You've heard it a million times before..."She asked for it dressing the way she did" or "He didn't say anything so I thought it was okay"...these are commonly used methods of blaming the victim of rape, and in our case, electronic harassment, for their position in the crime that we deal with. In my case and Christopher's experience...he didn't hear these voices until after he was assaulted...then we did. Christopher will tell his own story, but mine is fairly well documented on this blog and in the many diaries I kept over the years.
Blaming the victim for their own electronic harassment is a whole lot like blaming a baby when a father shakes it to death. The baby may be crying and fussing, but it is not responsible for its tragic death simply because the father, "couldn't take it any longer". Laurie tells me this all the time. She actually acts like my progress out of the small town that we grew up in magnified her failures and that after a period of time..."she just couldn't stand it any longer." What was I supposed to do? Dummy myself down so that she could feel better about herself? That's just ridiculous...what did happen was that I became very comfortable with my sexuality as a gay man, had many good friendships, my openness at work was accepted and she couldn't take it any longer. That's what she tells me and others...but there is more.
I get a lot of anger from Laurie for insinuating that she might be a homosexual woman. I want you all to know that I would have considered that to be "normal" for me. I know lots of homosexual women and have had many good strong relationships with them. In the gay community there isn't a whole lot of problems with men and women against each other...we have a cause to love whom we choose. Since we aren't sexually attracted to the opposite sex, rarely do the two factions not get along. Gay men naturally have more gay male friends and lesbians have more lady friends...it's just the way it usually goes.
I have been told, and it would appear, that Laurie is seeking other "women friends" by targeting men that she feels superior to...gay men. That alone does not make her a lesbian...it's the sexual aspect that she seeks with these "sister friends" that does. You don't really hear a lot of stories about "Jessica" with ladies, but you do hear about her attempting to hurt many gay men. Mikey, for example, a "boyfriend" of "Jessica", never had a sexual relationship with her. What I've found out is that he really didn't like her very much but that he was around her for a period of time when "Jessica" was stealing a lot of things from gay men. Mikey, is not "Jessica's" brother...and he is not the "Green Widow" aka the brother of the "Blue Widow".
What I've seen with my research is that Laurie, whom use to call herself, "Jessica" usually has one woman around her...no more than that...in Leah Fauntleroy's case, she also worked at the Gentlemen's Club on Perez, allegedly, but then broke away from the other girls that are electronically harassed and infected. What happened there? Leah, admittedly is a lesbian, but does not have a sexual relationship with Laurie...but she is connected with the girls on my team. Is Leah being used to torment the early female victims of this crime? Is she the "Jonathan Mendenhall" for my female members the way that Jonathan was used to get to me? Certainly Christian Johnson, whom Laurie claims "not to know" on court papers, is being used to torment his own father and sister whom are also allegedly victims of this crime. It would make sense then that these women and men know whom Laurie is and what she has done...Laurie always loves to pick at a sore spot to drive the nail in deeper.
I've heard that both Christian and Leah are also victims of this crime as well as Laurie's friends...how can that be? It's part of a cycle of manipulation that, over time, is a lot like spousal abuse where the victims think that they have a "relationship" with the abuser that is "different" and more controlled than other people. Laurie may even make it seem that way off of the microphone...but on the microphone, Laurie is abusive and violent towards both of them. Christian and Leah act like they have control of their abusive relationship, but the fact is that the abuser still has them there. A true victim of this crime would never want to spend one minute with Laurie or Brian...but this layer of blaming the victim is different than what I am talking about. Whatever their problems are, Leah and Christian are a different kind of victim, as would be Laurie's brother, whom is also infected with her virus. Mental control of a victim can manifest itself with physical abuse, verbal abuse, both and can also be used by manipulating family members and friends. Perhaps Laurie thought that by enslaving Jonathan, she would have some kind of control over Anthony and myself...the way enslaving Lean would control the early female victims of this crime, the ladies that waited tables at the Gentlemen's Club.
While breaking the cycle of abuse for Leah, Christian and Brian, Laurie's brother, is a different issue, it is important to remember that victims, even if they become criminals themselves, should not be blamed for the crimes committed against them.
I, naturally, am more concerned with the majority of the victims that we have here in our area. Moreover, I'm concerned with how they have been treated by employers, friends, family and, of course, law enforcement. I know, first hand, that electronic harassment, in our case means that Laurie wants to get involved with our families...to destroy any kind of happiness that remains there. Myself, in particular, she has tried for years to take what I built, as a man, gay man, business man and friend and turn it in to some kind of representation of what SHE IS REALLY LIKE. She constantly compares herself to me...and always with her being a MUCH BETTER PERSON that I am. Personally, I never even considered that kind of comparison...I am a man...I don't usually compare myself to a woman...we're different. I certainly never considered comparing myself to the Laurie that Jonathan said was "Lisa/Jessica/Laurie". I won't lie, I don't like her at all...but I've always found her to be abrasive, homophobic and overly sexual.
Blaming me for having "mental issues" sounds a whole lot like something that Laurie would say to Officer Spike. Blame him for what he has experienced...a gay man that got raped is a tragic thing, but for her...it would seem "funny" and somehow "justified". I wouldn't doubt it if Laurie didn't call her mom and tell her about it...and laugh. That's the kind of egomaniacal kind of person that commits this crime.
The girls from the Gentlemen's club were certainly scantily dressed and were obviously in an industry where "sex" and "sexuality" are teased...but not consented to. If you've ever been to one of these clubs, you know, that the patrons are told, from the get go, not to ever "touch the girls". I know Laurie, if you tell her not to do something, that's the first thing she is going to do. I've even heard her say it..."don't tell me not to do something"...wouldn't that make sense now that we know that these women were "off limits" to her. You can patronize an establishment, but the rules aren't an exception for a woman. The same rules apply. DON'T TOUCH THE GIRLS!!!
How many times have I heard her tell me that "women have a different standard than men"? "A sister can always talk to a sister" about anything...and the male victims of this crime are a perfect example of Laurie butting into our lives, using our sisters as the vehicle. Just like she did with her own brother I would imagine.
As a microcosm of her own familial problems, Laurie is trying to use "disease", "sisterhood", the commonality of having a gay brother with HIV and homosexual, to try to drive a wedge between myself and the women she desires...my niece and sister. It won't work. I've got too much information, but for 30 years the plan has been worked on...and the pages from my first diary explain the kind of commitment that I made to my sister and nieces after my brother in law was shot by Laurie's uncle...in self defense. I really think that Laurie saw that as some kind of door to destroy more than she ever dreamed she could.
Blaming the victim of this crime isn't something that the police should do...they need to understand that for the public to understand their predicament with her...they necessarily have to expose ours...we come first now.
