According to Laurie, every person has someone like her in their life. That's why I am asking you the question. I do find it rather interesting that a woman that would tell police and district attorneys, pretending to be someone with the same name, that she was "afraid for her life from me". With all of the projection that she does, is that some kind of veiled message to all of us about whom should be afraid of whom? I think so.
Only days after the restraining order was illegally issued, Laurie hopped in a car and drove six hours with some high school friends of mine to follow me on vacation. Somehow I think that shows whom is stalking whom. My writing about it on the internet is the only option I have left to tell all of you what it is like. It is not pleasant knowing that so many things in my life would have worked out better if she hadn't been such a lazy assed loser without a job or a life. She spent so much of her time obsessing about not being able to "finish me off" in high school that it literally took over her life.
I can't even point to a single friend of mine in Palm Springs that isn't infected with the HIV virus from her, allegedly. Not one. Do any of you understand the responsibility that I have to expose that? Think about what that means. One after another, allegedly, this woman that I've never had a conversation with, sought out, drugged, implanted and infected every single person that I knew. Every one!!! That's a whole lot of people. Proving that is as easy as genotyping the virus that they have. I know I didn't infect them, but I have a feeling that Laurie wanted it to look that way. Unfortunately science caught up with the virus being spread intentionally and although, I too got the virus from a woman I've never slept or used drugs with, it is closely related to theirs. Their virus doesn't include my DNA strand anywhere, but it does include hers.
If any of you out there don't think that in 1987 when I got HIV infection wasn't an attempt on my life, then remember what it was like back then. There was NO HOPE. I've heard that Laurie wants these victims to "understand what it is like to be her" and "to go out there and give this to as many people as you can so that they know what it is like to be her". That's horrible. There is no way that she can make the claim that I don't know what it is like to have parents that know about me being gay, HIV positive, a drug user...but there is no way I'm anything like a pedophile, child molester or a "typical" misogynist male. I'm gay. I studied to be a credited substitute teacher in college, but opted not to do the job when I was being stalked in Riverside. I thought it dangerous to the kids. I took classes like early childhood development, for which, Laurie had her brother break into my car and steal my school books thinking it was some kind of pedophile training manual. I took classes to become a mentor at the Polinsky Center in San Diego. Background checks, finger prints, extensive psychological testing just because I wanted to mentor a kid.
The stalking was so bad then that I also opted out of having a kid assigned to me because I thought that many people following me around would be dangerous to him or her. This prompted Laurie to spread pedophile rumors about me. I thought it was sick. I purposefully don't go near children now because I know what she is like.
I've tried to be an example, a leader, a supportive member of society. I've tried to teach and mentor and pay forward in a life where I've been completely stalked by strangers. How do you do a better job of projecting a positive image than becoming a teacher? A mentor? I read the Bible on the bus when I was being stalked and books like the Four Agreements and Conversations With God, but these people persisted like they were some vigilante law enforcement. It was awful. I projected positivism, they tore it down. Then once I got to Palm Spring the police helped Laurie to make me look even worse by arresting me so many times that Laurie would go online saying, "just look at his arrest record." She never mentioned that not a single conviction was ever had. No drugs, no kids, no nothing. It was all a smear campaign to project some kind of image that Laurie has told people about me for decades. As if that would somehow justify the HIV infection and shooting in San Diego. That doesn't even come close.
By the way, I was asked to become a mentor by a friend at the courthouse where I worked. Both my boyfriend and I thought it would be a good idea to become mentors. He is an excellent example of what we were like. We went to mass on Sundays, volunteered, did charity runs and volunteered our time to become mentors. A dynamic relationship ruined because Laurie started writing him letters while he was over seas. I contend his honesty about that situation is the same as my honesty about Laurie infecting me. His life was never in danger because of HIV because we did not have that kind of relationship. He is not HIV positive. When I realized that testing with him would break our relationship, I ended it and moved on. This is all part of my diary, but what isn't part of it is that I was being followed during this time and still couldn't put anyone else's life in danger. How do you tell people that you love that you are being followed. At this point I wasn't using drugs, but it still wasn't an option.
By the way, I was asked to become a mentor by a friend at the courthouse where I worked. Both my boyfriend and I thought it would be a good idea to become mentors. He is an excellent example of what we were like. We went to mass on Sundays, volunteered, did charity runs and volunteered our time to become mentors. A dynamic relationship ruined because Laurie started writing him letters while he was over seas. I contend his honesty about that situation is the same as my honesty about Laurie infecting me. His life was never in danger because of HIV because we did not have that kind of relationship. He is not HIV positive. When I realized that testing with him would break our relationship, I ended it and moved on. This is all part of my diary, but what isn't part of it is that I was being followed during this time and still couldn't put anyone else's life in danger. How do you tell people that you love that you are being followed. At this point I wasn't using drugs, but it still wasn't an option.
I've never had anything to do with Laurie. She's had everything to do with me. I don't want to die. I don't want her to kill me. It just gets to the point where you wonder, who is it going to be that finally puts an end to her life long dream of killing someone from high school. Some kind of sick high school revenge for no reason at all. Of course now there is the added bonus of the evidence of HIV infection and my shooting as incentive to take me out. Isn't that a wonderful feeling? They made mistakes and told people and now I have to pay for their inability to kill me.
She seems to have some need to do all of these things to me then turn herself into some kind of manipulated victim now that I have a say in what she's done. Laurie is no victim other than a victim of her own drug use and mental instability. She admits, "I can't stop myself," and look at the lengths she gone to make another attempt. Jodi Arias comes to mind when I think of the six hour trip to follow me on my vacation with friends. She got a key to my condo. She stole food out of our fridge and she could just as easily have poisoned it and got into our condo. Think about how diabolical that is. It's this side of Jodi Arias. I've heard she had a hand gun, bullets, rope, duct tape and someone to help her. Think about that. She also stole my meds from my car before the trip so I was out of HIV meds.
Allegedly.
She seems to have some need to do all of these things to me then turn herself into some kind of manipulated victim now that I have a say in what she's done. Laurie is no victim other than a victim of her own drug use and mental instability. She admits, "I can't stop myself," and look at the lengths she gone to make another attempt. Jodi Arias comes to mind when I think of the six hour trip to follow me on my vacation with friends. She got a key to my condo. She stole food out of our fridge and she could just as easily have poisoned it and got into our condo. Think about how diabolical that is. It's this side of Jodi Arias. I've heard she had a hand gun, bullets, rope, duct tape and someone to help her. Think about that. She also stole my meds from my car before the trip so I was out of HIV meds.
Allegedly.
