There are many aspects of this crime that are easy to explain, but I avoid this one most times because of Laurie's need to feel like she controls my sex life. Not that I have a sex life, because to me, "sex life" is an oxymoron. I have a team that purposefully keeps Christopher away from me, but it goes way beyond that. In addition to not being able to see him, I can't even fantasize about him. Think about it folks, if I have some kind of sexual or romantic fantasy about him, Laurie will try to use what she learns to "act like she or her brother" are "like that". Trust me, the last thing that I want to think about is Laurie or his transgendered brother, Brian, as a sexual thing. Ewwwwwwwwwww!
You see, I am "not allowed" to be a person. I have to be a guy that doesn't think about anything that "turns him on". I can't think of sex with Christopher because Laurie will use that to say things to him about it and I can't think about sex without Christopher because then Laurie will try to make Christopher feel bad, so, no fantasies. Laurie also tells people that I watch porn like some kind of fiend, but the truth is that if there is an image on the screen of people that I don't know, then all she has to talk about is the act...which is less hurtful than whatever else she could learn. Of course there is still Laurie telling everyone that she "knows what I am in to", but generally I can find something "non committal" that is close to what I like, but not something that I am 100% committed to...LOL. Basically, I am not a big fan of people keeping the two of us apart AND I'm also not a fan of my weird female "into gay men's sex" stalker AND I'm not happy with the combination of the two.
It has been 9 years afterall!!! Geez Jeffrey...lighten the heck up!!! See, he's an old guy so 9 years, isn't a long time for him! I've just spent my entire 40's without sex...because of this project. That's not cool and it makes Laurie happy. This is not something that I like on two levels!!!
You see, I am "not allowed" to be a person. I have to be a guy that doesn't think about anything that "turns him on". I can't think of sex with Christopher because Laurie will use that to say things to him about it and I can't think about sex without Christopher because then Laurie will try to make Christopher feel bad, so, no fantasies. Laurie also tells people that I watch porn like some kind of fiend, but the truth is that if there is an image on the screen of people that I don't know, then all she has to talk about is the act...which is less hurtful than whatever else she could learn. Of course there is still Laurie telling everyone that she "knows what I am in to", but generally I can find something "non committal" that is close to what I like, but not something that I am 100% committed to...LOL. Basically, I am not a big fan of people keeping the two of us apart AND I'm also not a fan of my weird female "into gay men's sex" stalker AND I'm not happy with the combination of the two.
It has been 9 years afterall!!! Geez Jeffrey...lighten the heck up!!! See, he's an old guy so 9 years, isn't a long time for him! I've just spent my entire 40's without sex...because of this project. That's not cool and it makes Laurie happy. This is not something that I like on two levels!!!
