Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could all be Superman/woman?
Boundless energy and strength. Faster than a speeding bullet. More powerful than a locomotive (that's a train for those of you that don't know; in this day and age, you never do.) Able to leap tall buildings and so forth. The best thing about being Superman could be his ability to fly, see through walls or incredible feats of strength, but really, in the eyes of others, it's knowing what he is capable of that makes him so iconic. You can't beat Superman. Of course, he doesn't concentrate on Kryptonite, he focuses on what makes him strong. That's what you should do to.
Police will find, as my team has discovered, that I knew long before I was sexually assaulted that Laurie and Brian LaStupid were going way too far with me. I'm not easily pushed around and I don't like being made a fool of. It's one thing for me to make a mistake, but it is quite another for someone to pretend that I have no intelligence at all. Steven Frey and many others will tell you that I have a tendency to write. When I have a problem, I journal about it like a therapy session with Dr. Drew. I can recall many times thinking to myself, that this remote neural monitoring situation was getting out of control and my need for making myself "bulletproof". Laurie just loves that one because she takes it so literal. Obviously I am a man and a bullet would kill me, but I'm talking about taking out all of those weaknesses that allow a proverbial bullet to pass through your armor to hit you in a place that would take away your freedom or life. Making yourself bulletproof is how I call it...of course, I've got someone stalking me that wants to test that theory with a real gun and bullet; even then, I can keep myself out of places where that kind of crime could happen to me.
I've already told all of you that, in the past, I allowed myself, during the investigation of this crime, to go to places and be around people that I could learn things from. Those kinds of places and people are not good for making yourself bulletproof. It's not that the people or places are necessarily bad, it's that they can breed a situation that Laurie or her brother can take advantage of. Then you are stuck. These were dangerous yet necessary risks that I took to learn about this crime. I don't go there any longer.
I found that most gay men living in Palm Springs weren't thrilled with the people that they met. In fact, most of them said something like, "There's something wrong with the people here, they aren't friendly at all." That's the truth, but what you learn is that most of these people have been either sent by Laurie to intercept you or they are victims of the same crime and they don't trust anyone. It's all about what Laurie, Brian and Christian can make up in your head, and theirs, to put you in a state of discontent. That's what the problem in Palm Springs is, the solution is the concept of making yourself "bulletproof".
The first step in understanding your position as a gay man is this. You aren't living in a private world when you move to Palm Springs. Unlike the rumor mill in other cities, this town literally has you "under surveillance" if you are gay. You don't have to be implanted to be watched either. If you are around people that are implanted, that's good enough. Your decisions, actions and comments overheard by anyone that is being stalked, are good enough to get you in trouble. So my first piece of advice is to be aware of strangers. No matter where you are, if someone new pops up, be cautious about what they learn about you. Things like where you live, what you drive, where you work, what your parents do for a living and even that kind of income that you have should all be kept to yourself. Laurie feeds off of information about others. I remember Steven Frey never wanted to talk about anyone he or I knew...that was a good policy.
The next thing is drugs. Hate to say it, but if you are gay in Palm Springs and you use drugs, you are going to have a problem with Laurie, Brian, Christian and, inevitably, the police. Laurie is not above having her own supplier busted. She's really short sighted that way. In my case, she even tried to have Steven Frey framed for my rape, and I knew he wasn't capable of doing anything like that. Steven was her dealer, but hurting me was more important than where her drugs came from. Once she procured a huge supply from him, he was just as easy to "pick off" as anyone else. Laurie's not a bright girl and all you have to do is piss her off for no good reason and you will end up in jail. She had the police thinking I was Public Enemy Number One and I'm a college grad, paralegal with a career at the Department of Justice and no police record at all when I got to P.S.. By the time I left, I wasn't that good on paper but I was still better than most. Lots of arrests, but no convictions and most of that was because I made myself bulletproof. I didn't go outside high. I took cabs everywhere I went. I put away my drugs and paraphernalia after every single hit off the pipe. I use to call it a "healthy paranoia" because I knew she was after me. It's like Spidey sense, you know it when she's ready to pounce. I would suggest to anyone using drugs that she is after to stop. If you are selling drugs to live and she is forcing you to do this, tell Sgt. Anderson and see if he can help. If she forced you in the past into a "no win" or "sell drugs or else" situation, you are in the best position of all to rat this bitch out.
