You can't imagine the mind numbing games that are played on a victim of this crime to keep them from having sex. It's been ten years since I've had sex at all. I can't. What would happen?
First there is the threat of hurting Christopher. Is he or isn't he? What am I suppose to do, I'm kept in a cage and not told a single thing while someone else says, "Just wait until I'm ready." That's such fucking bullshit.
Then there is the added bonus of not having any homosexuals in the area for a hundred miles. I'm virtually in a wasteland of gay hating control freaks. Lori, of course, while living with her two lesbo friends has more than enough to keep her eyes on. I'm fucking sick of this. My entire 40's was spent without any sexuality at all.
I fucking hate this god damn investigation.
For this reason alone I want Police Chief Bryan Reyes fired forever...and I want his god damn pension too.
There is no way I could hookup online with the way Lori hunts people down. I can't meet anyone because I've been forced to live here in the desert...I could never make Christopher upset, but there is not one single sign of life from his end...so what this is, is sexual control enforced by Jeffrey Katzenberg's choice to help the wrong people. This is torture.
I'm so fucking tired of living here and doing this.
You have all put me in the position to have to fight for myself or live the rest of my life completely alone. I'm so fucking furious with all of you I can't take it any more. Not one of you understands how angry I am at the lack of ACTION...TAKE GOD DAMN ACTION JEFFREY!!!
THIS HAS TO STOP. I AM A HUMAN BEING, NOT SOME GOD DAMN RECORDING DEVICE FOR SEXUAL TORTURE. THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON LIKE THIS SINCE I WAS 40, I'M 50 YEARS OLD AND THERE HASN'T BEEN ONE SINGLE PERSON TO HELP ME THE FUCK OUT. WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU JEFFREY???
MISSY THE DYKE AND HER TWO DYKE FRIENDS ARE GETTING OFF ON TORTURING ME AGAIN AND JEFFREY HAS GONE ON HIATUS...AGAIN!!!
NOT ONE OF YOU HAS CONSIDERED ME AGAIN...I'M GOING TO PUT A STOP TO THIS MYSELF. I CAN'T LIVE THIS WAY ANY LONGER.
I'M GOING TO DO WHATEVER I WANT FROM NOW ON...IF IT HURTS CHRISTOPHER'S FEELINGS THEN HE NEEDS TO REALIZE WHAT TEN YEARS OF WAITING AROUND FOR HIM HAS BEEN LIKE WITH THIS CUNT!!!
