her. There is no doubt now. So I wanted to write tonight and tell you that when that happens, if I die, this is where you can go to think about me. A beach. Somewhere where there are no people around and all you can hear is the ocean and the wind.
I'll be telling you that I missed you and that I wish things had turned out differently. I do and I wish they had. Now I'm in the middle of the end of this game. I know where it leads. I know who is behind it. I know too much.
This is the hardest thing. I just wanted to love Christopher Monti without any of you around. Without anyone like Jeffrey or Marilyn lying to him and his mother about how "sorry she is" because it isn't true. Jeff and Marilyn aren't sorry for anything they've done...they are heartless and cold. They are nothing more to me than a grain of sand on this beach. I never want to meet them and I never want to see and talk to either of them. I have nothing to say. They tortured me for ten years and tried to hurt me over and over again. Whatever they have to say to my parents' friends, believe me, it's bullshit in a basket. Don't ever trust this family with your money or your life. They will steal it, crush it and turn it in for recycling money.
Before Lori or Jeffrey tells anyone that I'm suicidal, I'm not. I'm preparing to be killed. I was a police informant for a bad cop. He threw me into a situation then let his ex girlfriend try to kill me. That's the fact. In the years since, he's hurt my sister and me more than he could ever imagine. Jeffrey wouldn't tell him anything and you can only imagine what Lori told him with this system. He should lose his job or his pension or something for this. He buried me with Jeffrey Katzenberg...and all he's ever done is lie. His involvement in remote neural monitoring aided Lori LaFond in the killing of my brother in law. He was implanted in the military and told the person that shot my brother in law to arm himself. When Lori heard that her uncle was carrying a gun to protect himself, she gave him a reason to use it. It's the way Lori is.
I won't live another year. I can feel that happening. So what I wanted everyone to know is that I tried. Harder than anyone I tried to eliminate Lori from your lives, but it was Jeffrey that wouldn't get rid of her because of Missy and David. He perpetuated this serial killer's life...even when his own son was raped by her. He has no excuse great enough to have used all of us the way he did...it was stripper love all the way.
I was hoping that either Barbara's father or Jonathan's father would see through this sham of an operation out here and end this. It doesn't really appear that it is going to happen. Someone has to have the balls to stand up to Jeffrey Katzenberg and his wife and let them know that they aren't going to hurt me any longer. Jeffrey has a defect, a flaw, something wrong with him...he's decided that helping the criminals is smarter than helping the true victims of this crime. Ask him. What have you ever done to help Kevin? In ten years he's done nothing but steal and permit Lori and her friends to lie and rob my family. He permitted it. He endorsed it. He wanted chaos, he's had tons of it. I know that violence escalates and he's got a front row seat to the wheels he set in motion. He's responsible for putting Lori in a position to kill, and she's taking full advantage of it.
I just wanted to let Missy and David's parents know that I forgive them. I wouldn't want your kid living with me either. Whether or not you should have gotten involved in stopping your kids is up to a judge to decide, but as for me, I forgive you. I know what inviting them inside does for Lori and I know the problems she wants to cause you. Someone should have been more honest with you about his intentions and how he was going about investigating. He ended up exploiting me and my family so that he could look like some kid of drug badass. I'm not impressed. You shouldn't be either. He let your kids use meth the entire time they were there and then bought a home and moved them into it so they could use to their heart's content, and they did.
If you continue to think that this man is a God, you will lose everything. Be smart. Stop communicating with him and find a lawyer. Once I am gone, you will need one. I've left letters with friends detailing what David and Missy have done with Bessie Smith. Those letters will implicate them and Jeffrey. You need to be prepared to deal with him and his money. He's very vindictive and horrible to people that won't support his ideas about murder, frame ups and fraud. His moral flexibility when it comes to his desires is shown in his utter disdain for his own son. Learn that lesson fast. He wouldn't help his own son then he used him to hurt my family and friends. Be aware that happens.
I want everyone to know what this man is capable of and the horrid things that he had planned for me and my family. I also want you to know that I never gave him or his son permission to do this this way. I was lied to and backstabbed more times that a jealous school girl would try...in short he's a puny man without a heart. He isn't a friend of mine, he's the father of a former friend. That's all.
Before Lori or Jeffrey tells anyone that I'm suicidal, I'm not. I'm preparing to be killed. I was a police informant for a bad cop. He threw me into a situation then let his ex girlfriend try to kill me. That's the fact. In the years since, he's hurt my sister and me more than he could ever imagine. Jeffrey wouldn't tell him anything and you can only imagine what Lori told him with this system. He should lose his job or his pension or something for this. He buried me with Jeffrey Katzenberg...and all he's ever done is lie. His involvement in remote neural monitoring aided Lori LaFond in the killing of my brother in law. He was implanted in the military and told the person that shot my brother in law to arm himself. When Lori heard that her uncle was carrying a gun to protect himself, she gave him a reason to use it. It's the way Lori is.
I won't live another year. I can feel that happening. So what I wanted everyone to know is that I tried. Harder than anyone I tried to eliminate Lori from your lives, but it was Jeffrey that wouldn't get rid of her because of Missy and David. He perpetuated this serial killer's life...even when his own son was raped by her. He has no excuse great enough to have used all of us the way he did...it was stripper love all the way.
I was hoping that either Barbara's father or Jonathan's father would see through this sham of an operation out here and end this. It doesn't really appear that it is going to happen. Someone has to have the balls to stand up to Jeffrey Katzenberg and his wife and let them know that they aren't going to hurt me any longer. Jeffrey has a defect, a flaw, something wrong with him...he's decided that helping the criminals is smarter than helping the true victims of this crime. Ask him. What have you ever done to help Kevin? In ten years he's done nothing but steal and permit Lori and her friends to lie and rob my family. He permitted it. He endorsed it. He wanted chaos, he's had tons of it. I know that violence escalates and he's got a front row seat to the wheels he set in motion. He's responsible for putting Lori in a position to kill, and she's taking full advantage of it.
I just wanted to let Missy and David's parents know that I forgive them. I wouldn't want your kid living with me either. Whether or not you should have gotten involved in stopping your kids is up to a judge to decide, but as for me, I forgive you. I know what inviting them inside does for Lori and I know the problems she wants to cause you. Someone should have been more honest with you about his intentions and how he was going about investigating. He ended up exploiting me and my family so that he could look like some kid of drug badass. I'm not impressed. You shouldn't be either. He let your kids use meth the entire time they were there and then bought a home and moved them into it so they could use to their heart's content, and they did.
If you continue to think that this man is a God, you will lose everything. Be smart. Stop communicating with him and find a lawyer. Once I am gone, you will need one. I've left letters with friends detailing what David and Missy have done with Bessie Smith. Those letters will implicate them and Jeffrey. You need to be prepared to deal with him and his money. He's very vindictive and horrible to people that won't support his ideas about murder, frame ups and fraud. His moral flexibility when it comes to his desires is shown in his utter disdain for his own son. Learn that lesson fast. He wouldn't help his own son then he used him to hurt my family and friends. Be aware that happens.
I want everyone to know what this man is capable of and the horrid things that he had planned for me and my family. I also want you to know that I never gave him or his son permission to do this this way. I was lied to and backstabbed more times that a jealous school girl would try...in short he's a puny man without a heart. He isn't a friend of mine, he's the father of a former friend. That's all.