I have an arrest record, I don't have a conviction record and that shows that the police arresting me, but they don't really have a reason to. Five or six arrests with no convictions says, "the police are targeting me, but I'm smart enough not to give them ammunition". The best way to stay bulletproof, is to take away the ammunition that could be used to shoot at you. No ammunition, no bullets...no problems. You might still be arrested for "being under the influence" but if you know you aren't, you should have them test you and demand they release you once you've tested negative; after all, no drugs in your system means you aren't under the influence. You may be under the influence of Laurie, but not drugs. Hmmm, if Laurie is committing a crime by using remote neural monitoring and you are the target, could you really be "Under the Influence" of Laurie; (sound of lawyers contemplating starts in the background).
Bulletproofing yourself comes from knowing your strengths. Emphasizing your weaknesses is playing into her strengths, not that she has many. I use to tell Laurie and Brian that the things that were happening to me because of this illegal surveillance was "overkill" and that if they continued I would be in contact with my friends from the Department of Justice to have them shut down. Laurie, as usual, didn't think, after knowing the kind of person I am for decades, that I had that kind of juice. I do, I assure you. She kept hearing the concept of "overkill" and picked out the word "kill" thinking of some kind of sinister plot. What I meant was that, because of her obvious hatred of me and never ending torturous nights, that she was making herself obvious. Listen everyone, nobody can talk to you day and night without giving you a clue as to whom they are and what they have been up to. There just isn't that much to talk about. So once Laurie and Christian have exhausted their game playing, I get more information than any cop could ever get in an interview. I know more about their sexual kinks, their devious minds and their practices than any psychologist could ever get. As an informant against her, this is a gold mine. I mine it every single minute of the day; even as I type this.
I must have written in my diary many times that I was going to stop her by using my friends from San Diego and my experience; to Laurie that was a throw down challenge. To me, that was a warning to back the fuck off of me. You all need to understand that she's been reading my thoughts and influencing my outcomes since I was 19 years old. The concept of me fighting back didn't enter her mind. When I would become more successful in my life, it began to magnify her inability to control me with other operators of this system. They would tell her "he's not the kind of person you want to do this to" and she, being the snotty bitch she is, would say, "you don't know him. I can do anything I want to him" which meant thing like what she did to other people in Palm Springs. That's why I got shot at in San Diego. Once that happened and I didn't die, she took another crack at me in Palm Springs. She just couldn't have these operators knowing that she'd allegedly "ordered a hit on me" and that it didn't "go down" the way she'd planned it, so she was going to "finish the job" herself at Steven Frey's home. No loose ends...but still not very intelligent. When that attempt didn't work, Laurie had to cajole and manipulate the police department into not investigating my rape. Then another attempt was set up in Sedona, Arizona in 2010. That didn't work either, but it could have. Whew.
You all know the book, "Conversations with God: An Uncommon Dialogue"? A classic about a man that began asking God questions and, through his pen, God would answer. The concept was the same for me even before I came to Palm Springs. I would sit on my San Diego Transit bus, on my way home from work and notice all of the gang stalkers around me, so I began writing in my diaries. Things about, "why are these people following me" and "I'm not doing anything wrong" somehow knowing that someone was reading these entries even though they didn't have my book. Once I got to Palm Springs and the V2K kicked in, I would have what I like to call, "A Conversation with the Devil", certainly uncommon dialogue too. Brian and Laurie would talk to me while I was at Steven's home and I would write things about the legality of what they were doing. The morality of personal invasion. The wrongness of reading my thoughts...and they would get the message. It was weird, but through my diary writing I was telling both Laurie and Brian what I was planning on doing, but with them, it was a challenge to stop me, not themselves.
