One of the agreements that was made for using remote neural monitoring in conjunction with the police informant job that I do, was that the "wire" couldn't be used against me in a court of law. As an informant your job is to get the information about the crime using deceptive means. For example, not every police informant wears a neon T-shirt that says, "I'm a police informant." Deception is built in to the job. Let me be specific though, I ONLY work on the case of electronic harassment, I am not interested in drug cases with other people. In fact, this crime involves the robbing of other drug dealers and some of them will prove essential in the end. In essence, I have to speak for them as well.
Most of us know that Lori likes to pretend that she is law enforcement, but what she really is doing is playing both sides against the middle. She's robbing drug dealers because she thinks that they won't report it to the police. I've seen that happen many times. The unfortunate part of that is that her friends are drug addicts. So when Lori runs out of meth, her friends start looking at the victims to find someone to rob so that they can get high. Speaking the language of a sociopath drug addict to Lori, seems to be the most effective way of learning about her methods.
We've already experienced what her drug addict friends will do for her. There should be no doubt that there is the usual relationship between drug addict and drug dealer going on here, but what else is Lori able to do using a system that reads minds? The positions that her friends can be "put in" are what I like to remind everyone that this is about. Most of Lori's "friends" don't like her. This is something that happens between addict and dealer too, but there is more. How do adults that know better do such terrible things for Lori? What kind of information does Lori have on them? You also know that every conversation with Lori is a manipulation. She only talks about things that can effect other people. Refocusing her on the issue is difficult when she doesn't want to talk about it. You have to know the right buttons to push, but more importantly you have to know the order to push them in.
In order for me to get Lori to show that she was Lisa, I had to employ tactics that most informants wouldn't have to use. Nothing illegal, but things that didn't jibe with the image that she wants to project. Remember, Lori never takes her eyes off of what I am thinking so tricking her is a matter of making a decision and sticking with it. I also maintain that I do not lie to law enforcement, EVER. I know better. Stuff has to be set up months, sometimes years, in advance. What seems innocuous today, lays the ground work for tomorrow's prosecution. I did this even when I was still Steven Frey's boyfriend. I knew better than to know too much and let Lori know about it.
The price of remote neural informant work is high. There is a high cost to your family and friends because you simply can't be around them. Manipulation breeds in situations where Lori can hear a potential problem and exploit it. I have to avoid those as much as possible. I spent decades avoiding my friends, close friends, from high school because I knew that I was being followed. It's in my diaries. Writing those diaries was my way of coping at the time, but they remain the best snap shot of what my life was like before Lori started using the microphone to directly harass me. When I met Christopher, I knew that his life was about to change for the worse. He was here alone and without his own family who live a country away. These kinds of victims are Lori's favorites. It is way too easy for her to cut off communication between home and Palm Springs. It has happened many times. I live too close to home for Lori to be able to seriously cut those ties so she did what the next best thing was....poison my family with lies about me. If she can't cut off the phone, she likes to sever family ties. "If they would just stop talking about me," she says. That's not who I am.
The choices I made as a victim were dictated by knowing not to go down the rabbit hole again. When you are new to this crime, you can't conceive that someone is able to read your thoughts. Every person that I know, understands that when you have a choice, you weigh the outcomes and you also know what the worst case scenario is. You make choices to avoid that scenario. What Lori does is make your worst nightmare come true. For me, she's been doing it since I was a little kid. She sees me as an easy target, a poster child for this crime. What she didn't count on was my ability to adapt and grow. She's a one trick pony, I'm multidimensional. I have lots more practical experience than she has and a whole lot more common sense.
For Lori to tell people that I am obsessed with her, is a joke. I am 100% gay man. I have no sexual attraction to women. I could no more be obsessed with her than I could an obsession with a rock. I've been shot at, beaten nearly to death and have all the proof I need that someone is trying to hurt me...you don't see that with Lori. What you do see is Lori bragging about me getting shot at and she says that "He (me) wasn't raped" but she thinks it's funny. It's not funny. How could she know half of the things she knows about me and writes about if she isn't the person that is obsessed. My research isn't based on obsession, it's based on survival. I have to fight an invisible criminal, but I have to hear her every minute of the day. Thank God there are cops that know this is how she truly is. Thank God there are other victims, some you have seen on television, that speak out about this crime too. I didn't know them before I started this project and there are more...
