We all know that Laurie likes to say things like "f my f-ing f hole" and "j off for me" and so forth, but when she starts this stuff like "I pity the whore that birthed you", then she has hit a mark that goes below her own vaginal areas. Laurie is what we like to refer to in childhood development as "a potty-mouth". She does it for attention and for lack of a better vocabulary.
She's tried bigger words that I like to use like "esoteric" and "familial" and so forth, but it always comes back to things of an anal sex nature and what she'd like for you to do with her in an anal sexual manner. This is what I like to call subliminal focused sexual manipulation humiliation. Where a person uses shock language to offend you to the point where you will be forced to deal with them but what they have said is of a particular sexual interest to them in a perverse game of "what do you think about what I've just said about my sexual proclivity"? It's a way of finding out about what you think about her sexual preferences by forcing you to deal with her. It's very rapist and sadistic in a very childish and immature way.
Unfortunately this is a sociopath that is too far gone and I know in my research and heart that this is all she will be. There will always be another excuse waiting to cover up every single lie that the truth confronts her with. You could literally have a picture or video of her committing a bank robbery and she would tell you that there is a logical reason for her robbing that bank. When confronted with that next lie, she will tell you there was a logical reason for it. Lie after lie, she will never stop believing that she is right no matter what the truth really is. Taking responsibility is not her thing. Blaming someone else for her problems is always going to happen no matter what the truth confronts her with and when it gets down to the bare facts...she will either flee or destroy. That is what we have seen here. She wants me to disappear. She wants the DNA report and MRI's to disappear. The facts show nothing more than a crime has been committed. So the facts and the victim must be destroyed.
That is the nature of the beast. I've been the scapegoat for her freaky need to bully someone for many decades now. I was the "one that slighted her" for years, in her mind. I wasn't really though. It started before I even met her with an accusation that she made against my father. When I met her, her hatred was already in full swing and she was a teacher's aide in a classroom. I had no idea who she was and what she'd done, but she did. I literally walked into the spider's den. She knew who I was and knew what she'd caused. My father had already been accused and I was already in Hell. She proceeded to get thrown out of that class because of her own behavior; calling the teacher's home, wife and acting like some kind of teacher's pet/sex addict.
When she got booted from the class for basically acting inappropriately, she blamed me. She blamed the kids in the class. Mostly she blamed me so she started making up stories. Then she blamed my friend Karen and me and started trouble with another friend of ours and that lasted for years. We were kids...but Laurie was behind all of it.
Then it went to college.
Then it went to San Diego.
Then it went to Palm Springs.
Now it is here again, 30 plus years later.
This is a cycle that she's never grown out of. Over the years this remote neural monitoring has given her the advantage of knowing things that she shouldn't have known and making up stories about. She's a dreamer that dreams in nightmares. The truth doesn't matter to a sociopath. What she can turn the truth in to is what interests her. She thinks of herself as some kind of fiction writer with a macabre twist on the truth...death is a main theme. It's a very sad case of obsession and lies. I've been burdened with proving what this is like, but better me than someone else. I don't know that anyone else could do this. I really don't think anyone could. It's hard enough for a regular victim of this crime to prove it is happening, but for a person that has a life long stalker, it's doubly hard. This is a challenge that only a champion knows how to deal with. I'm a particular kind of person. I have a skill set that most people don't have. I have a federal legal background and a stronger will than many.
I want to live.
I like life and love people. That is a great advantage over most people that would suffer loss after loss then give up. I have a need to succeed. I think that it is greater for me than some. I've never been one to stop trying to re-build or re-trigger. I just don't have the kind of mentality of a quitter. I help when I see someone that needs it. It's in my nature to feel sorry for others. It's in my nature to use my head to solve problems. I'm a mystery lover. I'm a true crime buff. My head says, "Something here isn't logical, I must make sense of it." That's who I am. I can't let something lie on the floor without wondering how it got there. Some people can. I just can't.
My nature says something bad happened here. I have to fix it. I think it is my job. I know it is my calling. I am proud of that part of my person.