I can't tell you how many pages I must have written right in front of Steven Frey in his home while Laurie and Brian were threatening me. All handwritten, all conversations with the Devil and all a back and forth dialogue that I needed to keep for this investigation. It was imperative to do this in front of Steven too. He needed to know that I was not just talking to these people in my thoughts, but writing them down with a date and time to keep a record of the topics that I was dealing with. The diaries prove a lot of things; or should I say they confirm a lot of things. Mostly that I was in fear for my life, angry about the intrusion, pissed off that Steven was lying to me about it and that I knew I could come up with THE answer if pushed hard enough. One thing that every victim knows is that Laurie pushes harder than anyone you have ever met before.
My advice to all of you is not to focus on your Achilles heel, but on your quickness. It's very difficult to hit your sore spot if she doesn't know where it is. Now remember, Laurie is not normal. Things like family, money, work are all stressors that she focuses on, but SEX is number one on her hit parade. She thinks that SEX is the most powerful "emotion" a person has. De-emphasizing SEX and all of the other things is important. Family is best off being informed about Laurie to alleviate the stress of her manipulating them. Work knows that I have a stalker that has gone to great lengths to have me fired before and money, easy for me to say, has become less and less important now that there is a roof over my head that she can't take and food that can be bought that she can't drug. Secure your bulletproofing with honesty and good deeds. The most important thing to Superman isn't Kryptonite, it's truth, justice and the American way.
One last thing. I am of the opinion that when you are an electronic harassment victim in Palm Springs, at this point, you should identify yourself as such. I know that sounds like not such a good idea, but, with the information we have now, getting that in your police report is essential to defending you and identifying that you are a victim of a crime, not a criminal. My team has a definitive list of all of the victims that can be seen by law enforcement officers that have been involved in this investigation. Anyone that Laurie or her "crew" has arrested at this point is subject to review...that means that her "old way" of dealing with things is going to focus more on police procedures and cops going out on calls for this terrorist, not on blaming the victims. We are now focusing on the cops that go out on these calls for her and that communicate with her once they are dispatched...if the cop is receiving information from her, he or she should now note that information too as "supplied by Laurie" in addition to getting the suspect's side as well. If Laurie is found to be advising cops from a remote location, she is impeding an investigation and committing a crime. I would suggest that police officers keep a log of how many times Laurie is contacting them, what she is saying, date and time and we can match that up later with our records. This is a crime that can be stopped, but the police are just as big a target for Laurie as the gay men she hates. My team wants to protect both.
Police will find, as my team has discovered, that I knew long before I was sexually assaulted that Laurie and Brian LaStupid were going way too far with me. I'm not easily pushed around and I don't like being made a fool of. It's one thing for me to make a mistake, but it is quite another for someone to pretend that I have no intelligence at all. Steven Frey and many others will tell you that I have a tendency to write. When I have a problem, I journal about it like a therapy session with Dr. Drew. I can recall many times thinking to myself, that this remote neural monitoring situation was getting out of control and my need for making myself "bulletproof". Laurie just loves that one because she takes it so literal. Obviously I am a man and a bullet would kill me, but I'm talking about taking out all of those weaknesses that allow a proverbial bullet to pass through your armor to hit you in a place that would take away your freedom or life. Making yourself bulletproof is how I call it...of course, I've got someone stalking me that wants to test that theory with a real gun and bullet; even then, I can keep myself out of places where that kind of crime could happen to me.
I've already told all of you that, in the past, I allowed myself, during the investigation of this crime, to go to places and be around people that I could learn things from. Those kinds of places and people are not good for making yourself bulletproof. It's not that the people or places are necessarily bad, it's that they can breed a situation that Laurie or her brother can take advantage of. Then you are stuck. These were dangerous yet necessary risks that I took to learn about this crime. I don't go there any longer.
I found that most gay men living in Palm Springs weren't thrilled with the people that they met. In fact, most of them said something like, "There's something wrong with the people here, they aren't friendly at all." That's the truth, but what you learn is that most of these people have been either sent by Laurie to intercept you or they are victims of the same crime and they don't trust anyone. It's all about what Laurie, Brian and Christian can make up in your head, and theirs, to put you in a state of discontent. That's what the problem in Palm Springs is, the solution is the concept of making yourself "bulletproof".
