I'm including this video of the Shawn Carter Foundation to show you the kind of philanthropy that Christopher and I are interested in for the LGBTQ community in the future. It would be our philosophy to have one female and one male every year on scholarship to a university to study in the field of their choice. I think it is important for equality that we begin with a man and a woman, for only there do we begin the conversation of equality for all.
There are many reasons for seeking outside help to the situation that we face here in Palm Springs, California. There are times when I look at this situation and I think that there are so many people that must have sought help that just gave up because they had no way of finding out where they could turn to.
There was one point when I hired an outside agency to help me. Diop Kamau and the Police Complaint Center began investigating the sexual assault in September of 2017 where my head was beaten in and I was left bleeding in the early morning hours just a block from the Palm Springs Police Department. It was hard to believe that the police were no farther than they were but nobody would go to the crime scene and investigate. I couldn't get them to question the renter at the home for years. They wouldn't go to the crime scene. They wouldn't go to the hospital emergency room. When they did show up to my home, nearly a month later to take the report, the officer that took the report searched my home with other officers and was abusive. The ACLU wrote a letter on my behalf.
The bloody clothing from the rape wasn't sent for testing for nearly eight more months. I wasn't allowed to speak to a district attorney or get any kind of rape counseling. I never saw a copy of the police report and the police wouldn't let me have a copy of it. It was horrible. To make matters worse, I was arrested the next day, two times...and sent to jail. The first arrest was for nothing. There were no charges pressed and I spent the night in jail after the police officer that had taken the rape report the night before took me to jail naked wearing only a towel. He kept me there all night long without a single charge being pressed. On my walk home, in paper jail clothing, I stopped to pick up mail for a friend who was hospitalized, at his request, set off an alarm, and was arrested again without the police calling him and checking that it was okay for me to have been there. I was thrown in jail for a week.
My home was robbed.
This whole scenario stemmed from my reporting the rape that the police never investigated.
When the clothing was finally tested, I was shown a DNA report which prompted the Police Chief to tell me that, "I was right on the money" and that "they were going to get these guys" after I'd read the report. I was elated. I'd seen the report and knew justice would be served. He'd had the two suspects in for testing. Almost a year went by and nothing happened, then he called me on the phone and told me that he'd gotten a report saying that "all the DNA on the jeans and underwear was mine and now there was nothing his police department could do for me, (I) could say anything I wanted about his department". Clearly they were set to cover up this rape.
This is what victims of this crime go through. Lori was cut loose to do whatever she wanted. The next week she would go to Sedona, Arizona to try it again.
This is when you enlist the help of others. The Police Complaint Center was a good attempt, but they couldn't get the job done from the east coast using my money. They are good people fighting bad cops. The story is long but they were being contacted by Lori and misled. Now we have to do better.
You have all seen my broken skull by now. You can see the dates of the MRI's from the hospital emergency room visits with my name on it, so you know it's me. You can see the time that I was there. You can have a neurologist look at them and have an xray tech see the damage. Then you can have them take a look at the "Perspectives" postcard that was sent to my home to my roommate that shows MY FACE being punched out as an advertising for an art show two months later. This was submitted to the police too. I will also tell you that I got STD's from this rape and lab reports were given to the police that showed my test results directly before and after the rape that showed my STD's before and after the rape. Clean and clear before the rape and spikes for Hep C exposure, tb and syphilis afterwards...these line up with the DNA report that I was shown from the police report that I was shown.
What the police chief showed me was definitive, then it was gone. Nobody's skull gets smashed in the middle of the night for no reason and nobody bleeds from their rectum for no reason without explanation. His response, "There is nothing more that we can do for you," is simply saying, "we didn't do anything for you in the first place and we won't do anything for you now." He let two viable suspects free. Since then they have moved closer to me and created more terror than ever. They've shown up six hours away on my vacation and have made every effort to steal from my family and to keep me from being employed.
