I sure do. It's been a strange thing to give my all to people that don't give a damn, but I think it is really more about who I am than who they are not. I've given every day of my life to this crime or rather this crime has taken from me every day of my life. Depending on my mood I see it one way or another. It's really a bummer to know that I chose the wrong people to save when there are so many to choose from.
Unlike Lori who picks people because of their financial standing or the standing of their families, I made more cautious decisions that were obviously not the best. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I guess I have to be good with my own choices even when they were bad. I've accepted that my friends would rather watch me get tortured than tell the truth. That's been my life since I was 19. People love to hurt me for some reason and I used to think I could attribute that to something that I was doing. Now my understanding is that people if left to their own devices, unabated, will use you to get what they want and forget that you ever did anything for them.
I wonder what it must be like for all the people that used "Lori's name" as some kind of weapon against her if she hurt them. "I'll tell Kevin who you are if you don't leave me alone." That's a crime btw. I already know it's Lori Lafond behind all of this because I've spent the time and I have the proof. Has anyone thought about that restraining order? I sure have. How can someone without a valid id even work for the City of La Quinta? You see the Lori Lafond that does have a valid id isn't the one that filed that restraining order. She isn't the employee of that city. So all of you out there that used me in the past saying, "I'll tell Kevin if you don't leave me alone" can forget what you used to use because I'm already able to put her in jail for what she filed and how she got it done, then followed me to Sedona.
I don't have to do anything for the people that didn't tell me the truth. They would rather watch year after year while I am tortured. I think it's rather unpleasant that this group of men has done so little to help me and our community all based on some promise that they made to someone I don't know and who has robbed me. Why would you ever do what he says?
My life means nothing to those people, but here's the rub. If I get an attorney to show that Lori lied before Christopher, Anthony, and Jonathan do anything then the three of them will be accomplices in the attempted murder of myself. They can't keep saying, "But Jeffrey told me not to do anything." To me, Sedona was a setup and ambush situation. Everyone there knew Lori was present with a gun but me. I planned the trip and never once believed that my own friends would put me in such a dangerous position, then when I lived through it, they continued the situation for another ten years with the same people that they conspired within Arizona.
Ten extra years of torture with the same bad guys that stalked me out of state to kill me and they left Jeffrey in charge when they would never trust him themselves. What does that say about my friends? Better off dead? This is how little my friends have done to help me and how very little Jeffrey has tried. He'd rather talk to my sister behind my back and involve her in the crime than talk to a prosecutor about Lori Lafonds' aggravated stalking of myself and hundreds of others.
If you've ever wondered what it is like to know that your friends would rather you be dead, I can tell you, it's not the kind of feeling that goes away. How could freeing someone from a serial killer end up so horribly backward? I know, I should not call these people friends; friends don't do this kind of stuff. It is outrageous behavior that has caused me a ton of mental anguish. Their intentional infliction of emotional distress has taken years off of my life, I will never understand how they could hurt me so badly in favor of Jeffrey Katzenberg.
Knowing that your friends want you dead is sad. It's a feeling of deep despair and I'm left wondering if I should have just let Lori kill them like all the rest. I promised Christopher's mom I wouldn't let that happen so I kept my promise. Other than that I think I probably would have made a better decision looking back. Letting these three try to handle a situation was like sending a kindergartner to college. They lack the understanding and skills to help people. They know how to hide. They know how to lie. They know how to listen to liars and do what they say. What they don't know how to do is be men. These are little boys that think that life is about keeping secrets from everyone...it's a shame to think I wasted so much honesty on such undesirable friends.
In the meantime, I am not about to start making new friends for the sake of Lori needing to hurt people. So effectively these three won't act like friends and won't allow me to be friends with anyone else. They've taken every bit of my trust and thrown it away. Why wouldn't someone like Jonathan simply tell the truth about Lori and Brian? Every single one of these families was warned that someone, like Missy or Bessie, would come along and contact them. The did just that...and lied. There really is no more trust in any of the relationships I used to have. Why would there be? I'll live the rest of my life here in Shit Town then die a lonely person simply because Bessie Smith made a bad choice for my life.
Think about this. It may sound extreme for me to say that my friends want me dead, but they certainly don't mind putting my life in danger for ten years now. That's not the actions of innocent people It's the action of people that would rather you die, instead of them. Christopher left me here to die, that's a fact. So did Anthony and Jonathan. The immense pressure on me and my family to survive another round of Lori Lafond isn't entertainment its a homicidal mission for her. They claim that Lori is too dangerous to live near for themselves, but not for me. How can anything they do look less helpful than what they've done? It's negligent and criminal for them to have lured me into Sedona, then let me live this life under the guidelines set by someone that broke the law in Arizona. You may not want me dead, but you don't want me to live either.
