It is no secret that my father is really ill. Thanks to your prayers and love he's home now and feeling better. He's not 100%, not even close. In the last three weeks my dad was in the hospital and for a few days I wondered, as did many people, if he was going to live. It made me question the decisions made by my producer, my best friend's father. He's made lots of decisions about my welfare, mostly bad ones, mostly ill advised and mostly without my consent. He's absolutely forgotten that I am a human being that has been harassed to near death by the same woman that hurt his own son. Now his son is safe, thank God, but I'm still not.
Because of the efforts I made, his son and I became friends, close friends. We're very similar and very close when it comes to helping other people. I want Christopher to have a chance to meet my father and said so...the producer/father said "no"; not until I am ready. Well unless this producer has God on speed dial there is no way he can control whether my dad is going to live or die. Christopher is a priest...a helpful loving servant of God. He's a wonderful person for me to know and could alleviate a lot of the stress that this situation has caused. My producer, hasn't let up one bit...won't let him talk to me...won't let his mother talk to me...won't let his sister talk to me...and I'm the one that saved him.
It is with great sorrow that I have to think of him as an asshole...a tyrant that won't allow the feelings of my own boyfriend and myself to control this situation. What is wrong with him? Who knows...some say he is too involved with the girls on my team, some say he doesn't listen to his own son and some think he's pulling a fast one on both Christopher and myself. I think all three...he's not done me a single favor since he got involved and he's lied to many people about what the time frame is for ending this whole fucking crime. I've told him about every single aspect of this crime, I've shown him who knows best when it comes to this girl whom has infected everyone and he's decided that lesser intelligent people would be better to work with.
I'm done letting him control how I fight this crime because he doesn't care enough about me...because I care about everyone but those girls.
Mrs. Monti and Mrs. Mendenhall...ask your sons about the "order for HIV testing" today and see why I'm no longer concerned with the issues that this producer is concerned about. It's heartbreaking to think that this has happened.