The first step in understanding your position as a gay man is this. You aren't living in a private world when you move to Palm Springs. Unlike the rumor mill in other cities, this town literally has you "under surveillance" if you are gay. You don't have to be implanted to be watched either. If you are around people that are implanted, that's good enough. Your decisions, actions and comments overheard by anyone that is being stalked, are good enough to get you in trouble. So my first piece of advice is to be aware of strangers. No matter where you are, if someone new pops up, be cautious about what they learn about you. Things like where you live, what you drive, where you work, what your parents do for a living and even that kind of income that you have should all be kept to yourself. Laurie feeds off of information about others. I remember Steven Frey never wanted to talk about anyone he or I knew...that was a good policy.
The next thing is drugs. Hate to say it, but if you are gay in Palm Springs and you use drugs, you are going to have a problem with Laurie, Brian, Christian and, inevitably, the police. Laurie is not above having her own supplier busted. She's really short sighted that way. In my case, she even tried to have Steven Frey framed for my rape, and I knew he wasn't capable of doing anything like that. Steven was her dealer, but hurting me was more important than where her drugs came from. Once she procured a huge supply from him, he was just as easy to "pick off" as anyone else. Laurie's not a bright girl and all you have to do is piss her off for no good reason and you will end up in jail. She had the police thinking I was Public Enemy Number One and I'm a college grad, paralegal with a career at the Department of Justice and no police record at all when I got to P.S.. By the time I left, I wasn't that good on paper but I was still better than most. Lots of arrests, but no convictions and most of that was because I made myself bulletproof. I didn't go outside high. I took cabs everywhere I went. I put away my drugs and paraphernalia after every single hit off the pipe. I use to call it a "healthy paranoia" because I knew she was after me. It's like Spidey sense, you know it when she's ready to pounce. I would suggest to anyone using drugs that she is after to stop. If you are selling drugs to live and she is forcing you to do this, tell Sgt. Anderson and see if he can help. If she forced you in the past into a "no win" or "sell drugs or else" situation, you are in the best position of all to rat this bitch out.
I have an arrest record, I don't have a conviction record and that shows that the police arresting me, but they don't really have a reason to. Five or six arrests with no convictions says, "the police are targeting me, but I'm smart enough not to give them ammunition". The best way to stay bulletproof, is to take away the ammunition that could be used to shoot at you. No ammunition, no bullets...no problems. You might still be arrested for "being under the influence" but if you know you aren't, you should have them test you and demand they release you once you've tested negative; after all, no drugs in your system means you aren't under the influence. You may be under the influence of Laurie, but not drugs. Hmmm, if Laurie is committing a crime by using remote neural monitoring and you are the target, could you really be "Under the Influence" of Laurie; (sound of lawyers contemplating starts in the background).
Bulletproofing yourself comes from knowing your strengths. Emphasizing your weaknesses is playing into her strengths, not that she has many. I use to tell Laurie and Brian that the things that were happening to me because of this illegal surveillance was "overkill" and that if they continued I would be in contact with my friends from the Department of Justice to have them shut down. Laurie, as usual, didn't think, after knowing the kind of person I am for decades, that I had that kind of juice. I do, I assure you. She kept hearing the concept of "overkill" and picked out the word "kill" thinking of some kind of sinister plot. What I meant was that, because of her obvious hatred of me and never ending torturous nights, that she was making herself obvious. Listen everyone, nobody can talk to you day and night without giving you a clue as to whom they are and what they have been up to. There just isn't that much to talk about. So once Laurie and Christian have exhausted their game playing, I get more information than any cop could ever get in an interview. I know more about their sexual kinks, their devious minds and their practices than any psychologist could ever get. As an informant against her, this is a gold mine. I mine it every single minute of the day; even as I type this.