If I've ever wanted anything in my life, this is the exact opposite. Nothing I've ever heard of compares to what my friends and enemies do to help each other. It's quite underwhelming.
Bessie Smith wanted my brother in law dead, so she kept her mouth shut when Lori was selling drugs to him and setting my sister up for a life-changing event. What kind of cold-hearted bitch does that? I guess the same kind of cold-hearted bitch that learned it was Lori Lafond that put my father in jail when I was 10 and then helped steal money for her when I was 48. You see the people that Jeffrey and Marilyn tend to befriend are criminals. They aren't good people that tell the truth, they are drug dealers, co-conspirators, thieves, and dregs of society.
What exactly did Missy do to Jeffrey to cause such a huge problem for everyone else? Was it her trip to Sedona? Was it her treacherous way of lying to his wife? What exactly is the relationship between the stripper and the billionaire that still baffles Jeffrey to this day. He won't come down against her, so why is he telling everyone that they aren't friends?
Look all I want is out of this entire situation with Lori Lafond. I don't need friends that would throw me to the wolves. I don't need a boyfriend that would let another man torture me endlessly without a single plan to help. I don't really need anyone but an attorney and Jeffrey won't let me have one. He flatly won't let me have an attorney to fight for myself. This is a crime when he is holding thousands of dollars of mine while Lori tortures me to death. His excuse? Who the fuck knows but I'll bet it has tits and blonde hair.
Knowing that your friends want you dead is sad. It's a feeling of deep despair and I'm left wondering if I should have just let Lori kill them like all the rest. I promised Christopher's mom I wouldn't let that happen so I kept my promise. Other than that I think I probably would have made a better decision looking back. Letting these three try to handle a situation was like sending a kindergartner to college. They lack the understanding and skills to help people. They know how to hide. They know how to lie. They know how to listen to liars and do what they say. What they don't know how to do is be men. These are little boys that think that life is about keeping secrets from everyone...it's a shame to think I wasted so much honesty on such undesirable friends.
In the meantime, I am not about to start making new friends for the sake of Lori needing to hurt people. So effectively these three won't act like friends and won't allow me to be friends with anyone else. They've taken every bit of my trust and thrown it away. Why wouldn't someone like Jonathan simply tell the truth about Lori and Brian? Every single one of these families was warned that someone, like Missy or Bessie, would come along and contact them. The did just that...and lied. There really is no more trust in any of the relationships I used to have. Why would there be? I'll live the rest of my life here in Shit Town then die a lonely person simply because Bessie Smith made a bad choice for my life.
Think about this. It may sound extreme for me to say that my friends want me dead, but they certainly don't mind putting my life in danger for ten years now. That's not the actions of innocent people It's the action of people that would rather you die, instead of them. Christopher left me here to die, that's a fact. So did Anthony and Jonathan. The immense pressure on me and my family to survive another round of Lori Lafond isn't entertainment its a homicidal mission for her. They claim that Lori is too dangerous to live near for themselves, but not for me. How can anything they do look less helpful than what they've done? It's negligent and criminal for them to have lured me into Sedona, then let me live this life under the guidelines set by someone that broke the law in Arizona. You may not want me dead, but you don't want me to live either.
If I've ever wanted anything in my life, this is the exact opposite. Nothing I've ever heard of compares to what my friends and enemies do to help each other. It's quite underwhelming.
Bessie Smith wanted my brother in law dead, so she kept her mouth shut when Lori was selling drugs to him and setting my sister up for a life-changing event. What kind of cold-hearted bitch does that? I guess the same kind of cold-hearted bitch that learned it was Lori Lafond that put my father in jail when I was 10 and then helped steal money for her when I was 48. You see the people that Jeffrey and Marilyn tend to befriend are criminals. They aren't good people that tell the truth, they are drug dealers, co-conspirators, thieves, and dregs of society.
What exactly did Missy do to Jeffrey to cause such a huge problem for everyone else? Was it her trip to Sedona? Was it her treacherous way of lying to his wife? What exactly is the relationship between the stripper and the billionaire that still baffles Jeffrey to this day. He won't come down against her, so why is he telling everyone that they aren't friends?
Look all I want is out of this entire situation with Lori Lafond. I don't need friends that would throw me to the wolves. I don't need a boyfriend that would let another man torture me endlessly without a single plan to help. I don't really need anyone but an attorney and Jeffrey won't let me have one. He flatly won't let me have an attorney to fight for myself. This is a crime when he is holding thousands of dollars of mine while Lori tortures me to death. His excuse? Who the fuck knows but I'll bet it has tits and blonde hair.