Listen, it is this simple. If you had been through the things that I've been put through and reported to the police, then found out that it was someone, the only one, that has expressed a hatred for you in the past, wouldn't you do everything you could do to stop her? I seek a peaceful and non violent solution to this problem. It was Lori that characterized this situation as "workplace violence" not me. I never could have because the girl on the microphone does not work. I wasn't looking for an employed female, I was looking for a home bound drug addict with a foul mouth that knows my family and our history. Any questions about her were strictly to try to eliminate her, but every time I tried to eliminate her, she could not be. The suspect list dwindled. The police know that I was looking for Steven's sister, Sheree, before, so they know that I didn't just pick Lori and say that...the evidence developed pointed to Lori pretending to be Steven's sister. Then I start getting mail from Christopher's mom and sister...see the pattern?
Lori also acts like I am "being mean to her family" but that isn't true either. First of all, I don't know them but second of all, that's the reason that Lori is so wrapped up in my family in the first place. Growing up I lived across the street from her aunt, then my sister is friendly with her uncle and his kids, so this all combines to make Lori think that she is part of my blood family. It's not true. What I know of Lori's family, I know because of that restraining order. I never even knew she had brothers and sisters because she told everyone she was an "only child". I've never approached any of them. It's only when she spies on me and finds out where I will be that SHE SHOWS UP AND ACTS LIKE SHE BELONGS THERE. I've been to two funerals for friend's fathers and Lori was at both of them. Her parents may know these people because of the size of our small town, but Lori certainly wasn't part of our circle of friends. She also is not afraid of me either...otherwise why would she go and stay when I'm the one that leaves at the first sign of her. It's the same as it was in high school. She's a bully.
I have other friends that she's approached to lie about my family too. Fraternity brothers, ex's and friends that she has contacted.
Look, my life would be complete if I never heard or saw her again, but that's not who she is. She won't stop trying to lie to someone to get them to hurt me physically and she is a drug dealer so the weapon of choice is methamphetamine. "If you do this for me," Lori says, "then you can have this baggie." Drugs for Lori are a means to an end of my life. I don't use drugs. I try to stay away from people that do. You can't plan for an ambush, but I wear POV body cameras every time I step out of the house. Why would I do that if I was obsessed with her? I have to make sure if the police harass me again or someone takes another swipe at me that I have the evidence I need to get a conviction. She has already proven that she lies to the court...I need to be prepared. So I am. Just tonight she thought of whether or not I locked my car up and alarmed it because the threat of putting drugs in my car, like she did to her cousins, is real.
I wouldn't know that they were there and the only person that knows where I am all the time is the person behind this crime. Jonathan Mendenhall can explain this too.
My life is anything but ordinary. I spend most of my time having to hear Lori angry at me or trying to get me to use this blog to anger someone else. I'm trying my best to focus on the situation at hand while someone that has tried to kill me on numerous occasions threatens another attempt. Like I said, I'm the one with the bullet in my car door. I'm the one with the broken skull. I have the medical reports about how I take care of my HIV and when this crime occurred. I don't care who you are, you can't give yourself an STD or five. I have the emails. I have the diaries, though they aren't in my possession. I have been in fear for my life for as long as I can remember. One thing I am not, is looking forward to another confrontation with Lori LaFond, but I am also not afraid of a courtroom.
My family has a very extensive history with this disturbed girl. A courtroom might be the only place that I feel safe. There are other teachers and other kids that she forced accusations of child molestation on. I've been the target of her hatred for as long as I can remember, but to be honest, I put all that behind me. The person that can't seem to put it behind her, is Lori. That's why she has all of my high school yearbooks and my scrapbook that my sister made for me. All of this stuff was stolen over years of stalking and watching me. She's called my sister numerous times about me then has the nerve to say, "She hasn't known a thing about me since high school." The truth is that she didn't know me then either...she confronted me several times and I avoided her. The rest she made up in her mind.