I must have written in my diary many times that I was going to stop her by using my friends from San Diego and my experience; to Laurie that was a throw down challenge. To me, that was a warning to back the fuck off of me. You all need to understand that she's been reading my thoughts and influencing my outcomes since I was 19 years old. The concept of me fighting back didn't enter her mind. When I would become more successful in my life, it began to magnify her inability to control me with other operators of this system. They would tell her "he's not the kind of person you want to do this to" and she, being the snotty bitch she is, would say, "you don't know him. I can do anything I want to him" which meant thing like what she did to other people in Palm Springs. That's why I got shot at in San Diego. Once that happened and I didn't die, she took another crack at me in Palm Springs. She just couldn't have these operators knowing that she'd allegedly "ordered a hit on me" and that it didn't "go down" the way she'd planned it, so she was going to "finish the job" herself at Steven Frey's home. No loose ends...but still not very intelligent. When that attempt didn't work, Laurie had to cajole and manipulate the police department into not investigating my rape. Then another attempt was set up in Sedona, Arizona in 2010. That didn't work either, but it could have. Whew.
You all know the book, "Conversations with God: An Uncommon Dialogue"? A classic about a man that began asking God questions and, through his pen, God would answer. The concept was the same for me even before I came to Palm Springs. I would sit on my San Diego Transit bus, on my way home from work and notice all of the gang stalkers around me, so I began writing in my diaries. Things about, "why are these people following me" and "I'm not doing anything wrong" somehow knowing that someone was reading these entries even though they didn't have my book. Once I got to Palm Springs and the V2K kicked in, I would have what I like to call, "A Conversation with the Devil", certainly uncommon dialogue too. Brian and Laurie would talk to me while I was at Steven's home and I would write things about the legality of what they were doing. The morality of personal invasion. The wrongness of reading my thoughts...and they would get the message. It was weird, but through my diary writing I was telling both Laurie and Brian what I was planning on doing, but with them, it was a challenge to stop me, not themselves.
I can't tell you how many pages I must have written right in front of Steven Frey in his home while Laurie and Brian were threatening me. All handwritten, all conversations with the Devil and all a back and forth dialogue that I needed to keep for this investigation. It was imperative to do this in front of Steven too. He needed to know that I was not just talking to these people in my thoughts, but writing them down with a date and time to keep a record of the topics that I was dealing with. The diaries prove a lot of things; or should I say they confirm a lot of things. Mostly that I was in fear for my life, angry about the intrusion, pissed off that Steven was lying to me about it and that I knew I could come up with THE answer if pushed hard enough. One thing that every victim knows is that Laurie pushes harder than anyone you have ever met before.
My advice to all of you is not to focus on your Achilles heel, but on your quickness. It's very difficult to hit your sore spot if she doesn't know where it is. Now remember, Laurie is not normal. Things like family, money, work are all stressors that she focuses on, but SEX is number one on her hit parade. She thinks that SEX is the most powerful "emotion" a person has. De-emphasizing SEX and all of the other things is important. Family is best off being informed about Laurie to alleviate the stress of her manipulating them. Work knows that I have a stalker that has gone to great lengths to have me fired before and money, easy for me to say, has become less and less important now that there is a roof over my head that she can't take and food that can be bought that she can't drug. Secure your bulletproofing with honesty and good deeds. The most important thing to Superman isn't Kryptonite, it's truth, justice and the American way.
One last thing. I am of the opinion that when you are an electronic harassment victim in Palm Springs, at this point, you should identify yourself as such. I know that sounds like not such a good idea, but, with the information we have now, getting that in your police report is essential to defending you and identifying that you are a victim of a crime, not a criminal. My team has a definitive list of all of the victims that can be seen by law enforcement officers that have been involved in this investigation. Anyone that Laurie or her "crew" has arrested at this point is subject to review...that means that her "old way" of dealing with things is going to focus more on police procedures and cops going out on calls for this terrorist, not on blaming the victims. We are now focusing on the cops that go out on these calls for her and that communicate with her once they are dispatched...if the cop is receiving information from her, he or she should now note that information too as "supplied by Laurie" in addition to getting the suspect's side as well. If Laurie is found to be advising cops from a remote location, she is impeding an investigation and committing a crime. I would suggest that police officers keep a log of how many times Laurie is contacting them, what she is saying, date and time and we can match that up later with our records. This is a crime that can be stopped, but the police are just as big a target for Laurie as the gay men she hates. My team wants to protect both.
