Remembering Jonathan Today

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We all miss Jonathan.  He was always someone that helped the victims of this crime and he always made all of us laugh.  Both Jared and he were two people that Laurie tormented for years and years and they are sorely missed.  My grandmother died on Christmas Day a long time ago.  I know what that is like for my family.  Every Christmas my mom thinks about her and there is that small feeling of loss that never quite makes it the holiday that it use to be.  This year was worse than ever.  I've never felt more alone in my life.  I know that I'm in one of the worst places I've ever been in and I know why.  My feelings are hurt.  My torture is worse.  Laurie is going absolutely nuts on drugs.  Missy is sharpening her claws.  Jeffrey is licking his chops.  The wolves are at the door, but I am remembering what Jonathan was like right now.  We've been through this before too.  We survived this before together with Anthony, with Christopher and many others.

I miss having my friends to fight back against Laurie with.  It was much more fun back then.  Jeffrey took away my boys.