The other problem that I have is that I was told who was behind this torture and I've lived it. If I don't say what I know here, because the police already threatened me in Palm Springs, then I am committing a crime. My credibility as a police informant is no good if I don't tell what I know. Too many people have kept silent for too long. I am obligated to keep my friends and family safe. I can't fear police action. I have to tell it the way I know it and go from there. I know I am doing what God intended for me to do. I know it is right to stand up for my community. I know that someone in my family is already dead because of this crime and the information that was learned because of it's use. How can I sit by and not say something? I'm being hunted.
We've already experienced what her drug addict friends will do for her. There should be no doubt that there is the usual relationship between drug addict and drug dealer going on here, but what else is Lori able to do using a system that reads minds? The positions that her friends can be "put in" are what I like to remind everyone that this is about. Most of Lori's "friends" don't like her. This is something that happens between addict and dealer too, but there is more. How do adults that know better do such terrible things for Lori? What kind of information does Lori have on them? You also know that every conversation with Lori is a manipulation. She only talks about things that can effect other people. Refocusing her on the issue is difficult when she doesn't want to talk about it. You have to know the right buttons to push, but more importantly you have to know the order to push them in.
In order for me to get Lori to show that she was Lisa, I had to employ tactics that most informants wouldn't have to use. Nothing illegal, but things that didn't jibe with the image that she wants to project. Remember, Lori never takes her eyes off of what I am thinking so tricking her is a matter of making a decision and sticking with it. I also maintain that I do not lie to law enforcement, EVER. I know better. Stuff has to be set up months, sometimes years, in advance. What seems innocuous today, lays the ground work for tomorrow's prosecution. I did this even when I was still Steven Frey's boyfriend. I knew better than to know too much and let Lori know about it.
The price of remote neural informant work is high. There is a high cost to your family and friends because you simply can't be around them. Manipulation breeds in situations where Lori can hear a potential problem and exploit it. I have to avoid those as much as possible. I spent decades avoiding my friends, close friends, from high school because I knew that I was being followed. It's in my diaries. Writing those diaries was my way of coping at the time, but they remain the best snap shot of what my life was like before Lori started using the microphone to directly harass me. When I met Christopher, I knew that his life was about to change for the worse. He was here alone and without his own family who live a country away. These kinds of victims are Lori's favorites. It is way too easy for her to cut off communication between home and Palm Springs. It has happened many times. I live too close to home for Lori to be able to seriously cut those ties so she did what the next best thing was....poison my family with lies about me. If she can't cut off the phone, she likes to sever family ties. "If they would just stop talking about me," she says. That's not who I am.
The choices I made as a victim were dictated by knowing not to go down the rabbit hole again. When you are new to this crime, you can't conceive that someone is able to read your thoughts. Every person that I know, understands that when you have a choice, you weigh the outcomes and you also know what the worst case scenario is. You make choices to avoid that scenario. What Lori does is make your worst nightmare come true. For me, she's been doing it since I was a little kid. She sees me as an easy target, a poster child for this crime. What she didn't count on was my ability to adapt and grow. She's a one trick pony, I'm multidimensional. I have lots more practical experience than she has and a whole lot more common sense.
For Lori to tell people that I am obsessed with her, is a joke. I am 100% gay man. I have no sexual attraction to women. I could no more be obsessed with her than I could an obsession with a rock. I've been shot at, beaten nearly to death and have all the proof I need that someone is trying to hurt me...you don't see that with Lori. What you do see is Lori bragging about me getting shot at and she says that "He (me) wasn't raped" but she thinks it's funny. It's not funny. How could she know half of the things she knows about me and writes about if she isn't the person that is obsessed. My research isn't based on obsession, it's based on survival. I have to fight an invisible criminal, but I have to hear her every minute of the day. Thank God there are cops that know this is how she truly is. Thank God there are other victims, some you have seen on television, that speak out about this crime too. I didn't know them before I started this project and there are more...
