Today, everything that I had faith in was taken away. I believed in God and Jeffrey took that away too. I will never ever have a reason to go on without Christopher. He meant the world to me, but now that's all over.
I don't know where God has gone or if I will ever seek him again, but I do know that this is the worst thing that anyone has ever done to me. I don't know why Benjamin and his father did this to me, but I don't have a reason to live any longer.
You people have ruined my life for a stripper whore and a pedophile...
If any of you want to know what this is like, have someone beat you until you are senseless then throw them out into the middle of the desert to die. That's how I feel.
I am no longer in a friendship with Benjamin or Martin. I can not be friends with two people that came here under completely false pretenses to do what they did to my life. Christopher might as well have died today, because I will never be able to see him again, thanks to the people that chose my life for me.
You are going to have to make a decision...Benjamin or Kevin. I am not going to be friends with him ever so if you are, we should part ways. I have no more left inside me. The darkness has fallen into my heart and all that prick Jeffrey can say is, "I didn't know that would happen?"
Christopher was an ideal for me...now I have nothing. I will not help any of the operators of this system...I think you all have no hearts.
As for Joe Johnson and his daughter, if I ever get the chance to return the favor, I will do it without batting an eyelash. What you did to me Joseph was a crime.
Please pick Benjamin...I don't want any more friends.
