If you only knew half of the shit she's said about my family and one tenth of the problems she's caused us, you would probably wonder why it is that we haven't been able to have her arrested and I haven't been showing you her pictures and screaming her name out loud on here for years. The reason is really quite simple...there hasn't been nearly enough honesty from people without the fear of repercussion from the Palm Springs Police Department and Lori's rage when it comes to this system. Let's face it...she's allegedly killed before...and nobody has said she can't do it again! She's been jailed before and she's been released. The fear factor and the lack of judgment that has been shown isn't a good sign for the victims of this crime and it sends an awfully poor message to the victims of this crime. A HORRIBLE MESSAGE OF HOPELESSNESS AND INEPTITUDE ON THE PART OF POLICE AND THE GOVERNMENT TO CONTROL ONE SINGLE WOMAN'S RAGE AGAINST THE GAY COMMUNITY...IT'S A SAD STATEMENT AGAINST AN AREA OF THE COUNTRY THAT ISN'T FAR FROM LAS VEGAS WHERE THE WORST MASS SHOOTING TOOK PLACE LESS THAN A WEEK AGO.
If you take into account that domestic terrorism is looking at the faces of Americans without any reason to be targeting innocent Americans, why is one of the best examples of hatred sitting in a home torturing hundreds of gay men and their families on a nightly basis, 24 hours a day, high on drugs without a single stitch of police intrusion going on? Does anyone understand that a time bomb goes off unexpectedly and blows up without rhyme or reason? A sociopath attacks without a plan. I've been on the receiving end of this mad woman's rage all too many times. I know her rage all too well. Her sickness grows inside of her daily. Her hatred minute by minute while nobody does a thing to have her arrested. It is no wonder that people have the kinds of problems that happen in Las Vegas when viable lunatics like Lori sit around in homes that they don't own and tell you about how sick they are all day and night and nobody does anything about it. She's right there...and nobody is doing anything. Honestly, what is going on???
To be honest with all of you it's hectic at times because there is a ton of responsibility that falls on the shoulders of the kid that grew up with the person that does all of this but God chose me to deal with it. I know the responsibility and have known that I was chosen to do something amazing all my life. I can't tell you how I knew it, but I can tell you it was inside of me for all the time that I was growing up. My friends will tell you that they knew it too. I'm different. I'm a different kind of person. I get more satisfaction out of helping my friends than I do from helping myself. It's who I am. I don't know where that comes from, but I do know that it is who I am. In a way, that is what this crime needs. It is what this job requires. It is why I am the person that God chose.
Personally, it is a job that most people are not suited for. You have to deal with a lot of disappointment and despair. You have the whole homosexual experience, the HIV experience, the death experience, the trial of my father, the loss of a career that I loved dearly, the shooting, the loss of many friends...then you have to sacrifice the relationship of someone that I love more than anyone for almost a decade, just to get to right here. It's harder than most know. It's more than most would want. The end result is invisible. I know that what could be is greater than what would be if I didn't.
There isn't ever a guarantee of success. There is an absolute guarantee of failure if I don't try. The choice is unclear, but definite. I have to do this or fail. I don't fail. I've picked myself up so many times now that it just feels like another day to me. Failure seems like another way to figure out another way to try again. There really isn't any other option to me but to find another path to get the message out that I'm still here and fighting to tell you the truth about what really happened to my life and my friends. It's the only story I know. It's the only story worth telling.
I'm so offended that Lori continues to try to tell it any other way. She's not even close to telling it the way it really is. I've been pretty quiet in terms of how I could tell it. There are so many other outlets for the information that is there. I just need someone to help me show you what is real and what is her fantasy. When you all get a chance to know me for who I am and her for who she really is, you will see a story like no other. It's a real snow job on her part and a real heroic attempt to save my soul on mine. I know you won't believe how scary it is that one person can do so much damage to another simply because she wanted to. It's a testament to how evil a person can be. Why? I still don't know. I do know I had nothing to do with it. She picked a victim and stuck with him, for a lifetime.