Just today Lori suggested and said that she told her own sister to apply at Builder's Supply in 29 Palms and at Travelodge in Yucca Valley to take the jobs that I was hired to do. Lori would call to these employers and tell them not to hire me and that she would send them another person to fill my position. This is terrorism. It is highly unlikely that this could be done any other way. How in the world would Lori even know that I was hired there unless she was spying on me. She simply ruins my life then tries to keep me unemployed telling everyone, "My family comes first!" Bullshit. Her "family" is the first set of people that she screws over. Look at the police report that she gave when she filed that bogus "workplace violence" restraining order against me after Sedona, Arizona. She threw more of her family members under the bus than any body. She lied.
The upsetting thing is how she uses me to find these "opportunities" for anyone else, as if I am some kind of employment service for her drug addicted friends. I need the work, but her friends have no desire to work at all. They are sit around drug dealing losers that have nothing going on in their lives. All I want to do is work. I've been working since I was 14 years old. I've never had a period of unemployment like this. It is slowly driving me crazy. I don't like being poor, but her friends managed to steal close to $30,000 from me which Lori tells everyone "is hers" because "she stole it." Since nobody is willing to tell me the truth about how it was actually stolen, I can't prosecute it. It's a shame.
So what I was doing the other day was wondering who I could talk to about what has happened here. Knowing that I've seen this happen to my community many times, I was sitting with my mom at the dermatologist office in Palm Springs when I was reading Time Magazine and I started reading an article about a huge problem with bail issued facing New York minorities and was fascinated about the story that I read. Being someone that has worked for the judicial system and having imposed bail in hundreds of cases I was fascinate that someone actually took the time to spell out that minority families were being torn apart by the bails that were being imposed and unable to be met in non-violent crimes in NY. Families torn apart by men and women lost in the system for petty crimes when they couldn't post bail and sent to Rikers during the pendency of their cases while their families lost their homes and children to the State. It was an eye opener. So familiar to what I was facing here in a completely different way. Unfair and solvable with just a simple look at what was being done.
Shawn Carter, the author of the article, had done an excellent job of outlining the problem and it had been turned into a documentary for the Tribeca Film Festival. Jay-Z, aka Shawn Carter, has been writing as an investigative reporter for Time Magazine and it dawned on me that we have a lot in common. He and I both have a reason to look into our communities and see what the problem is. In my community we are being destroyed by a woman that is implanting, infecting and interfering without our right to privacy then informing the police on us without any kind of due process. Unlike the black community we are one tenth of the make up of the entire population, perhaps on twentieth when you consider the gay MALE factor. It takes us a lot more time for us to recover in numbers when we lose one member. When we lose one gay male member of our community it takes us five times longer to have one more man replaced...not that it ever replaces him to his family.
The significance can not be ignored. It just makes it all the more important to recognize sooner and the impact all the more urgent to report. It's like losing a black mother to a family. You simply can not lose that sector of a society in a minority. You can't. If you do, you lose the glue. You lose the fabric that everything is sewn to. Without this important piece to attach to, you don't have something to build upon and we know the role that woman plays. Regardless of the non-violent crime she may or may not have committed, she plays the most significant role of mother and that can not be down played. In the gay male community when you lose half of that relationship, we lose that too. Lori destroys that every single time. She destroys relationships. One half at a time. You see it is not just how she breaks down our community it is how she exterminates our existence. We can't survive this kind of silent holocaust.
This is why I think Shawn would be perfect to help us expose what the police and Lori has done here since the late 1980's with her brother with HIV and brain computer interfacing. It can be done on his terms with my case and insiders so there is no doubt as to the reality of the situation. He can use former police officers that know what has happened. He can used insiders that are working this case with me. He can talk to operators anonymously. I will talk to him about what this is like and show him the cases that explain the unequal treatment of victims of this crime in the courthouse. The guilty assumptions of the commissioners at arraignments and the unequal sentences. The unusual arrests without convictions and lack of understanding that gay rape isn't treated like the rape of other individuals in this community. Simply look at what the police had to say in the interview that they did on television with me and you will know that this is how the police handle cases. They said I had "mental issues"...on television? I am the victim of a crime, that isn't even legal.
Shawn, I would love for you to take a look at this department and this crime. Minority communities need to stick together to achieve equality results and to gain a stronger foothold in American society. We begin with domestic terrorism and take and equal stand against it. When we say, "No more" together...we win. With proof.
