Those of my friends that watch this project and my life up to today know one very real thing...this could not be a worse case scenario for me right this second. I am going through something right now that can not be compared to anything that I've ever been through before. I have absolutely nobody to talk to because of the way my team decided this should go. I have nothing that I can say to anyone involved that I haven't said a million times before. I can't tell you anything about what it is about, but it is breaking my heart in a million pieces. I have nowhere to turn and absolutely nobody to listen to me.
This situation is one of poor decision making based on what people have done to protect themselves and let me be further victimized by the woman that infected me with HIV and implanted me with Remote Neural Monitoring devices for the past 27 or so years. I've never been more alone in my entire life with more people watching than ever. I'm not suicidal or depressed beyond what I am normally, but I can tell you this...the people that watch me have taken precautions for themselves that they wouldn't do for my own family...and that isn't in the spirit of this project. This project was meant to make it easier for the victims of this crime to help one another...but the trickle down effect hasn't come near my family. In fact it has totally been avoided.
Remaining positive is very difficult when the people you love are more fascinated with what Laurie will do next than what she has already done in the past. You can tell these morons a million times..."this is a dangerous situation; help me" and they will do less tomorrow than they did today. I will never again believe anyone that says that they would stop something from happening like this if they could...because there are twenty or more people right now that could stop this from happening to me...but they aren't.
You all need to stop being so fascinated by her evilness...you are watching a train wreck happen right in front of your very eyes and you aren't stepping in to do anything more than watch. That isn't acceptable any longer.