Listen, it is this simple. If you had been through the things that I've been put through and reported to the police, then found out that it was someone, the only one, that has expressed a hatred for you in the past, wouldn't you do everything you could do to stop her? I seek a peaceful and non violent solution to this problem. It was Lori that characterized this situation as "workplace violence" not me. I never could have because the girl on the microphone does not work. I wasn't looking for an employed female, I was looking for a home bound drug addict with a foul mouth that knows my family and our history. Any questions about her were strictly to try to eliminate her, but every time I tried to eliminate her, she could not be. The suspect list dwindled. The police know that I was looking for Steven's sister, Sheree, before, so they know that I didn't just pick Lori and say that...the evidence developed pointed to Lori pretending to be Steven's sister. Then I start getting mail from Christopher's mom and sister...see the pattern?
Lori also acts like I am "being mean to her family" but that isn't true either. First of all, I don't know them but second of all, that's the reason that Lori is so wrapped up in my family in the first place. Growing up I lived across the street from her aunt, then my sister is friendly with her uncle and his kids, so this all combines to make Lori think that she is part of my blood family. It's not true. What I know of Lori's family, I know because of that restraining order. I never even knew she had brothers and sisters because she told everyone she was an "only child". I've never approached any of them. It's only when she spies on me and finds out where I will be that SHE SHOWS UP AND ACTS LIKE SHE BELONGS THERE. I've been to two funerals for friend's fathers and Lori was at both of them. Her parents may know these people because of the size of our small town, but Lori certainly wasn't part of our circle of friends. She also is not afraid of me either...otherwise why would she go and stay when I'm the one that leaves at the first sign of her. It's the same as it was in high school. She's a bully.
I have other friends that she's approached to lie about my family too. Fraternity brothers, ex's and friends that she has contacted.
Look, my life would be complete if I never heard or saw her again, but that's not who she is. She won't stop trying to lie to someone to get them to hurt me physically and she is a drug dealer so the weapon of choice is methamphetamine. "If you do this for me," Lori says, "then you can have this baggie." Drugs for Lori are a means to an end of my life. I don't use drugs. I try to stay away from people that do. You can't plan for an ambush, but I wear POV body cameras every time I step out of the house. Why would I do that if I was obsessed with her? I have to make sure if the police harass me again or someone takes another swipe at me that I have the evidence I need to get a conviction. She has already proven that she lies to the court...I need to be prepared. So I am. Just tonight she thought of whether or not I locked my car up and alarmed it because the threat of putting drugs in my car, like she did to her cousins, is real.
I wouldn't know that they were there and the only person that knows where I am all the time is the person behind this crime. Jonathan Mendenhall can explain this too.
My life is anything but ordinary. I spend most of my time having to hear Lori angry at me or trying to get me to use this blog to anger someone else. I'm trying my best to focus on the situation at hand while someone that has tried to kill me on numerous occasions threatens another attempt. Like I said, I'm the one with the bullet in my car door. I'm the one with the broken skull. I have the medical reports about how I take care of my HIV and when this crime occurred. I don't care who you are, you can't give yourself an STD or five. I have the emails. I have the diaries, though they aren't in my possession. I have been in fear for my life for as long as I can remember. One thing I am not, is looking forward to another confrontation with Lori LaFond, but I am also not afraid of a courtroom.
My family has a very extensive history with this disturbed girl. A courtroom might be the only place that I feel safe. There are other teachers and other kids that she forced accusations of child molestation on. I've been the target of her hatred for as long as I can remember, but to be honest, I put all that behind me. The person that can't seem to put it behind her, is Lori. That's why she has all of my high school yearbooks and my scrapbook that my sister made for me. All of this stuff was stolen over years of stalking and watching me. She's called my sister numerous times about me then has the nerve to say, "She hasn't known a thing about me since high school." The truth is that she didn't know me then either...she confronted me several times and I avoided her. The rest she made up in her mind.
The other problem that I have is that I was told who was behind this torture and I've lived it. If I don't say what I know here, because the police already threatened me in Palm Springs, then I am committing a crime. My credibility as a police informant is no good if I don't tell what I know. Too many people have kept silent for too long. I am obligated to keep my friends and family safe. I can't fear police action. I have to tell it the way I know it and go from there. I know I am doing what God intended for me to do. I know it is right to stand up for my community. I know that someone in my family is already dead because of this crime and the information that was learned because of it's use. How can I sit by and not say something? I'm being hunted.
