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Tuesday, October 18, 2016

At What Price Are Laurie and Brian Willing To Pay For Fame?


I think that Laurie's confused and contrary position is one that she has found herself in all her life.   Not pretty enough to be the "prettiest girl in school" but acting like she was.  Not smart enough to act smart.   Not popular enough to be famous.

So when the opportunity came along for her to make money being anonymous it caused a huge clash with her tremendous need for popularity.  How could she possibly get wealthy and stay anonymous doing it?  You can't really be a popular criminal and stay out of jail unless, as she thinks, you are some kind of "gangster".  Which you hear a lot about when you talk about the history of this crime.  There is a lot of talk about "organized crime" when you hear Laurie and Brian talk about this crime and how they need "respect for their family" and "family" in general.  They aren't exactly the Genovese or Gambino families.  They aren't the Gotti's, they aren't Italian or Mexican "familia"....they aren't that at all.  They are small time rip off artists in a crime that requires anonymity, but they desire fame.  The fame monster grew inside of them like their desire to be rich.

Electronic harassment is a coward's crime.  The criminals are simply cowardly individuals that think of themselves a demigods that sit at a computer all day long and dictate to others how to live their lives.  Remember, these are people that are just sitting there.  They aren't exactly doing anything themselves.  They are trying to find out information and evoke some kind of a response from their target...basically, they are bullies.  Spies that think that it is pleasurable to take something from someone else that they can get by watching what they are thinking.  Laurie's "super hero power", as she will tell you, is the incredibly unimportant power to "piss someone off".  Isn't that amazing?  That's right up there with the ability to sneeze or to make someone cry.   I think of what Laurie does as vital to society as the ability to lick a stamp, which nobody does anymore or the ability to turn on a television with your fingers, which can be done with a remote.  In other words, what Laurie can do with her super power is what a child can do when it cries...only they don't mean to and it is innocent.  What Laurie does is intentional and something most mature individuals wouldn't find attractive.

Fame has become something so different in today's world.  I've seen reality television from it's inception to the surreality television of today.  I've seen the internet take the anonymous to celebrenety.  I've watch famous to infamous.  Criminals to Celebrinals...and the world from the inside of homes turned into television and movie studios.  Almost anyone can have some kind of measure of celebrity and that has taken a toll on celebrities themselves.  Those people with fame, which is just a normal human being that a lot of people know have now become more accessible to more people.  Those people that the girl in Kansas never could have contacted except by mail to a celebrity's "fan mail opener" is now able to post a message on a celebrity's page.  Contact is made...more easy.  Celebrities came to Earth and non celebrities rose...now people were more equal.  They really always were.

The problem is that the "already known" are being overwhelmed by the "nobody knews until now"...so there is disparity.  This too should balance out and people will need to be more responsible and more careful with what they say to ANYONE.  More respectful and more kind.  Let's hope that things that people say to celebrities of now like "I'll kill you" and "You are a faggot" will give way to other thing because they are illegal or hateful and not as anonymous.  On the other hand, celebrities will also learn that they too have to learn to be less "prissy" about the kinds of things that they deal with too, "don't you just hate it when your Dom is not served at the right temp...", (and most of us are like, yeah, that's a quality problem there...(note sarcasm)

I'm just trying to say here that there is a price for privacy that many of these internet celebrities and facebook people are not yet ready for that celebrities of the past already know exists and are still adjusting to today.  I am in the interesting and unenviable position of knowing the worst of both.  I am a very well know reality star of celebrities, that nobody else knows (and doesn't get paid) whose private life is an open book every second of the day.  There isn't really any of my life that hasn't been known to at least fifty people, mostly unknown, for thirty years.  Two of those people want to kill me.  I spent most of my life trying to win over people that were lied to about me with my actions and personality.  I didn't know I was doing this for most of my life and now I just do this to help other victims and their parents explain what is happening to them.  Here's the part that most people freak out about.  I really don't know what privacy is like.  I'm afraid of it.  You see without "no privacy" I would probably be dead.  If not for the members of my friends that are on my team keeping an eye on me, I would probably be dead by now.  They kept Laurie from killing me and they kept the evidence of her crimes against me.  You see, my lack of privacy, kept me alive and gave me the evidence.  For my part, I wrote diaries about my experience from my side of this horror, so I don't look stupid either.  I knew it was happening, but I didn't know how to explain it.  By far, the worst thing for me would be for privacy to happen now.  You see, I'm weird.  What celebrities clamor for, I beg for my life to keep for now...I need my lack of privacy until Laurie is arrested.

I liken my experience to the 1998 movie "The Truman Show".  "We accept the reality of the world which we are presented", is the Ed Davis line that is actually quite true until you know what is being presented isn't the reality that is being presented to everyone else.  I use to say, "I don't want to live in my America, I want to live in yours." People think that it's odd when I say that because they act like I can do the same things that they can do but I have factors.  I even have a movie producer on the other end of the screen making the choices for me.  It's a whole lot different when you are on the side of the camera that points at your thinking.  You know that there is something that changes the outcome and you know that if you had what everyone else had you would have better control of the outcome.  Maybe it wouldn't be what you wanted, but you would feel as if you had a better shake than if someone was making a call behind your back with something negative to say all the time.  All in all, I've done pretty well.  In the end, Jim Carrey, Truman, makes the choice that I know I would have made too...and you see it here in the film's final scene, this is where I am at now.  With all the people on the set and all of the money that the Truman Show's producers have spent and all the world adoring the loveable character Truman...he sails to the edge of his false life:

You see, the price of fame is only one of the costs that you pay in life.  There is a cost for love.  A cost for happiness.  A cost for truthfulness.  A cost for lying.  A cost for family.  A cost for love.  A cost for friends.  A cost for living.  A cost for basically everything and I guess that it's just how you prioritize where those costs all fall as to what steps you take at the edge of the set of your own Truman Show.   When you get to the edge of your ocean you have to decide where are my priorities?  What is more important to me?  Is the balancing game played best here with this one or that one or all of them?  In the end I think happiness is one of the best ones, but peacefulness has to be up there too.  I think that humanity and contributions are important to me now more than they use to be.   I've never thought fame to be all that important.  It has always been my belief that I had something special inside me that I could do however and if that came with what I did then it would lead to the other things.  I am, however, not the least bit phased by a lack of privacy.  I've known nothing but that my whole life.  That is life for me.  I'm more afraid that my life will mean nothing.  That I've had all these horrible things happen and nobody will know that Laurie did this.

I want people to promise that if I sail to the edge of my set and walk up the stairs and leave through the door...on my own or with a bullet in my head from Laurie or her brother, that someone will tell my story.  Someone should know what this is really like.  Truman was fictional, but Kevin was real.  It really happened this way.  It really did.  The police didn't want you to know. Jeffrey didn't want you to know.  Christopher wasn't allowed to tell you.   My parents weren't told, but I wanted you to know it from me.  It was true.  There once was a kid named Kevin and he was from the Bathtub.