This morning I got home from work and was exhausted...I worked all night at my job and trained someone the night before which is like three jobs in one...I trained a new employee, I had to actually perform my job and I had to keep Laurie at bay all night long. It's like three constant conversations going on at once between myself and our customers, myself and my trainee and myself and Laurie. Have you ever had more than one person talking to you at the same time for 8 straight hours? It's mentally exhausting. Remember Laurie is on meth and she can talk for months at a time without ever sleeping. So by the time I got home this morning it was, like most mornings, like running a mental marathon.
Fortunately most nights I work alone and I only have my job to do and I have to listen to her bitching.
I can only imagine how tired she makes certain police officers by the end of their shifts while they work overnight. I don't exactly want a mentally tired officer roaming the streets of Palm Springs trying to chase me down because Laurie tells them that I have a gun or drugs or something. This can be confrontational and almost always ends up with me in jail and the police officer looking stupid.
Yesterday was payday for me but I was too tired when I got home from work to go to the bank. I cash my paychecks and keep the money I get in a safe in my parent's home because if I leave the money in my checking or savings account, Laurie will find a way to steal it. I've learned from Steven Frey that it is safer to cash checks and keep the money in a safe.
When I laid down to go to sleep, Laurie went crazy again. I usually work three nights in a row at my job and after three consecutive nights of eight hours of her screaming, bitching and complaining, I am usually so tired that I sleep for the next two days without stop just to get ready for the next week's schedule. If you don't know this kind of mental exhaustion...it's like pulling a college all nighter studying...three times a week, every week.
Knowing that I have to work tonight, Laurie has embarked on a schedule of sleep deprivation that heats up on the morning after night number two just before my third night of work. My mental acuity dulled on the third night makes it very dangerous for me to be working on the last of the three days. It is very important that on night three that I am awake, alert and on guard. I've been shot at and raped on the nights that I am tired and remember, my stalkers are on meth...they could strike at any time. Night three provides them with the perfect storm of circumstances for this to happen. I'm sure my team isn't happy with me telling all of you this. I usually tell them that I write this kind of stuff so that if something does happen, to look at Laurie and her brother's whereabouts on that night.
Trying to keep me up for as long as she can this morning was her goal. I fell asleep and was awakened by my roommate about five minutes after crashing. Laurie went ballistic...screeching, screaming and cajoling her brother to start screaming in the background...it's not the screaming that gets an electronic harassment victim, it's the brain activity that the screaming causes...to an already tired brain, it is impossible to sleep. I warned her that if she kept me awake that I would do something that she absolutely hates...I would go cash my check and head to the local casino. Laurie hates that she's such a loser that she can't go an do fun things like that.
Here's a hint for those of you that can afford to. A casino is a time tested mental playground. The colors, lights and music are purposefully put together for one reason...to make you feel good. Obviously winning money also does that, but more important, if your mind is thinking of something besides her hateful moronic filthy talk, it creates endorphins that allow your mind to feel better. It works! I have been using it as a distraction and an EEG changer for years now. The spinning lights, the music, bonus rounds, winning money and talking to other gamblers makes Laurie fuuuuuuuuuurious. If your attention isn't on her...then she gets so angry. Remember yesterday's video with the Jimmy Kimmel kids whose parents told them that they ate all of their Halloween candy??? That is what Laurie is like, Brian too. If you didn't see it, it looks like this.
Literally, Laurie gets so upset that she can't keep me awake or make me mad that she throws a five year old sissy fit...where she throws things, yells at people and practically cries about it.
